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XX. Missing Him
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2021-08-09 19:16:06“Oy bakla, anong gusto mong regalo bukas?” tanong ni Abby kay Jay nang ibinigay niya ang hinihingi nitong documents.
“Oy beshie bakit reregaluhan mo ako?” excited nitong tanong.
“Bakit naman kita bibigyan, ano ako mayaman?” pag-iinis niya.
“Umalis ka nga sa harapan ko. Bruhang to paasa.”
Tumawa si Abby. “Hindi seryoso talaga, ano bang gusto mong mataggap bukas?”
“’Yong boylet mong kasama noong sabado sa mall pwede?”
“Sira! Pinsan ko ‘yon. He’s a Noli Me Tangere sis. Touch Me Not, okay?”
“Ay sige na nga. Actually ‘yong tab ko sira na eh ginagamit ko pa naman ‘yon sa pag-aaral ko. Kung magiging fairygod mother ka tomorrow, ‘yon nalang te,” hiling nito.
“Katulad din ng tab mo? Diba mahal ‘yon?” reklamo ni Abby. “Teka! Mali ata na tinanong kita, nacurious lang talaga ako pero ‘wag na ‘wag mong iisipin na ibibigay ko sayo hah, mas may pera ka pa sa akin eh.”
“Nagtanong ka pa!”
“Masama bang magtanong. Akala ko naman kasi ang gusto mo eh intangible, nakalimutan ko materialistic ka pala.”
“Bruha!” anitong natatawa.
“Maganda kasi ‘yong tab ko. Kahit anong bigat ng app na nakainstall hindi nagla-log kasi malaki ‘yong memory. Ilang taon na rin ‘yon sa akin eh ngayon ang hirap ng buhay, puno na ako ng loan eh hindi naman pwedeng wala akong gamitin, finals na namin. At tsaka hihiling na lang din ako lulubus-lubosin ko na noh.” Nag-aaral ito nang 2-year fashion design sa gabi.
“Parang ako lang ah! Gaya-gaya,” aniya. Natawa silang dalawa.
“Ano? Nakabingwit ka ng mayaman?” anito.
“Ikaw kung magsalita ka para akong slut.”
“Oh? Bakit hindi ba?”
Ngumiti siya. “Slight lang naman.”
“Kaya nga beshie tayo eh.” At nag-appear silang dalawa bago bumalik si Abby sa cubicle nito.
★★★
“Trish! Mabuti naman at pumayag kang mag-usap tayo,” bati ni Drake sa kanya nang dumating siya sa park na malapit lang sa kanila. Dito na siya dumiretso pagkagaling sa trabaho.
“Ano bang gusto mong sabihin Drake?” aniya na umiwas nang akto siya nitong yayakapin.
He cleared his throat perhaps to wash away the embarassment. Silently Trisha was grinning inside. Confident ito at hindi niya kailanman nakitang napapahiya.
“Let’s go to a restaurant and talk,” anito.
Tumingin siya sa palibot. May mga taong nagjojogging, mga nagbibisikleta at mga batang naglalaro sa park.
“Pwede namang dito mag-usap ah, busy ang mga tao so we can have privacy if it’s what you want,” aniyang blangko parin ang ekspresyon.
Huminga ito ng malalim at sa hinuha ni Trisha pinipigilan nito ang inis. Ngayon niya mas lalong naisip kung paano siya nakasurvive sa ugali nito. Kahit na malambing ito nuong nagsisimula pa sila bumalik sa kanyang alaala na nag-iba ang ugali nito nang maipanalo ang isang malaking kaso ng isang mayamang pamilya na siya ring naging simula ng success nito sa pagiging attorney. Ayaw niya ng away kaya naman hindi siya pumapatol kahit napakadali nitong mainis at halos wala ng oras sa kanya. She was always holding on to the future of having a family of her own that’s why she was so blinded by the change in their relationship.
Sumunod ito nang umupo siya sa bakanteng long bench na malapit sa kanila.
“Tomorrow is my mom’s birthday,” anito na tumabi sa kanya.
Oo nga pala, magkasabay ang birthday ni tita Martha at Jay kaya naman palagi siyang nale-late sa celebration ni Jay sa bahay nila. Isa pang naalala niya ay ang hindi pagbibigay ni Drake ng effort na makihalubilo sa mga kaibigan kapag may okasyon kaya naman hindi ito masyadong gusto ng mga ito. Pero dahil nga mahal niya ang nobyo hindi niya pinansin ang lahat.
“I need you there–“
“Drake!” pagputol niya sa sasabihin nito. “Bakit ako? Bakit hindi ang pinsan ko?” She gave emphasis with the word pinsan. Ano siya gagamiting front para maitago ang pag-aagaw na ginawa ng pinsan? Unbelievable!
He looked depressed and weaved his hand through his hair. “Mom didn’t know we broke up,” pag-amin nito.
“Oh! Hindi niya alam na ang very good niyang anak eh nagawang magloko,” nasabi niyang may pang-uuyam.
“It was all for her at alam mo ‘yon.” Medyo napataas ang boses nito kaya naman napasulyap ito sa mga taong may kanya-kanyang ginagawa at hindi sila napapansin.
“Believe whatever you wanted to believe Drake,” nginitian niya ito sarcastically, “I don’t care! We’re done and just send my greetings to her.” Tumayo na siya. Naisip niya ang kalagayan ni tita Martha at nakaramdam siya ng awa dito at nakakainis mang aminin pati na rin sa dating nobyo. Alam niya kung gaano nito kamahal ang ina.
She sighed and patiently said. “Just tell her we…decided to end it because…we were so busy with our priorities. Tita Martha will understand.” Umalis na siya at iniwan itong nakaupo parin sa long bench at nakatanaw sa malayo.
★★★
It’s Tuesday and Trisha woke up early, still wearing her favorite large t-shirt that her brother had given her with the word sleepyhead printed in the front. Did her daily routine, drinked two glasses of water and cooked rice then a little exercise and cleaning here and there around her apartment.
Nang matapos ay nagluto na siya ng sunny side up egg at ham. While cooking hindi niya maiwasang sumulyap sa pintuan. Remembering the times that Marsden used to knocked at her door and ate with her enjoying the food she cooked. Pinagalitan niya ang sarili. “Two days pa nga lang ganito kana Trish, pa’no na kaya kung forever na.” She sighed at nagpatuloy na sa pagluluto. “Masasanay ka rin,” aniya sa sarili.
Almost everynight no matter what time or how busy Marsden was in his company, nagagawa nitong magchat ng goodnight sa kanya. Sino naman ang hindi masasanay sa ganoong gesture? And Trisha actually expected him to chat even just to bid her goodnight. But he didn’t and Trisha lost the courage to chat first. Kasi naman siya mismo ang nagsabi na kalimotan na nitong nagkita sila ulit. Maybe it is for the best?
Nang nasa opisina na ay napansin niyang iba ang tingin sa kanya ni Abby. Pilya ito kaya nan wala siyang tiwala sa ngiting ipinupulol nito sa kanya.
“Ano?!” aniya sa kaibigan.
“What?!” anito na may palihim na ngiti.
Tuluyan na siyang humarap dito kasabay ng kanyang swivel chair.
“Nakakainis lang kasi may pamysterious smile ka d’yan. Anong ganap?” pairap niyang tanong dito.
Abby laughed. “Wala! Excited lang ako dahil finally makikita na rin namin ang boyfriend mo.” Nakangiti paring saad ni Abby.
She breathe deeply. “Ilang ulit ko bang–“
“Sabi ko boyfriend…boy…friend, I mean lalaking kaibigan. H’wag ka ngang assuming girl!” sabay tawa sa kanya.
Naiinis na natatawa at napapailing na lamang si Trisha na bumalik na sa trabaho. Ngunit nang mapatingin sa kanyang cellphone bumalik sa kanya ang paghihinayang. Gustong-gusto niyang echat si Marsden at sabihing bati na sila pero alam niyang babalik lang din sila sa dati at hindi kailan man malulutas ang problema ng kaibigan.
With a deep breathe minabuti ni Trisha na isiping para rin ito sa kapakanan ni Marsden. No one would trigger the nightmare if she was not there to remind him of the past.
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Be Officially Mine LVIII. Not My Fault
After a while, she raised her head, blew her nose with her handkerchief and looked at him. He wiped a drop of tear upon her lip. “What happened?”“It’s because of me…it’s my fault, I killed an innocent child Mars.”“What are you talking about?”She retold Chelsea’s accusations and it angered him.“Nothing happened that night, I just let him kiss me to show him I don’t feel anything anymore, to have a closure, for him to leave me alone.”“Hey, hey, listen to me,” gently palming her cheeks with both hands. “It’s not your fault, it was an accident.”“I know, yet I’m so afraid…what if karma befell me. I know I shouldn’t because God won’t be that cruel pero kasalanan pa rin ‘yun. She lost her child because of me, because I let Ash kissed me that night. I have the choice to stop it but I didn’t–““And what are you afraid of? That someday it will also happen to you?” Napansin niyang natigilan ito. “We all have our sins Trish and what you think you’ve done is not even your fault at all.
Be Officially Mine LVII. Inescapable Guilt
It’s been a week since Trisha heard Chelsea’s reason for hating her and no matter how much she tried to be optimistic and stop herself from feeling guilty, she can’t. Because she was there, and Ash did kissed her and she let him, to show him that she’s not affected anymore, there’s no spark, that things have changed for months of being apart after she transferred to a public school. And also to close their relationship properly, to say goodbye, so Ash would stop those childish acts that forced her to come to him. Chloe was in Davao with her boss and Marsden was in Bacolod to close a big deal. She missed him so badly especially now that she’s feeling down. They talked over the phone yet being together physically is different. She can’t eat properly, she can’t even sleep for fearing of the nightmare that came to her that night after she and Chelsea talked. She woke up crying, feeling the pain of losing someone, her heart cried and ache for someone. Her baby, her own baby. Most
Be Officially Mine LVI. Hatred Justified?
Weeks passed and Marsden and Trisha enjoyed every moment spent with each other. They read books together, do joggings together at the park Marsden usually do joggings. Marsden stayed with her in her apartment, together they went to the office and when Marsden needed to extend his time at work, he always asked Gareth, one of his trusted employees to drive her home using Marsden’s car.Trisha knew her friends noticed the change in their relationship but she always denies it. They both agreed to keep it secret and asked Chloe and Rudy to do the same. In the eyes of the others who knew them both they were just friends. Wala rin namang malaking pagbabago dahil sanay narin ang mga kaibigan na palagi siyang hinahatid at sinusundo ni Marsden pero siguro dahil na rin sa effort nitong mahatid siya araw-araw, at sa mga chocolates na dumarating, pati na rin sa mga pagkain kapag nag-oovertime sila kaya naman minsan iba ang ngiti ni Jay sa kanya.Everyday, waking up with Marsden was like livin
Be Officially Mine LV. Lovers
When Trisha woke up the next morning, she felt like someone who had finally woken up from sleeping for years. She just lay there and closed her eyes again to thanks God for this another day. Last night she thought it would be her last or if not, Arnel would definitely left her devastated and surely ruined. She wanted to cry again, not of fear this time but thankful and relieved to have her guardian angels. “Marsden,” she whispered as his face appeared on her consciousness. She can’t stop the blush traveling over her face as she remembered something else that happened last night. Naitakip niya ang mga palad sa mukha as the events played before her eyes. Feeling giddy for the words he’d uttered and guilty, definitely guilty for sleeping on him. When finally she decided to clean up and went down to the kitchen, her stomach growled with the delicious smell coming from there. Trisha thought him gone but she heard his voice singing along with the music on his phone. Nakita niyang b
Be Officially Mine LIV. Love And Obsession
Jade was calling Arnel for the hundredth time but it’s always out of coverage. She was anxious to know what happened and even excited to hear her enemy’s downfall. A sly grin slowly appeared over her face. Finally, if Trisha get devastated and change her positivity, Jade’s beloved Ash wouldn’t like the bitch anymore, and she will have him for good. Finally! Finally! But the bastard Arnel can’t be reached and it’s disturbing her nerves. She was about to leave and go to the bar where Arnel wasn’t banned when someone knocked on her bedroom door repeatedly. Her dad is in congress and her mom visited her friends. Who could it be? “I’m coming, I’m coming,” aniyang naiinis at padabog na binuksan ang pinto. “A-Ash!” Jade was a little bit shocked to see him and a sudden burst of anxiety dwells in her rapidly beating heart. What if Ash realized what she’d done? But he looked calm, maybe he is here to ask her out. She pasted her sweetest smile. “Hey, come in.” She led him to her sof
Be Officially Mine LIII. An Adventure With You
“We should terminate the contract to avoid being caught up with his illegal deeds,” Marsden said in anger. “But sir–“ “Your department is the one whose responsibility is to check the credibility of the people we get into contract with. How come, that this problem is here now taunting our patience.” He looked at their eyes one by one. “Don’t make me caught you receiving commissions from our clientele just for their papers to pass the screening.” They just looked down and received his scolding. This is a serious matter. These men are in the company even when his grandfather was still the chairman. He trusted their loyalties but someone is surely having his loyalty bought. “Sir!” bulong ni Hans sa kanya. “Nasa office mo si Trisha at Drew.” Napangiti siya nang marinig ang pangalan ni Trisha pero nagulat siya ng marinig na kasama nito si Drew. Worriedly, he excused himself at pumunta sa kanyang opisina. He saw Drew outside of his office. He was angry and worried while Drew re
Be Officially Mine LII. A Savior From Hell
“Mag-oovertime ako ngayon, I have a deadline which I think, is impossible to meet.” Kausap ni Trisha sa cellphone si Rudy nang tumawag ito habang papasok siya ng rest room sa kanilang floor. “I already explained it to her, pero hindi siya nakikinig and after the meeting she just left. I’m so sorry Ruds, pati ikaw nadadamay sa mga kalokohan ko.” “Ano ka ba, sumabay ka na sa boyfriend mo…ako na ang bahala sa sarili ko at tsaka minsan lang nga kayo magkatime, aayaw ka pa.” After assuring him she’s okay kahit na hindi siya masusundo nito mamaya, in.off na niya ang cellphone at ibinulsa sa kanyang blazer. Habang naghuhugas ng kamay, naisip ni Trisha ang meeting kanina. Thankfully, hindi siya late dahil every detail ng meeting ay importante. To start, Chelsea was having an indefinite leave. Unfortunately, as Chelsea is leaving, the staff are required to finish monthly reports this week and other necesarry reports for their new boss. Trisha handles four large branches and it’s defin
Be Officially Mine LI. Violently Jealous
“God! She’s killing me!” Marsden whispered to himself when he got inside his car. It’s getting harder to control himself around her. He wanted to give in, he wanted to feel her, embraced her, wrapped himself with her heat. But his mind, the one who keeps on reminding him of his promise not to let his heart rule again over his head, waking him like a drench of cold water. He snorted with the thought that she wanted to learn flirting. She’s already a killer and he’s not sure if he can survive the next time. He tried to keep it cool, everytime this crazy attraction pulls him like a magnet and every day gets harder and harder to resist. Tomorrow, he should tell Trisha to stop what she feels because he doesn’t feel the same, such a big lie. He should stop this and if being far from her is the only solution then he had no other choice. ‘*** “Teka, ang aga pa ata nangangapitbahay ka na?” aniya
Be Officially Mine L. My New Neighbor
Days passed and Trisha and Marsden renewed their friendship. Eating together at breakfast and sometimes at dinner. But one thing that change is that he never sleepover anymore. Even when the rain never stop pouring, he always had reasons to go. Sometimes it makes Trisha laugh to think he was afraid that she would lose into temptation and ravish him at night. But then, reality also makes her sad that even though their friendship was returned, he was still careful and maybe just trying to spare her feelings…he might not have directly told her to stop but she felt how much he avoided her failed flirtations. It was not easy really, because Trisha don’t know how to flirt. With her previous relationships, she wasn’t actually into flirting, was not motivated or doesn’t have the chance or maybe theirs were different with how she felt with Marsden. However, she is quiet enjoying it. Everytime he looked at her in a way that to
