Chapter 42 - Delilah

Did that all happen? I just had my first man-made orgasm, and it was with Alexander. It was very different from anything I fantasized about and felt more intense and amazing than any I’d given myself. I refuse to think about how he got so good at that. I don’t want to think about those that had him before me. Alexander is mine, now and forever.

Not to mention he trusted me to let me take the lead. Now that I have his permission, I’m feeling nervous about it. Okay, in all honesty, I’ve been nervous the whole time.

I’m worried I’ll say or do something that unintentionally triggers him. I’m nervous about losing my virginity. I think most people would be. He’s been with a fair number of others. What if I don’t measure up, so to speak?

‘Will you stop that nonsense? You’re his mate. No one else will measure up to YOU, not vice versa.’ Helia shook her head.

She’s right, of course. Getting in my head and worrying about how I’d compare wouldn’t make anything easier, let alone better. I need