Chapter 21Calvin Enzo POVGOD! I almost slipped earlier. I’m glad I managed to hide it. I was so nervous that Nel might notice. Thankfully, she didn’t press me further. My conscience can’t take it if she finds out the truth. I’d only end up hurting the woman I love the most—and I don’t want that to happen. I’ll do whatever it takes to keep this secret from her.“Enzo…” Nel called as we drove. I glanced at her and looked back at the road.“Hmm?” She intertwined her left hand with my right hand.“I love you so much.” My heart melted at her words.“I do love you very much, Nel,” I replied.“Enzo, I want to ask you something.”“Name it, Nel,” I said.“No more lying and keeping secrets. I know I don’t really have the right to ask this but…”“I’m cool with it,” I said confidently.Even if, deep inside, I was falling apart. How could I make that promise, sweetheart? How?“Really? You’re okay with it?” I nodded.She gave me the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen. And my conscience hit me right in
Chapter 22Calvin Enzo POVHERE we are at the park where Nel and I played with the skateboard last time, when we tried to... You know, when I acted like an idiot. Nah! Let’s forget about that. Moana and I are definitely over, even though she always tries to bug me.“Enzo!” Nel called me while riding the skateboard.I just waved at her. I’m not allowed to overexert myself anymore, but I show her that I’m doing fine. I was really nervous yesterday because it just so happened that I was with her. I’m scared she’ll find out the truth. The guilt is killing me. Making her believe I’m completely fine is like a dagger buried in my chest. My illness is killing me slowly. Sometimes, I blame God for why this happened to me—why it had to be me, why I have to leave someone behind, why it still hurts so much even though I’ve accepted it for a long time. Maybe it’s time for me to settle things now.“You don’t want to?” Nel said as she stopped in front of me.“I enjoyed just watching you,” I answered
Chapter 23 Marinel’s POVWHEN we got to the parking lot, I was gripping my pencil so tightly I almost snapped it. What is she doing here?! I froze mid-step, causing Enzo to stop too and look at me. “Nel, I’ll explain later.” I didn’t say a word. I just walked straight to the car and sat in the front seat, silently.“Morning, cousin!” Moana greeted me cheerfully. I didn’t respond and turned my gaze outside the car. Enzo got in and started the engine.“Good luck on your exam, Babe,” Moana flirted with him. Even though I wasn’t looking, I noticed Enzo didn’t respond. I bit my lip hard. I was fuming. I wanted to cry at everything happening. Is this what he meant by ‘nothing important’? Well, it’s important to me! What did she do this time to get Enzo to give in again? I took a deep breath. I know I don’t have the right to act this way because Enzo and I don’t exactly have a label. We agreed that love isn’t defined by status. But still—there’s something about having a clear hold on some
Chapter 24 Calvin Enzo POV WHAT a damn day! I’ve been cursing while walking out of campus. I didn’t want to fight with Nel, or make her mad. “Babe!” Moana called. She clung to me as soon as she reached me. “Let go!” I pulled her hand away. “Did you do it already?” I clenched my jaw and teeth. “What do you even know about me!?” I gripped her arm tightly. She threatened me to leave Nel like she knew my illness. For God’s sake! I wasn’t ready to tell Nel the truth. I’m terrified of making her miserable. Now I’m just confused! “Enzo, you’re hurting me!” I gripped her arm tighter. “Now what!?” She started crying, so I let go. “Fine! I don’t know anything! I just want you back! I want you to come back to me! Please Enzo, choose me again! Me, please!?” I got angrier at her for saying that. “That’s bullshit!” I snapped and turned away. How stupid was I to listen to her! I headed straight to my car to go after Nel. I wanted to apologize and explain. I drove as fast as I could. Once
Chapter 25Marinel’s POVANDY and I were both sitting in the waiting area. I had been crying nonstop. Enzo was still inside the ER.“I’m sorry, Nel,” Andy said sadly, crying too.“I should’ve taken better care of him.” He blamed himself. I shook my head and rubbed his back.“No one’s at fault, Andy.” He composed himself and wiped his tears.“I’ll call his parents,” he said and went to the information desk.Then the ER doors opened and the doctor came out. I stood and approached him.“How is he?” My knees were trembling in fear.“He’s stable now, but I’ll be honest. There’s nothing more we can do about his illness. I’m sorry. You can discharge him anytime. Excuse me.” I slumped down in shock. I covered my mouth to muffle my sobs.“Nel…” I looked up.I stood without hesitation and hugged Andy tightly.“Andy… What now…” I didn’t know what to do—whether to scream or collapse just to ease the pain I felt.“Make him happy, Nel. Please!” Andy begged through his sobs.I shut my eyes tightly.
Beginning of Book 2...Marinel’s POVONE YEAR later...I GENTLY stroked Enzo’s gravestone while sitting on the thin mantle I laid out. I smile every time I remember his smiles, especially when he used to call me "Ms. Universe" whenever he’d be affectionate with me. "How are you, Enzo? Are you happy up there?" I looked up at the sky and then lowered my head again. "I'm sorry, Enzo. I still haven’t passed the board exam. The review center is so expensive. I’ve taken it several times, and by the way, I always fail." I wiped away the tear that fell on his gravestone. "But I have some good news for you. I no longer feel the pain I used to whenever I remember you. And the bad news is, no man has crossed my path yet." I chuckled softly. "I think there’s only one thing I’ve accomplished, Enzo—surviving all of this." I hugged my knees. "I miss you so much, Enzo. It’s so frustrating that you didn’t even visit me in my dreams," I said with a hint of a pout. Then my phone rang. I read the t
Chapter 27 Marinel's POV SEVERAL hours have passed, but I just can’t settle in my seat here inside the taxi. He’s been glancing at me through the rearview mirror for a while now. It feels like I'm on the hot seat. But wow! The driver is so handsome. He looks like a model, and he's tall too, judging by the muscles in his arms."We're here," he suddenly said."Huh? Oh, okay! How much is it?" I hurriedly fumbled in my pocket for money."It's free. Go on," he said, smiling as the door automatically opened."Free?" I asked, still surprised. He nodded and couldn’t stop smiling at me."Thank you so much," I shyly replied and got out of the taxi. The door shut, and he just smiled sweetly at me before driving away."Hey Nel! You're in a daze!""Ah! He's so handsome!" I squealed while pulling Amelia’s hair."Ouch! You really know how to pull hair! What’s so handsome about him?" she asked, annoyed, while trying to block my hand."The taxi driver I rode with! Amelia, he’s so handsome!" I said,
Chapter 28Marinel’s POVI QUICKLY got out of bed. I’m always so slow to get moving. I almost tripped in my hurry. After I finished everything, I immediately went out of the house because Mrs. Pipay was going to collect payment for my water and electricity bills again.I quickly called a taxi. "Stop!" When it stopped, I quickly got into the taxi, feeling like I was about to leave my soul behind. The driver was as handsome as the one I rode with the other day.He smiled widely at me. If before, I was worried about my bra breaking, now it seemed like even my underwear might rip. I grimaced as I gawked."Where to, Miss?" he asked, and I felt a shiver of excitement.He spoke with a British accent, clearly still learning how to speak Tagalog. I wiped the sweat off my forehead. It was dripping!"To the… cemetery… near Makati… the big one..." I stammered, unsure if I gave the correct address. Those deep, glowing eyes of his were distracting."Alright then..." he replied and quickly drove of
Chapter 42Marinel's POV AFTER GETTING OFF THE AIRPORT...A red van greeted us right outside. When it stopped in front of us and Caldwill opened the door, Andy appeared.“How was the flight?” Andy asked.“It was fine,” I replied and climbed inside the van. Caldwill followed, still silent, and sat next to me.“Floyd, let’s use the other exit. We need to pick someone else up,” Andy instructed the driver and moved to the back seat. I honestly wished Andy sat next to me instead, so I wouldn’t feel like drying up from being ignored. I had no choice but to stay silent.When we reached the other exit, the van stopped again. Andy opened the door, and I was truly surprised. Apparently, we weren’t the only ones going there—others were coming too.“They're volunteers from Dr. Ynes. Bro, can Nel sit on your lap so we can all fit?” Andy said.I was stunned by what he said. Even Caldwill looked uncertain as he glanced at me.“Come on,” he said, then wrapped his arms around my waist. I felt like I’
Chapter 41Caldwill Enzo POV "THAT'S fucking insane—disgusting, horrible, and fucking ridiculous! Why the hell did I do that!?"I’d been banging my head on the steering wheel for a while now.“Damn!” I muttered in frustration.“Sir, maybe you want to break a bottle?” Ivan said.I didn’t even notice him.“Shut up,” I replied and got out of the car. I grabbed the Shakey’s pizza from the passenger seat and handed it to him. Right after that scene, I left and wandered around.“Sir, ma’am Marinel hasn’t come out of your room since earlier,” he informed me.I just nodded and headed inside the house. I went straight to my room, took a deep breath, and knocked. Why am I even knocking? This is my room.I turned the doorknob and pushed the door open.I saw Marinel, still asleep.I quietly walked to the foot of the bed to check her feet. Thank God! They’re no longer swollen, and she’s okay now.I moved to her left side and just stared at her.Pain twisted in my chest. Why did destiny make thing
Chapter 40 Caldwill Enzo POV"WHY didn’t Calvin go through surgery? Why didn’t he get chemotherapy?" I was surprised by her question and frowned, but I quickly recovered and let out a heavy sigh."Because he didn’t want to. Aside from that, his condition was already too severe at that time. His liver and kidneys weren’t responding anymore. His lungs were infected too, that’s why he often had trouble breathing. But my brother was hardheaded and I couldn’t control that." I heard her sniff."Marinel," I called. She shook her head."You know what? He even joked that methotrexate was his vitamins. He even told me he had two months left." I saw her shoulders tremble. I knew she was crying even if she tried to hide it. Even though her face was covered by a book, I could still hear her soft sobs. And it hurt me—seeing her like this, still unable to move on from the past. I’m still grieving too, but not the way she is. She’s still in so much pain, and that pains me too.I stood up straight an
Chapter 39Marinel’s POV I KEPT peeking outside my room while rubbing my stomach. I didn’t eat properly earlier at Veronica’s apartment. How could I when she irritated me to no end? I rolled my eyes and finally stepped out of my room. I glanced at the clock and, as if the universe hated me, it was already 1 a.m. sharp. I headed straight to the kitchen after going down the stairs. But I think I made the wrong move—Caldwill was in the kitchen. His back was to me, and he was only wearing pajama pants. I couldn’t help but gulp as my eyes traced his back. His strong and well-built frame was seriously heating up some unidentified hormones in me. What the hell! I slapped my own cheek and slowly turned to leave."Are you hungry?" he asked. I shut my eyes tightly and turned back to him."Huh? No! Just thirsty. That’s right!" I cringed at my own stupidity. You idiot, Nel!"Sit," he said curtly while pointing to the high chair. The kitchen was styled like a mini bar."Huh? No need!" I refused,
Chapter 38Marinel's POV EVENTUALLY, I finished getting ready. I wore a blue fitted dress with a slit on the thigh. I paired it with blue high heels and a set of white gold jewelry. I left my hair down and only applied a bit of lipstick. I’m not used to dressing up like this, but I had to in order to look presentable. Caldwill once bullied me because of how I dressed, so I don’t want to experience that kind of mockery from others again.When I saw myself in the mirror, I felt like I wanted to date the reflection I saw."Damn, I look good!" I said in amazement.I glanced at my watch and saw I was right on time. I stepped out of the guest room and headed to my room to grab my small purse.Once I was done, I left the house without saying a word. Just as I stepped outside, a taxi stopped in front of me. The driver rolled down the window and peeked out."Ma’am, are you Marinel Villaraza?" he asked, checking a paper in his hand.I was stunned. Nica really went all in! She actually pretende
Chapter 37Caldwill Enzo POV“WHAT did I do wrong?” I turned to Ivan with my hands on my hips.“I might say, sir, she’s not the type of woman who’s into these kinds of stuff,” he replied.I couldn’t help but get annoyed by her attitude earlier.“Just buy it all, Ivan, and put them somewhere safe,” I ordered, then headed up the stairs.I stopped in front of Marinel’s room.Should I knock?Damn! Why can’t I decide!I shook my head and knocked without thinking twice. The door opened, and I noticed she had been crying based on her red and puffy eyes. Guilt suddenly crept in. She was about to shut the door again, but I quickly pushed it open. She was surprised when I entered the room. She was about to say something, but I pulled her into my arms before she could. I let out a deep sigh.“I... I’m sorry,” I whispered.She slowly moved her arms and wrapped them around my waist. She started crying again. I could feel her sobs and her heavy breathing against my chest.Damn! It felt like my hear
Chapter 36Marinel's POV THE TRIP didn’t take long, and we soon arrived at SM Laguna. After he parked the car, he was the first to get out. I followed shortly after. I stood with my hands on my hips, staring at the mall entrance. What exactly are we doing here?Suddenly, Caldwill walked up to me and wrapped an arm around my waist. I gulped at his sudden closeness."Staring at it won’t make it melt," Caldwill said.I flinched as if I had been burned and immediately pushed his hand away from my waist. Come on, Nel! Your heart’s acting up again! I looked down, feeling like I’d just been slapped because my cheeks were burning hot."Let’s go..." he said as he guided and pulled me along.As we walked up to the second floor, I couldn’t help but glance at his hand holding mine. I probably looked weird, but every time he’s nice to me, it somehow makes me feel happy."Watch your step!" I heard Caldwill say.Before I could reply, he quickly grabbed me by the waist and lifted me slightly. That s
Chapter 35Caldwill Enzo POVI RAN after Marinel, but I was too late—she was already inside her room. What did I do!? I was about to knock, but I chose to just leave her be. I massaged my temple and scratched the back of my neck. I was just joking around that time, but she suddenly cried, and I don’t even know the exact reason why she reacted that way. I don’t know if it was because of the joke or something else. But when I looked into her eyes… there was something.I had no choice but to go to my room and sit at the edge of my bed. I took my phone out of my pocket and called Andy.“Bro...” he answered, clearing his throat.“Come here,” I ordered.“Huh? Did you and Nel talk, Caldwill?” he asked.“Just come here...” I replied and ended the call.I threw myself onto the bed. Why do I feel so guilty? Damn it!I lay there for several minutes before deciding to get up and leave my room.“Sir, Andy is here, in the pool area,” Ivan informed me. I tapped his arm and headed down the stairs.“P
Chapter 34Caldwill Enzo POVI FEEL like punching a woman right now. Damn it! She’s been making me wait for so long! I told her to pack everything but here she is! Marinel’s luggage still isn't completely packed, she says."Are you done, Veronica? Because if not, I might just come back later," I said lazily.This woman is crazy! How is she supposed to finish packing when she keeps trying to act cute around me? And when she does manage to pack something, she throws in a little wiggle. Tss!I shook my head slightly."Just a moment, Caldwill, this is really the last one," she said.I stood up from where I was sitting and silently walked out. I whistled, and my driver immediately ran up to me."Get the stuff!" I ordered irritably.I marched straight to my car. Damn that woman! I wasted almost half an hour just waiting for her to finish!I got inside the car and noticed that my driver had already loaded Marinel's belongings."Hurry up, Damian. I’m already so late!" I said, feeling restless