LOGINClara
“Let’s see who Celeb gets to save” I didn’t want to bet on that not like I didn’t have the confidence but with Celeb recent changes I doubt I didn’t even have the chance to choose before Elena dragged me down with her into the pool.
I struggled to keep afloat screaming for help, the water was gradually eating me up.
“Help” everyone just stood there watching us like we are acting in some kind of movie where the villain is about to win.
Celeb came through but not for me but for his sweet girlfriend Elena. I doubted if someone would get me out of this pool since Rowan stormed out and my hope was crushed.
Just in seconds, I kept sinking. The water rushed in, in every one of my openings. I thought I was going to die before a hand grabbed me, not Celeb but Rowan.
I was shocked and was coughing terribly. He carried me in a bridal pattern and sat me down on the lounge with those concerned eyes on me.
“Are you okay?” I nodded.
I was grateful he came on time to save, it would have been….
“Is Clara’s fault, she pushed me” Elena accusing finger pointed at me. Did she just say I pushed her?
I sat up this time. I wasn’t going to allow her to accuse me and I did nothing. This isn’t high school anymore where she gets away with whatever she does to me.
“I didn’t push her. She dragged me with her. Celeb you know I can’t swim”
“So why would I push her”
“Clara, stop lying. Elena is only trying to be your friend. Can’t you see”
Friend! Why can’t anyone see through her fake affections?
“Are you going to believe her over me? I thought you trusted me” I watched Celeb's jaw tightened.
He pointed his finger and spoke in a more deep tone. I swear I have never seen him that way and it scared me even more.
“I swear if you dare come close to…” his words were cut short by Rowan.
“Are you threatening my girl”
His claim on me made my heart flutter, if we didn’t start up this fake dating I must have thought it was genuine but it was all about saving our faces but nobody has ever defended me in such a manner.
“Both of you get out of my party and take her with you too”
Next was a punch on Celeb's face. Rowan literally punched my step brother because of me. Rowan picked me up and took me to the bathroom wrapping a towel around my shoulder. I gazed at him like he was my hero.
He treated me like I was the most precious thing on earth and even when we argued he still defended me. I never knew this part existed in Rowan.
He sat me down, his eyes burning into my body and I felt so uncomfortable having both of us sit in silence and alone in the bathroom.
Something might come up.
Gosh! Clara thinks of something else. You literally hate this guy, you hate his gut. Now you find him likeable.
No! Attractive, that’s the word.
His hands went over my shoulder and I resisted as he tried to pull the towel. I panicked when he saw the stretch marks on my shoulder. I have always covered that up, not confident to show that up not after I have been bullied and slandered over my weight gain in high school.
“Is okay” he noticed how uncomfortable I was but his words melted me and I felt so warm like a warm cover over my insecurities. I let go and allowed him but too ashamed I covered myself up with my hands.
“Hey is fine”
“I bet you don’t want to see because is ugly”
I have been told countless times how ugly I look because of my weight gain, my heavy breasts and my heavy laps. Never heard someone call me beautiful and now someone thinks I’m…
“You don’t have to be ashamed of your scar nor your body. It defines us and don’t let anyone make you feel less of yourself” Rowan paused pointing at the scar that ran down his upper shoulder.
“This happened when I was kid, I fell and had an iron cut me so deep and it left this mark. I was so ashamed of it for a long time till I got my confidence back. You don’t have to be ashamed of anything”
My hand majestically pulled towards running my finger over it. I was moved, swept over my feet by his words. Nobody has ever given me closure like him and the next thing he did made my mouth drop.
He dropped a soft kiss on my stretch marks.
“You’re beautiful Clara and you have to see that too” he carried me down and made me face the mirror. I squinted my eyes shut.
“Open your eyes. Open your eyes and see how beautiful you are”
Is this a dream? I pinched myself. I have never felt less of myself. Watching myself in the mirror was like a nightmare. I couldn’t.. I couldn’t have the confidence but someone sees through me, someone accepts me even if it’s fake, someone calls me beautiful and that alone feels so amazing.
I finally opened my eyes, staring at my reflection.
“You’re an amazing person with such an incredible body. Don’t let anyone make you feel less of yourself”
Those words felt like it was all I needed to hear and then the tears that came watering my eyes and I resisted the urge not to cry, not in front of Rowan in the middle of his party but then those feelings were watched away when I heard a banging sound on the door.
“Clara, I know you’re in there. Open up” it was Celeb. What does he want this time but my question was answered when I heard a second voice following.
“Celeb knows all about your romantic infatuation on…”
CALEBI hadn’t seen Clara smile in weeks.Not the polite one she gave Brenda when thanking her for tea, not the tight one she used on people she couldn’t stand. I meant the real one — the kind that made her eyes turn into two soft crescents.Now, whenever I passed her in the hallway, she walked as though I didn’t exist. And the worst part was that I deserved it.Elena’s laughter still echoed in my head sometimes — cruel, cutting, directed at Clara while I stood by and did nothing. Actually, worse than nothing. I’d laughed too. The memory burned like acid.Brenda brushed past me that morning with a tray of toast. “She’s in the kitchen,” she said in her usual brisk tone, not even looking at me. Everyone had taken Clara’s side.I lingered in the doorway, watching Clara stir something on the stove. She’d tied her hair up, strands escaping around her face. There was flour on her wrist and sunlight catching on her collarbone. I almost said her name, but my throat tightened.She noticed me b
CLARAWhile all of it was happening, I stood at a corner. Waiting. I would have gone into that office with them, but I didn't. Not when I wasn't a witness to anything. Aaron was, according to what they said. He was the right person to be there. “Rowan?” I called when everything looked like it was over, wondering at the same time what was about to—What was I saying? I wondered what had happened. Now, the person I was waiting for all this while, was on his way to my side. The look on his countenance told me a lot—more than a lot. I moped at him, not taking my face. Not for a moment. “Tell me what happened.” I took his hand when he caught up with me. “I know you didn't do it. You don't have to explain a thing to me, you know.” I managed a smile when our gazes met. “Let's go to a quiet place. I can skip my classes for today. Already did.” “Clara, I didn't do it.” Why did he act like he didn't hear what I said just now? Sighs threatened to escape from my mouth. “I believe you. I kno
ROWANWhat the fuck was happening? Why would she tell such a lie against me? In public, at that. I stood in an office. One that belonged to a teacher. The head teacher at that. We were waiting for him to make it here so that judgment could be passed. And I hoped deep down inside of me that the truth would be seen. I looked up from the ground, glanced at Elena. She was smiling. Only I could see it. What was she up to now? What did I do to deserve such an act from her? I asked myself this question, so many thoughts running around. Right inside of my head. “He's here—” Aaron, the accomplice, sounded and I looked to the door. Only to see it opening with two men walking into the space. One of them was the head teacher and the other was a man I knew I had seen once—long before my final year. Who was he? “Take a seat, sir.” The head teacher urged. Then the man took a seat and glanced at me. There was hate in his tone—in the way he looked at me. Even though he didn't speak, I could
AARONBefore the discharge of Clara, I was out of the clinic, staring at my watch, sweat pouring from my forehead. The AC in the clinic was fully working, but I knew that what I was supposed to do in the next few minutes, what I was about to do, in fact, was a great deal and a burden on me. That was the reason I was perspiring, the sweat of an extremely guilty man, a man who was about to do something that was out of the box. I went into the clinic one more time, where I saw Clara getting ready to remove the clinic uniform which was meant for patients. Knowing that this was my chance, I left the clinic, walking as fast as my legs could carry me. If there was anything, it was the fact that I didn't want Clara to know what I was doing. In all of this, she deserved to be innocent. She wasn't supposed to know the kind of man I was, or the extent at which I could go for her. That was supposed to be for my thoughts alone. Dumping the lab coat that I had worn when I entered the clinic,
AARON I stared at her in disbelief. I knew Clara very well. I also knew, even though I wasn't entirely sure that she was involved with a guy called Rowan. The Clara I knew saw me as a friend and nothing else. Women knew how to gatekeep their feelings, but with Clara, it was different. She was so open, so laid-back and inviting. That was what made me love her in the first place, that warmth and the way she seemed to welcome everyone into her life with open arms. It was a part of her I loved and cherished so much. “You can't make someone love you, Elena.”Elena shook her head at me firmly. “You see, that's where you're wrong. You can make someone love you. If only you have the right tools and materials to do so. If only you plan well, efficiently and effortlessly. You see, I have those tools, Aaron, and I know you'll love to know what those tools are.”My heart clattered in my chest again. How was it possible that Elena, who barely even knew me knew so much about me? I didn't tru
AARON “Come on, man, it's morning already. Get up.”The sun shone brightly through the parted blinds. I woke up, my hair slightly getting in the way, which was now slowly becoming a normal occurrence. I stared at Donovan, my cousin and my roommate for the time I was going to be working as the falconets doctor. He was the first person to receive me since I had come into the city, and was still the only person to have offered me an apartment. In a city filled with strangers and foreigners, he was the only one I looked up to, a real source of friendship. “Are you going to college today?”The question stared me in the face, welcoming me back to life, back to reality, in fact. The events of the night before roared in my mind, a memory that couldn't be forgotten. The party. The three women who had jointly attacked Clara. The fact that I was the only one who had tried to save her, who had shouted nonstop that the cops be called. It was insane, a total mess, the way they handled their d