LOVE

LUCAS

He broke the kiss....

My t shirt was off my body, and my skin was naked, as well as his, and it made my cheeks burn like some girl, but I swear it wasn't my fault, it was his...all his

Why on earth was he looking at me, no!...

Why on earth was he scanning me with his eyes like some kind of computer, when he knew it would only make me blush harder

"St...op...it"

I tried to speak, to tell him not to kill me with his sharp blue eyes, but the words scattered out of my lips, and it made that punk chuckle at me

Oh no, he wasn't stopping, he doesn't want to stop teasing me, Damnit!

I feel my cheeks burning hotter, and when it got to a point that I couldn't control it, I covered my face with my shaking sweaty palm, cause I didn't want to keep seeing that little loser laughing face, but immediately I did that, he took my hands off my face, and brings his lips close to my left ear

"It's okay, cause am nervous too"

Oh my God, he literally said that!, he confessed out to me, and it made shivers run down my spine, but he didn't let the sheepish grin form on my lips, and immediately kissed me softly, he kinda even chuckled again in the kiss as well

"Damnit, he always strikes when am off guard"

I thought to myself as I placed my fingers on his black wavy hair gently, cause I didn't wanted to hurt him, I wouldn't ever forgive myself if I was violent, and I was glad I did, cause immediately he realized the reason for my delicate touch, he kissed me harder, engulfed my lips even, and I guess he did that, to thank me, but I, who was an inexperienced puppy broke the kiss when I lacked of air, even though it was just few minutes, and trust me when I say I hated myself for that

"God damnit, am such a baby"

I fought with myself angrily, but when I heard him laugh out again, I realized I had said it out loud, and Oh God, that was like double doze of embarrassment at once

The inside of me screamed when I figured out, so I immediately looked away from him, but he held unto my chin, and made me look back into his eyes

"Boy, I guess he just love seeing my tomato face"

I thought to myself as I tried to maintain the eye lock, cause my heart was literally going thud thud thud...and I bet he could hear that as well

"Don't worry about anything, cause you are my cute baby"

I heard his low voice, he told me with a wide hot smile on his face, a smile that I have never for once seen before, to be honest I didn't even know he could smile like that, but he did, and it was all for me.

Oh my Gosh!

My heart raced faster, my face turned redder, but a part of me that had been tensed finally calm down instantly, and I guess it was because his words sounded like magic, also his smile as well...his smile that he always hide behind that cold depressed face all the time, and I knew it was partly because of that dickhead bastard, Eliot

Oh my God, I hated Eliot so fucking much, Ugh!

"Don't...don't ever near him again"

I whispered out, I knew I might have sounded possessive, but I just wanted to be sincere, and say my mind out completely, so that I don't feel bothered by anything when we do it

Do it?, Sex?, God what am I even thinking right now!

I blushed harder as I thought to myself, but before I could cautioned my face to stop selling me off, I heard his voice again, and it was kinda like one of the sweetest things ever, you know like a good sleep on a rainy night, his response was gold

"Trust me, I don't even like that pile of shit anymore since a year ago, I hate his guts, but I hate his fucking face more"

He told me with an angry frown on his face, and I guess it was because he remembered about that bastard, but all I had on my face was a wide smile, cause it was so refreshing to hear him call that bastard a shit. I know I should have also ask him more about why he chose to be that bastard's partner, but I didn't wanted to press further and make him more angry, because I trusted him, and decided to let all those go...

Elias was probably only said that to piss me off or something...

I concluded within me, and what felt more refreshing was how his frown immediately faded away when he noticed my smile

"You like me calling him shit, hmm?"

He told me and kissed my nose, and it made me giggle, cause it was ticklish, but he didn't stop

"You like me so much don't you, hmm"?

He sang out again proud of himself, and kissed my eyelids this tme, and it made me laugh out again

"Do...don't you like me too?"

I asked him in between laughter, and it made him stop, and look at me with this look on his face that I really don't quite get, and it made me feel scared, cause I didn't know anymore if he didn't like me to ask him that, but when that no good dickhead burst out laughing after seeing my scared look, I knew he had gave me that serious strange look intentionally to tease me

"I don't like you Lucas, I love you..."

He finally told me, and crashed his lips on mine before I could say anything, but I don't feel angry that he always kissed me off guard, but it was rather the exact opposite, I loved this new side of him, and how he was willing to show it to me, cause it made me know that I mean a lot to him

I also love the fact that he was such a good kisser, hehehe

"Thank you Elias"

I mumbled in between kisses, but he kissed me harder to shut me up, and literally involved our tongue in the kiss, but I was still no expert in kissing, so it was sloppy, lacked the right rhythm, but he didn't stop kissing me because of that, rather I actually felt he liked the way inexperienced , and he was kinda like my second first to kiss about from Axel, so that he could me, or maybe he saw it as some kind of trophy, cause he increased the pace, engulfed my mouth again, like he was literally eating my mouth out, but I loved it, I loved it so damn much, this possessive side of him, and before I knew it, his right hand that he placed on my stomach, when down from my navel to my pant, and like in a flash...shush!, he zipped the zipper down, and slide my pant off me, leaving me alone with my pair of boxers (Oh Fuck, I hope I wore a good one today)

I thought to myself and tried to look down to see which pair I actually wore, but before I could, he...he didn't even let me, and he...he pulled them off as well, and started to kiss me again, so I didn't even have a say in it at all, it's not like I wanted to say anything though, or stop him, but...but... but have he forgotten that I was a human and would be damn shy, Ugh!

"Elias!"

I exclaimed his name immediately he finally broke the kiss, bit my lower lip, and looked away from the him

"Am...sorry, don't you want it?"

His voice was soft, hurt a bit, but still delicate, and it made me looked back at him, at his sincere yet hurt look he had on his face, and it made me realize that he had misunderstood me, God he had actually thought that I didn't, that I wasn't ready for this, but...but I was, I really was, even though I had no idea on how to do anything, but one thing was for sure, I wanted this intimacy that would strengthen our bond, I wanted this....God, I trusted him, and I...I freaking wanted all of him too.

"Elias...I..."

"You don't have to give in, if you don't want to"

He smiled at me, a sad smile, but he was literally misunderstanding everything here, and I didn't wanted that, hell no!

"Elias, No!"

I didn't wanted that, so I immediately found my voice and protested, so that he would not end the whole thing before it even began

"I...uh..."

He raised an eyebrow up, he was confused, but men!, he looked so darn cute, and it...it made me blush again, but....but...but I still said what I wanted to say either way

"I want this, I want to have sex with you...for you to be my first, and...and always"

I looked at him in the eyes, actually blurted that out, and damn, it made the redness on my face spread more to a million degree, so I closed my eyes shut, so shut, but opened it back when I felt his lips on mine

"I would be gentle"

He pecked me on the lips, and whispered out, and my eyes opened, but I wished I didn't open them, cause I blushed harder like a million times more, when I saw...watch him finally get rid of his singlet 

"Oh men, don't die...don't fucking die yet..."

I kept on chanting to myself like a mantra as I watched him take off his pant next, but damnit, I blew it and died a silent death when he took off his boxers, and I saw...I saw...God, I literally saw his penis

"Damnit, it's longer, and more manly, guyish?, than mine"

I swore out to myself like an angry sad puppy, and looked away from him with my blushing red face, but he...he held my chin, and made me look back at him

"I don't care about the difference"

As if he peeked into my mind, he told me, and smiled out, but it made the sheepish smile on my face return again as my mind screamed out "Not fair!", cause how could he be this charming now, when he was so cold like ice all the time

I thought to myself, but immediately slapped the thought out of my head, cause this night wasn't meant for dwelling in thoughts, but it was meant for him, and him alone

"Elias..."

I whispered out his name with a smile on my face, and loved it, when I saw how his lips curved into a wide cheesy smile when he heard me...he liked the way I said his name

I thought to myself, and took my fingers into his hair, and played with them for a little while, before he took them off, and kissed the back of my palm, before taking is gaze away from me, and I watched him as he reached forward to the night stand, and opened the drawer.

I watched him curiously, trying to figure out what he was doing, but he immediately made it clear, when he brought out a condom from the drawer, that immediately made me blush, but...but at the same time, I felt...I know it's not a big deal, and I really shouldn't feel this way, but I felt kinda sad that he might have done it before...

I felt sad that he might have had sex before, since he kept condoms inside his drawer...

Boy, it might even be something he had done with that bastard regularly when they were dating, and he...he must be so experienced, and having it with me now might not be that special to him, and I...

I thought, and over thought even (If that was even a word), about it, that I didn't notice he had said something, until he placed his cold palm on my cheek, and it made me look at him

"I know what you're thinking"

He whispered out, and made my eyes widened, cause it sounded shitty and pathetic, if he knew I was sad, because of such a small thing. God, I was such an idiot if the look I had on m y face sold me off.

I thought and fought with myself, but his words?, his words changed everything

"I might not look like it, and you might not believe me either, but you are going to be my first as well"

He confessed, I saw it was hard for him to say it, maybe because he didn't wanted to look like a baby to me, and like an inexperienced guy trying to have sex with another inexperienced guy, but he said it either way, and I don't feel weird about it, cause it was everything I ever wanted to hear. To be honest, I was relieved, cause I didn't wanted it that he had already had sex with that prick head, cause I knew I would be jealous, I would be sad, I would feel second handed, so heck yeah, I was glad to hear him say this, and I trusted his words too, but he didn't stop speaking...He wanted to completely explain it to me(Yes, am so lucky to have him)

"I broke up him, before he could have sex"

He spilled out some more confessions, even though I knew he didn't felt comfortable mentioning that idiot Eliot as a topic, but he kept on speaking...and kept on trying to explain some more

"And...and that fucking post, I didn't kiss him willingly, he was the one that initiated the kiss, and he fucking did that against my will"

He blurted out some more, but I had had enough of him mentioning that fool Eliot, cause Eliot wasn't worth it, so I placed one of my finger on his lips and stopped him, cause tonight wasn't about a fool, but us....us alone

"I don't care even if you slept with him or not"

I told him, and honestly, I really didn't care anymore, cause I knew he loved me now so much, he loved me alone, and that was everything I wanted, but he was still keen on speaking his mind out, so he gently took my finger off his lips, kissed it, and looked at me in the eyes 

"But I want you to know that I bought those condoms when I realized I might have fallen for you"

He confessed, and didn't stop talking

"And I kept them in case, I could use it with...with...you"

He added to his sentence, and it made tears swell up in my eyes, cause I realized again that he wasn't a heartless guy, but was literally a guy who was just like anyone else, a guy who was capable of having crushes, a guy who just wanted to be loved back, and it made my blushing self curious about when exactly he fell for a clumsy idiot like me, but I don't ask him that, cause I didn't wanted to speak more again, and waste this night, so I crashed my lips into his as tears flew down from my eyes, but he dominated it, and kissed me harder, and before I knew it, and could do anything, I felt his hand do something to his penis, he probably wore the condom, but he didn't break the kiss until we both needed air, I bet if we could breath in the kiss, he wouldn't let me go, but I wasn't sad that it wasn't possible, cause he didn't wait to make the night less spicy, intertwined my left hand with his, raised one of my legs up, and rested it on his waist

"Am also an amateur, so bare with me, and tell me if I hurt you"

He told me with his eyes full of care, and I nodded my head immediately, cause I had longed surrendered myself to him, and even if he hurt me, I wouldn't love him lesser.

I wanted to tell him that, but before I could, he penetrated his penis into my hole, and it made me cry out, cause yeah it was painful because this was the first time ever this would ever happen to me, but when he started to move?, when he started to move I realized the real deal, and why people actually got addicted to sex

"Are...are you alright?"

He asked me with a concern look on his face, and it made me smile out

"Hmm...yeah, am...am fine, in heaven actually"

I literally said that to him, and I didn't regretted it, cause immediately he heard me, he laughed out, increased the pace, and moved deeper into me, and it made me moan out, and close my eyes, but I immediately opened them back, so that I could see his handsome sweaty face as he fucked me, fucked my hole that was all his

"I am yours Elias"

When I could find my voice, I told him, but he replied back to me with a deeper thrust, that made me moan out louder

"Ahh Elias...."

"Don't forget that tomorrow morning"

He kissed my lips, and whispered into my left ear, before kissing my earlobe, and fucking me even harder, until I came and couldn't feel my legs. Trust me when I say I even had to hold the edge of the bed for support cause he was a sex master

It was only then did he finally slipped his now slippery penis out of me

"I love you my puppy"

He kissed my sweaty forehead, and brought me to himself, and it made me smile widely, and hold him tightly, cause he was the only one I wanted, and the only one the word "Love" felt so right to be used with...