Chapter 1

Goodbye

Inubos ko kaagad ang isang baso ng tequila. Napatingin ako sa aking paligid. Everybody is dancing to the flow of the music. I have not seen anyone who isn’t wasted here. Gusto ko rin sumayaw at magpakalasing but I just received a text from Gracy.

May lead na raw sila. They have a lead, a suspect in my father’s death. Dalawang taon na ang lumipas at akala ko wala nang pag-asa. I smirked. Kaya hindi ko magawang magpakalasing ngayong gabi dahil sa wakas, pwede ko na matupad ang pangarap ko, pangarap ng pamilya ko. Ang hustisya para sa aking ama.

But there’s one thing I won’t miss this night. Lumabas na ako sa club at dumiretso sa harap nitong hotel. Kinapa ko ang cellphone sa aking purse at tinext na si Teo. I sighed as I put back my phone in my purse. I booked a room and immediately headed there.

I want it fast tonight. Dahil pagkatapos nito, mukhang hindi ko na ‘to magagawa ng ilang buwan o sa mahabang panahon.

Binabad ko ang aking katawan sa bathtub. I looked at the view in front of me now. The city lights, the buzz of the city, the traffic, and just the noises. I relaxed my shoulders as I heard the door of the bathroom open.

I glanced at the man in front of me, nearing me as he unbuttoned his dress shirt. I didn’t have to wait for him to come to me. I stood up from the bathtub and rushed to him. My lips immediately came in contact with his. I kissed him deep and hard as I snaked my arms around his neck and pulled him closer.

I started aggressively that I didn’t realize he was more aggressive than me. His large hands made way to my flesh. Nagpakawala ako ng ungol. Hindi ko siya masabayan. He’s greedier today. Maybe because I acted greedily.

I felt my back hit the soft sheets of the bed. I looked at his eyes as he stared at my body full of lust and need. Whenever we do this, I don’t mind looking at him. It was just the sex I’m after. The fun and satisfaction. Nagsilbi na rin ito bilang coping mechanism ko noong namatay ang ama ko.

I never had the chance to look at his gorgeous face this long. I acknowledge his looks because damn, he looks like a god. His eyes have this different color I can’t point out. His lips were thin but kissable. His muscles were perfectly placed in every part of his body. He’s ripped and… fuckable. More than fuckable. He’d surpass the international models.

Pero kahit ganito siya kagwapo, there’s no spark. Kaya gusto ko ang arrangement namin. Walang feelings na nadadamay. At mukhang ganoon rin siya.

Hindi ko na mapigilang umungol nang lalong bumilis ang bawat ulos niya. He thrusted so deep and fast that I’d go crazy. There was pain but the pleasure was overflowing. The bed is already rocking at mukhang hindi na ‘to magtatagal na makatayo. At mukhang ako rin… hindi na makakatayo.

“Damn… faster.”

He groaned and thrust faster that I screamed in so much ecstasy. His large hands gripped my hips and thrust more. My womanhood was releasing too much juice that it was making a sound that only made me want more.

I released a long moan as we reached our peak. It was fast and rough. Just like what I wanted for tonight. I sighed as I moved away from him to the other side of the bed. He did the same. I’m still panting as well as him. I heard him take something from the bedside table.

“Here,” I heard him.

I faced him. I saw him holding tissues. He started to clean me down there. He is always like this. A caring type despite his rough features that makes him look cold. Well, he is but certainly not in bed.

“Thank you.”

He nodded and looked me in the eye and smirked.

“We forgot to use a condom,” he pointed out.

I smirked.

“I’m on pills. Don’t worry.”

Bumuntong hininga ako at nagsimula nang magbihis. He sat on a sofa without a single cloth. Nasagip ng mata ko ang malaki niyang alaga. It’s standing high and mighty.

“You’re leaving early tonight?”

“You we’re expecting another round?” I chuckled as I put on my bra.

“Kinda?”

Napatawa ako. I started to put on my clothes one by one. Nakita ko siyang nakatingin lang sa akin habang nagbibihis. Usually, at times like this, he would just look at his phone. I smiled at him as I put on my last clothing.

”Tonight’s our last,” nang sinabi ko ‘yon, he wasn’t even surprised, not like I’m expecting him to.

He nodded.

“No farewell sex?”

Napaikot ang aking mata.

“We already did it.”

He pouted and nodded slowly. I reached for my purse. Kinuha ko ang lipstick doon at nagretouch nalang.

“I’m leaving for business so I guess this is our last,” wika niya.

“I will be busy for the next months so yeah, this is our last.”

“See you when I see you then.”

Umiling ako nang matapos na ang pag-apply ng lipstick.

“No. Kapag magkita man tayo, let’s pretend we don’t know each other.”

Lumingon ako sa kan’ya. Nakita ko siyang titig na titig sa akin. I pouted.

“Is there something wrong with my lipstick?”

Tiningnan ko ulit ang mukha ko sa salamin at wala naman itong problema.

“Wala. Maganda sa’yo ang red lipstick.”

That was an unexpected compliment that I froze for a second. Matipid akong ngumiti matapos niya iyong sabihin. Hindi ko alam kung paano magreact sa sinabi niya.

“I know,” I said trying to sound not too awkward.

Naghahanda na ako sa mga gamit ko. I made the last retouches to my face and finally finished after a whole minute. Nang lumingon ako sa direksyon ni Teo, nagbibihis na pala siya. He’s looking at his phone while he’s putting on his belt. Ang bilis niya talagang magbihis.

I waited for him to face me. Once he faced me, he smirked at me.

“At least give me a farewell kiss, Zell.”

My lips rose and opened my mouth to welcome his lips and scorching tongue.

“Bye, fuck buddy.”

He stopped kissing me. His lips were in a grim line.

“Bye, Zell.”

But…

Why do I feel like I want more of him?