>>PortiaI wonder if there’s anyone as miserable as I am.To be rejected by two people who were meant to be mine, would anyone be able to handle that? Because I seem to be breaking with every step I take.The night was silent and lifeless.I brought my fingers to my lips and the kiss we shared came back to my mind. It was such a tender and warm feeling. Such an amazing and cozy sensation that I didn’t think about the consequences at all.I looked up at the sky. It was a full moon tonight and I stopped and stared at it with a broken heart.“Why?” I asked the moon goddess, “Why do you hate me?” I whispered the words while tears welled up in my eyes. I continued to stare at the brightly shining circle in the dark sky, “I didn’t do anything wrong…” I sniffled and the tears started streaming down my cheeks, “Why curse me?” I sniffled once again which was followed by endless silence, “In your eyes, am I a mistake too?”…Right.I scoffed at myself.She wouldn’t answer me.I looked down in d
>>Portia I stood there dumbfounded.I had no idea what answer to give him.Should I even be getting money from someone who tried to kill me because I smelled like Egon? It clearly means he’s after Egon and wanted to kill me because he thought I meant something to him. Right? Because I don’t see another possible explanation.“Nothing,” I shook my head at him, “I don’t want your money.”“Are you sure?” He smirked, looking at me in amusement.I frowned.Am I sure? He made me rethink.I scratched my head as I thought about it.If he’s Egon’s enemy should I be worried? Egon already abandoned me, so even if I take his money it shouldn’t be a problem. It’s not like he’ll find out what Egon is to me and to be fair, Egon isn’t anything to me and he won’t be anything to me in the future either. He left me and I don’t see him coming back.“Um,” I shook my head, “No,”“So?” He folded his arms, “How much do you want?”HmmmI knitted my eyebrows together.“How much is a lot?” I asked a pretty inno
>>PortiaI didn’t come out of my room the whole day and Jena didn’t come for me. She left for work on her own and I mostly slept to drown my sorrow. After midnight when she came back home somewhere around three in the morning, I was up.I couldn’t sleep anymore since that’s all I did the whole day but I didn’t go out to greet her and I wasn’t expecting her to come to me either. Deep down I was mortified that if I met her she might ask me to leave.So, when there was one on the bedroom door, it scared the living shit out of me.“Parisa,” She called my name, “Come out.” She demanded as if she knew I was up. I didn’t respond at first but then she knocked again, “Come out, I know you’re up.” I heard her step back, “I’m waiting in the kitchen.” And then I heard her walk away.…I sat up on the bed and ran my fingers through my hair to tone them down. Then I took a deep breath, stood up, and walked out the door. I went to the kitchen where I saw Jena sitting on the chair. I walked to the t
>>PortiaHarou and Derek had one big difference between them that wasn’t actually literally big, it was tiny, very very tiny but anyone could tell them apart because of that.Harou had a beauty spot on the outer side of his face, under his left eye that just added to his charm more.He extended his hand toward me, “Nice to meet you Parisa,” The first thing I looked at was his fingers. I was searching for a ring but I didn’t find it and weirdly enough it made me relax a little, then gave me anxiety.Is he not married? But his twin brother is…But he might have a lover or maybe even a fiance… I pursed my lips and shyly extended my hand toward his, “Nice to meet you too,” I said softly and we shook hands.Why is this happening?I softly retreated my hand and he smiled at me making my heart hurt.Why is the moon goddess being so mean to me? Were two rejections not enough? Do I have to go through with a third? Because I don’t see this going anywhere good. Harou is a human too, there’s no
>>PortiaMy heart pounded at his words.No!!I shook my head and screamed at myself mentally!Absolutely not! I rejected the feeling. We’re not going there…My wolf whined at me.No…I gulped.We can’t…She whined again and this time it was different from all the other times. I wasn’t the only one who had been hurt by the previous two, she had been too, so she didn’t pressure me with anything yet the feeling of loneliness and longing was still shared by
>>PortiaI tensed up again, my body stiffened and I contemplated what to say to him.If he knows about us and my kind, then there’s no point in lying about it or hiding it. But, before that, I want to confirm a few things.“Um, what makes you think that we’re mates?” I’m curious how he came to that conclusion. As a human, he can’t smell us to tell us apart and I don’t have any features that would set me apart from other humans.He clicked his tongue in disappointment, “Are we not?” He folded his arms and brought his hand under his chin, “I’m sure I felt that zap,” He tilted his head to one side.
>>Portia“Why are you upset?” Jena was getting ready to leave for somewhere while I stood in the hallway near the door since I too had to leave for the NDRA visit.“I’m not,” I replied softly and then sighed internally. I’m just dreading that I have to meet Harou again and seeing him is gonna break my heart since I can’t have him.“It’s written on your face.” She put on her coat and grabbed her bag, “Did Harou say something to upset you?”“Oh no,” I shook my head, “He’s super nice,”She paused, then slowly turned to look at me, “Super nice?” She raised her eyebrows at me, “I have no idea who you met.&r
>>Egon“This is stupid,” I had enough, “I’m gonna squeeze that information out of that old man.”“He’s younger than both of us,” Ulrich sighed, “And you know why we haven’t done anything violent so far.”“I know it’s to find a peaceful solution but there’s no longer a peaceful solution.” I let out an exasperated sigh, “Nobody wants to marry an old man and we need that information ASAP.”“Well,” Ulrich sighed and turned his head to look out the window, “You’re right.” The sky had turned dark, “It was a stupid demand, to begin with.” He stood up from the couch and walked to the window, “Let’s go to the Nightcrawle