22

"She's not the only one who gets to choose, Toff."

He finally lets me go, but both of his hands are now holding the side of my arms, eyes boring into mine, "You're going to leave me too, Nina?"

When I was with Christian, I was always the first option despite the possibility of our relationship being just a bet. He was a gentleman, he always prioritised me above his friends or anything else that he could control.

He made me feel important. He made me feel I’m wanted despite my struggle with body image; I was overweight in middle school until I finished my bachelor degree. Those are probably the wrong reasons to be with someone but I’ve gotta admit, those qualities made me fell head over heels for him.

With Toffer, I'm always the last option.

If he's seeing someone, I would always be pushed to the end of the list.

But I don't really mind, considering I understand that he needs to put his girlfriend above me, just like Christi