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Tahimik kami buong biyahe. I would prefer it that way anyway. But it bothers me so much that we’re here breathing the same air. I sighed as I looked at the window. Nakita ko ang unti-unting pagpatak ng ulan sa bintana.It’s raining. Hindi nagtagal, lumakas lalo ang ulan. Ramdam ko ang malakas na pagkabog ng aking puso. Why do I feel something different? Something wrong?Nang lumakas pa lalo ang ulan, doon na ako kinabahan. The last time I checked, bukas pa sa hapon ang bagyo. Ano? Nagbago isip ng bagyo at ngayon pa talaga?! Ngayon pa na kasama ko si Teo?!“Shit,” rinig kong mura ni Teo.Napalingon ako sa harap. Talagang halos wala ka nang makita sa labas. We can’t drive like this. The manor is in the mountain side of this city. Malamang sa malamang, nagfo-fog na doon. I might get stuck with Teo!Agaran kong kinapa ang purse at kinuha ang phone ko. I immediately went to social media and check any updates with the weather. Binasa ko na lahat na mga articles. Looks like the typhoon has entered the PAR earlier than expected.I immediately called for my driver. Nakauwi kaya si Gracy? Agad din namang sinagot ang tawag ko.“Nakauwi na ba kayo ni Gracy?” diretsa ko.“Opo, ma’am. Bago lang. Pero baka matagalan po akong makabalik d’yan. Malakas na po ang ulan dito at nagfo-fog narin po, ma’am.”I knew it. Tumango ako at napabuntong hininga.“I’m with someone, Manong…” lumingon ako kay Teo at napalingon din ito sa akin.Napalunok ako. “We’ll try to get there kapag hihina na ang ulan.”“Mahirap na po makapunta dito, ma’am. Muntik narin kaming naaksidente kaya mas mabuti na ‘wag muna tumuloy, ma’am.”Napapikit ako. Damn it. Nakita kong tumigil na sa pagmamaneho si Teo. He stopped by some inn. Kinabahan agad ako. Mukhang alam ko na ang sunod na mangyayari. I swallowed hard.“He’s right, Zell. It’s not safe for us to continue. It’s better if we stay somewhere safe in the meantime.”Mabigat akong bumuntong hininga. I bit my lip and fidgeted with my fingers.“Si Sir Hunyo po ba kasama niyo, ma’am? Ire-report ko nalang po sa—”“No! No… I’m with someone else right now. W-we’ll just stay somewhere safe. Just report to me if there’s a way I can get home pronto.”As much as possible, I want to go home. Away from him. From his scent and presence. I don’t like the way it’s affecting me.Lumabas na rin kami sa sasakyan at pumasok na sa inn. Malakas rin pala ang ulan. The wind almost blew me away. Buti nahawakan ako nang mahigpit ni Teo. The moment we were already sheltered, binitawan ko kaagad ang kamay niya.I immediately headed to the receptionist.“I’ll have two rooms, please.”“I’m sorry, ma’am. We currently have one room available,” the receptionist politely said.“What?”“We’ll take it,” Teo immediately handed his card.“What?”“Sure, sir,” biglaang lumapad ang ngiti ng babae.Napanganga ako. Napakurap-kurap at bumaling ulit sa receptionist na malapad na nakangiti. Tumikhim ako to catch her attention.“Two beds, right?”Bumalik sa polite smile ang receptionist. It annoyed me. Ano? ‘Yong malapad niya na ngiti para lang sa mga katulad ni Teo?!“The room only has one, ma’am.”“We’ll ask for an extra bed.”Lumingon ang receptionist kay Teo like she’s asking for his confirmation. It only made me irritated. Nilingunan ko si Teo. He saw my annoyed face. Bumuntong hininga ito at tumango sa receptionist. I rolled my eyes.Nang nabigyan na kami ng susi, ako na ang kumuha. Nahagilap pa ng mata ko na kinausap pa ni Teo ang receptionist. The receptionist smiled slyly at him which only made me annoyed even more. Teo’s boyish smile to the receptionist made me grit my teeth.Kung gusto niyang makipaglandian sa receptionist, he’s free to do that. Basta kapag nilock ko ang room, hindi ko na ‘yon bubuksan. Bahala na siya.Iyon pa naman ang plano ko pero nang isasarado ko na sana ang pintuan, naabutan pa talaga niya. Umiwas agad ako at tumalikod.“You walked fast. Hindi mo ako hinintay.”I scoffed quietly.“Naulanan ako. Kailangan kong maligo.”Hindi ko na hinintay pa ang sagot niya. I walked straight to the bathroom. Wala pa naman akong dalang damit kaya napatunganga na lamang ako sa salamin. I looked at myself. My make up is a bit smudged already. Una ka na ‘yong tinanggal.Buti nalang at nakakita ako ng robe. I took of my clothes and started to take a shower. It took me roughly an hour to finish cleaning myself. Sinuot ko na ang robe ko at pinatuyo na ang damit ko. I only have the robe on me, nothing else.Lumabas ako sa bathroom na may paperbag sa kama. Lumingon ako kay Teo.“I requested clothes for you.”Binuksan ko ang paperbag. Napanganga ako kung ano ang bumungad sa akin. I took out the small piece of cloth. Napatawa ako. I showed it to him.“Seriously?” pinakita ko sa kan’ya ang lingerie.Pati siya hindi makapaniwala sa nakita. Umiling ako. Hindi na ako nagsalita. Binalik ko ang lingerie sa paperbag at humiga na sa kama at pumikit.“I’ll change it.”“Huwag na.”Kinuha niya ang paperbag at pumusok sa bathroom. Narinig ko pa ang shower sa loob. Nang palabas na siya sa bathroom biglang nawalan ng ilaw. Mukhang may blackout pa talaga. Wala akong makita. I stood up and walked somewhere when I bumped something hard.“Careful,”I felt his arms wrapped around my waist. Agad akong umatras at umiwas. I could smell him and it’s making me crazy.Suminghap ako.“I’ll look for a flashlight or a candle,” wika ko at lumakad sa kabilang direksyon ngunit nabangga parin ako sa kan’ya. I swallowed hard when my palms touched his chest.“It’s better if we’ll just wait for our eyes to get used to the dark.”Tumango ako. Aatras na sana ako pero naramdaman ko na ang kama sa aking likod. I could hear my heart beating so loud. I bit my lower lip and tried to distance myself.Nang nagsimula nang nasanay ang aking mata sa dilim, bumalik naman ang ilaw. Nanliit ang mata ko pero unti-unti ring luminaw ang pananaw ko.Slowly, my vision got clearer and realized how we were close to each other. Napalunok ako. I stared at his eyes pero hindi ito nakatingin sa akin. I followed the direction of his eyes and they directed to my shoulder. Kumunot ang noo ko.I looked at my shoulder and realized the other side of my robe had already fallen. My nipple was already peaking. My lips parted and I felt my throat dry, wanting something. I faced him but my eyes ended up in his intense eyes looking at my lips.Napatingin ako sa kan’yang labi. It’s red. Napalunok ako. My eyes went back to his. My honor is hanging in a piece of thread and I don’t think I can hold it in.“Fuck this,” I said as my lips touched his.Heaven in HellBinaba ko ang monitor nang marinig ang pagpasok ni Gracy sa aking office. She saw the monitor on my table. Napataas ang kilay nito. “Still watching the Valleros?” I’ve been monitoring the Valleros for a few days now and so far, wala naman akong suspicious moves na napapansin. Thanks to the painting I placed there. Tinanggal ko nalang ang earphones bago sinagot si Gracy. “None.”“I know we have concrete evidences that they are involved with Tito’s death pero paano kung si Mateo lang talaga ang may pakana?” Hindi ko iyon kailan man naisip. Maybe my mind refuses to think that Teo is the only one involved. I sighed heavily. Binalik ko nalang ang mata sa aking laptop at sinimulan ang trabaho. “Sa tingin mo, inosente ang mga Vallero? Sa tingin mo wala silang nagawang mali?” “I’m just saying na huwag sana mapuno ng galit at hinanakit ang puso mo. Lately, you’ve been very different.” “I’ll have my revenge and that’s it, Gracy.” “That’s it? Paano si Mateo?” Napataas ang
UseHindi ko alam kung saan ko nakakuha ang lakas na loob para pagsabayin si Teo at Hunyo. Is it the right thing to do now? Obviously, no. Do I care if ever they get hurt? No. I was raised with different pirniciples and morals. So different from what I am doing right now. I feel guilty committing to do this. But at the same time, I need to do my revenge. I need to be tough. Walang lugar ang pagiging mabait dito. “They killed your father, Zell,” paalala ko sa aking sarili. Iyon palagi ang hinahawakan ko. Kahit nakikita ko lang si Teo, bigla iyon nawawala sa aking isipan. I can’t fathom why a single man could make me forget about my revenge. I sighed heavily as I went inside my room. Umuwi na ako ng La Libertad. Manila was suffacting after my heated conversation with Teo. Pagod akong humiga sa aking kama. Somehow, his touc last night got imprinted in my mind. Unlike before, bawat haplos at halik niya kagabi hindi mawala sa isipan ko. I just snapped back to reality when I heard the
High Road A voice at the back of my mind told me that I shouldn’t have turned in this direction. But there was also a different voice. A louder one. Mas malakas. Nagsasabi ito na puntahan siya. Na bumigay na. Dahil sa huli, hindi ko rin mapipigilan. Bumangon ako galing sa pagkahiga. I bit my lower lip. Napalingon ako sa bintana. The curtains are slowly revealing the view on the outside as the wind blew harder. The cold breeze of the wind touched my bare skin. I glanced at my shoulder. Then down to my back and then to the sheets covering me. At paunti-unting bumababa ang mata ko sa kan’ya. I looked at Teo. Mahimbing itong natutulog. I yawned and stood up. Umalis na ako sa kama at kinuha na isa-isa ang damit ko na nakakalat sa sahig. I looked for my panties and I couldn’t find it. I looked at every corner pero wala talaga. Hindi ko nalang hinanap pa. I went inside the bathroom and took a bath. Cold bath for the morning. Gustong gusto kong buhusan ang sarili ng malamig na tubig. Hind
Ruined “W-what do you mean?” napatawa ako sa sinabi niya. I nervously laugh. Alam ko sa loob-loob, nagustuhan ko ang sinabi niya. Pero… it made me alarmed. He would let go of our engagement that easily. Kailangan ko siya para sa mga plano ko. Para sa paghihiganti. But hearing him, mukhang hindi ko pa secured ang engagement. One thing is sure, he has a deep reason. Hindi ko pa alam pero malalaman ko rin. “I’m fine with you choosing Mateo.” “Why?” His lips rose to a small smile. My eyes narrowed, now focusing on him. He had this regretful small for a while until it vanished. “I know how it feels to want someone but can’t have them.” My jaw dropped slightly. Iyon ang rason niya. Does that mean, he likes someone? He looked away from me when he noticed me observing him. “Pero ayaw ko rin naman sa taong hindi ko gusto,” pertaining to Teo. Napaisip pa ako kung tama ba ang sinabi ko. I swallowed the lump on my throat. He chuckled and looked down. Parehong nasa bulsa na ang dalawang k
ProposalChapter 17Kumunot ang noo ni Teo nang makita ang gulat kong mukha. I surveyed the office, looking for a space where I can hide.“Hunyo’s here,” sabi ko at papunta na sa isang corner ng kan’yang opisina para sana magtago.Ngunit naramdaman ko nalang ang paghigit ng kamay niya sa akin. He looked confused why I’m acting this way. Ako naman, hindi magets kung bakit parang kalmado lang siya.He should panic because we’re alone together in a room! Pero naalala ko, he really doesn’t care about me.“And? Why do you look flustered?”Napanganga ako.“Ano sa tingin mo ang iisipin niya na tayo lang dalawa dito? Did you plan this?” I accused him.“What? No! You’re the one putting malice in our meeting, Zell.”Napasinghap ako. Somehow, nagets ko ang sinabi niya. I am putting malice to our situation. And how sure am I na masamain ni Hunyo ang pagbisita ko dito kung wala naman talaga kaming ginawang kababalghan?I am overthinking this. And why do I feel like a cheating wife? I sighed heavil
BeginI slowly adjusted my earrings as I finished my make-up. Napatingin ako sa aking maliit na mukha. Nanginit ang pisngi ko nang mapagtanto kung ano ang ginagawa.Nang marinig ko ang pagbukas ng pintuan ng aking office, agad kong niligpit ang aking make-up. Pumasok si Gracy at tinignan akong mabilis na nagligpit ng gamit.“May lakad ka ba mamaya?” nagtataka nitong tanong.I pouted.“Just a meeting.”“Emergency meeting? Wala sa schedule mo, ah?”Nagkibit-balikat lang ako at inayos din ang buhok. Gracy gave me a wary look. Napataas ang kilay nito at mukhang hinuhula pa ang ginagawa ko.“May date na naman kayo ni Hunyo? Why do you look so dolled up?”I bit my lower lip. Halata ba? I sighed and sat back in my swivel chair. Tiningnan ko ang wrist watch. Goodness! I’m two hours early para sa meeting namin ni Teo! I must be crazy!“Is my make-up too much?”Tumawa ito at umupo sa harapan ko.“You have a full eyeshadow on! You usually settle for natural make-up when it comes to office work.
MeetingChapter 15I took my hand from him. It dropped. At tinignan lang niya iyon. He looked so weak with every step I take away from him.Nababaliw na ba ako? Why did I even let him do that? I breathed in heavily. Ramdam ko parin ang kalabog ng aking puso. I feel the trembling of my knees even if I stand straight and strong in front of him.“Nandito si Hunyo. Hindi na nakakatuwa ang pinagsasbai mo, Mateo.”He glanced at me weakly. Nakasandal na ito sa dingding. Parehong kamay ay nasa bulsa at nakayuko na ang ulo. Mas mabuti iyon. I don’t think I would have the strength to reject him over and over again if I look straight into his eyes.“I knew you would disagree.”I gritted my teeth. Hinding hindi ko talaga siya maintindihan.“What the hell are you planning, Mateo?”“I’m supposed to ask you that,” his eyes bore on me coldly.Napalunok ako. Natigilan ako habang iniintindi ang sinabi niya. He’s supposed to ask me that? May alam ba siya? I was in the verge to breakdown to my thoughts w
BegChapter 14Sa gabing iyon, sa mansyon ng mga Vallero ako nakatulog. Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog pala ako sa tabi ni Veronica. I watched her sleep deeply. Bakas parin sa mukha nito ang sakit. I saw her flinched and groaned.Doon ko lang napansin na pinapawisan na pala ito. In her airconditioned room, I touched her cold sweats. I sighed when my hand came in contact with her skin. Ang init niya. Babangon na ako nang narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pintuan.There, Teo went inside. Dala nito ang bed table. Sunod na pumasok ay ang kasambahay nila dala rin ang isang bed table. Diretso ang lakad nito papunta kay Veronica. Nakita ko ang gamot at agahan sa bed table.Binigyan din ako ng katulong ng bed table. Puno ito ng pagkain para agahan.“She’s sick,” wika ko.Nakita kong pinunasan ito ni Teo ng lampin sa noo at ibat-ibang parte ng katawan. Kukunin ko na sana ang bimpo mula kay Teo nang iniwas niya ito sa direksyon ko.“I know what you’re going to do. Eat breakfast first, Zell.”Hindi na
SufferChapter 13Biglang humagalpak ng tawa si Teo habang kami ni Tita Riona tulalang nakatingin sa kan’ya. Napakurap-kurap ako habang umiiwas ng tingin sa kan’ya. What the hell did he just said?I glanced at Tita Riona. She’s shaking her head in disbelief and later on, smiles at Teo. Napailing ako sa sarili. Though I know Teo is just joking and I know I shouldn’t be having any reaction but I feel my stomach having the flutters.I licked my lips and tried to smile at Teo but it turned out sarcastically.“Malayong mangyari. From the looks of you, you’re bad news, Mateo.”Tumawa ang ginang at umiiling. She doesn’t agree with me, eh?“Hija, trust me. Mateo just likes to joke.”I saw him stop for a moment and looked at me intently. Napalunok ako. May kung ano sa paraan ng kan’yang pagtitig sa akin. Hindi ko mawari. There’s something in his eyes so mysterious and wanting. We stayed like that, looking at each other’s eyes. Na para bang wala si Tita Riona.Na para bang meron kaming sariling