How could you do this ?

A heavy silence lingered between us as Dion avoided my gaze, his eyes distant and evasive. 

"Yes, I hope you can understand," he finally murmured.

 

I sneered, with a bitter edge to my tone. "Understand? How can I understand when everything has become a twisted mess?"

 

My voice was quivering with a mix of frustration and hurt. "For over two years, I've worked hard, believing that you would notice me if I just kept trying. Why did everything changes when Alessia came back?"

 

Dion sighed, his shoulders sagging as if under the weight of his own decisions. "Kiana, it's not that simple. I made a promise to Alessia, and I wanted to fulfil it."

 

I couldn't bear to let him finish. Interrupting him, I shook my head in disbelief, feeling a sense of discouragement settle in. "A promise to Alessia? Is that all you care about? What about me?"

 

Dion hesitated. "What has this got to do with you, Kiana?" I don't understand why you are being so unreasonable."

 

I cut him off. "Unreasonable? Dion, I was so stupid to believe otherwise. Do you even realise that I've liked you since I was fourteen?"

 

His face seemed to soften for a moment, but I wasn't finished yet. 

 

"But you are the most conscientious person I have ever met! You never cared about my feelings or what I wanted. It was always about you and your own desires. I can't believe I wasted so many years of my life on someone who doesn't even deserve me." 

 

 

"You're being irrational, Kiana," Dion retorted, his frustration clear in the sharpness of his tone.

 

"Am I irrational in wanting to believe in something real? For devoting my life to a marriage I believed had purpose."

 

 

Dion's jaw clenched, his eyes turned red, and his voice quivered with suppressed anger. "Kiana, I understand you feel hurt and disappointed. I never meant to hurt you. But I made a promise, an Alpha's oath. I have to fulfil it."

 

His words only fueled my resentment. "Hurt me? You've shattered my trust, Dion. I don't even know who you are anymore."

 

"Enough, Kiana! I am still your alpha." Dion's voice grew louder, his dominance asserting itself. "You may question my actions, but remember your place in our pack."

 

I scoffed.

 

"Of course, how can I defy my alpha's decision? I will fulfil it," I declared, my voice a mix of resignation and determination.

 

I made a bow and left his room.

 

Tears blurred my vision as I fled from Dion's room. I bumped into Alessia in the hallway, an unintentional encounter that made my chest hurt even more. I didn't want her to see my weakness, the proof of the suffering she had subjected me to.

 

Wiping away my tears hastily, I tried to compose myself before Alessia could discern the emotional turmoil I was going through. 

I took a deep breath, summoning the strength to face her. "I will never forgive you two for what you've done."

 

It was like a stifling darkness when I got back to my room by myself and thought about all the broken dreams and promises. I looked at the wolfsbane that Alessia had left behind with sad eyes that were wet with tears. The bitter plant hurt me because it made me think of the decisions I had to make.

 

Without Dion, my anchor, I didn't know where to go. I felt lost and overwhelmed, as if I were floating in a vast ocean of uncertainty. 

 

The child in my belly, a symbol of hope that had now crumbled to dust, felt like a weight I could no longer bear. In a moment of heart-wrenching farewell, I whispered my goodbyes, a silent acknowledgement of the void that would remain.

 

"I am sorry, my baby; please forgive me." 

 

My wolf howled in protest. I spoke to her with a heavy heart. "I am sorry; I have to do this. I promise we'll be fine," I said, my voice barely above a whisper.

 

I raised the wolfsbane to my lips with firm determination. The bitter liquid carried the weight of broken dreams. The poison burned its way through me. Unable to hold on any longer, I threw the bottle on the ground, where it shattered into a million pieces. A tear escaped the corner of my eye, a silent witness to the complete disappointment that had settled within me. 

 

As the wolfsbane took hold, a sharp pain shot through my stomach, showing how upset I was emotionally. I could feel the room spinning, and the world around me turned into a fuzzy outline. It was too late to change my mind. Within me, the poison had already started its evil dance, leaving me helpless to stop it. The pain got worse, a cruel reminder of my poor decisions. The light went out, and I gave up to the darkness.