"Akai Ito
An invisible thread connects those who are destined to meet...Regardless of time, place or circumstance....The thread can stretch or tangle,but it will never break."- Ancient Chinese belief.***Prologue - Sofia AdamsAs long as I can remember they have always been there.Ethan Hernandez was my neighbor on the left, Nick Williams on the right.We grew up practically together. Each two years apart. Ethan was two when Nick was born and Nick was two when I was born. Which made Ethan and me four years apart. It wasn't much.The three of us became best friends. While Nick always encouraged my craziness Ethan was the voice of reason. We were an even-tempered trio. Inseparable. We were perfect after Anne and Tom joined the group. The years we spent together were definitely the best years of my life.Every day for years on end we would meet in our tree house after school.Ethan taught me to read for endless afternoons, my first kiss was there, and consequently Nick's was also there.The first time I saw Ethan drunk, Anne's first broken heart, and when Tom got his driver's license. Even though it was confiscated that same day for him hitting the tree in our tree house. Typical Tom.Looking back I cannot understand how my life became what it is now. How could I have gotten so deep into the pit? At what point did everything go wrong?I think of the things I could have done differently. Maybe we would all still be together today.***Chapter 1Sofia Adams - October, 1994I left the house and ran around the yard completely happy with what I had just accomplished. My bare feet touched the green grass and tripped over a few rocks on the way.I looked left and right indecisively about who I should tell first.Finally, I decided to run to the left. Ethan would love to know, he was just as excited as I was, even if he wouldn't say anything.Ethan had been acting like an annoying adult lately.I found him leaving the house when I hugged him excitedly. Ethan was used to my outbursts and quickly hugged me back.There was a distinct size difference between us, he was getting taller by the day, he had turned eleven last month and it seemed that I was falling behind with my few seven years of life.I hated the age difference, my consolation was that I was not so far away from Nick.“Hey Ethan, Dad agreed to make our tree house, isn't that cool?” my shrill, shrieking voice reached Ethan's ears easily.He smiled instantly.“Really? Will he let me help?” he asked hopefully.I rolled my eyes. It was Ethan's face that he was more excited about building the house than having it afterwards.“I think so, he likes you. He says you seem much more 'in the know' than the rest of us." I replied with a grimace, not really understanding what my father meant by that, but it seemed like a good thing.Ethan pulled me out of the hug.“Come, let's tell the others.”We then headed for my neighbor's house on the right.Nick was playing video games with his new friend, Tom. He had moved into the neighborhood about a year ago and occupied the house next door to Nick's. I didn't like Tom very much. I was used to Ethan and Nick, they were there when I was born, but Tom was new and picked on me a lot. He kept calling me Sun, that was the name of his grandma's dog.I watched Ethan greet Nick with that weird touch that they invented and never taught me. Idiots.Tom smiled and held out a controller to Ethan while I plopped down on the familiar couch and watched them play.“Ethan, come on” I jumped up on the couch, I was dying of excitement.Ethan laughed.“Tell me what?” Nick asked without taking his eyes off the television.“Uncle Ben...” Ethan began quietly.Why did Ethan have to be so slow?“My dad's going to build our tree house!” I shouted excitedly, running over Ethan's words.Nick shouted along with me, Tom just laughed and said that was pretty cool.“We should go over there and beg him to start it today," Nick said.That's why Nick and I were friends, he always went into everything head on, just like I did.Soon, the three of us were getting up and running outside, but we interrupted our run at an abrupt stop at the door, our eyes focused across the street.There, getting out of a car parked in the house opposite mine, carrying a pink backpack on her back was a girl. Looking about my age, she looked like a blond angel with rosy cheeks.“I wonder who she is?” asked Nick, curious to no one in particular.“I think it's the new residents of the house," Ethan replied.“You could go talk to her, Sun" was the only thing Tom said, shrugging his shoulders afterwards like it was no big deal.“Hey, girl," I shouted loudly across the street, and the girl, until then oblivious to the three pairs of eyes staring at her, looked surprised at my call. After a brief moment of pondering and a positive nod from her parents, she crossed the street.“What are you doing?” Tom asked in a panic.“Talking to her, isn't that what you told me to do?” I questioned. What a silly question.“Not now," he grumbles.She comes to the group looking embarrassed.“My friend wants you to be our friend," and I pointed at Tom. He in turn looked as if he would rather die than be there.“What? That's not what I said," Tom replied, turning his face away while Nick and Ethan laughed.“That's what I understood.”She stared uncomfortably at her feet, not knowing how she should act.“We're going to start making a tree house today, do you want to come?” I invited. Finally a girl to play with me.Ethan promptly glared at me. I bet he thought my parents would never let us help, but I had my tricks.“Sure, it'll be great," she finally replied with a smile. In her smile there was a missing front tooth and I, who had a soft tooth, could already see myself planning to pull it out together.We shook hands as we walked to my house.“My name is Anne," she said softly, breaking the silence.“Mine is Sofia," I answered, smiling, "and now I think we can be the Fantastic Four!” I declared excitedly, I loved that movie too much, it was the first one my parents took me to see months ago.“Sofia, here there are five, not four” reminded Ethan.But I wasn't considering Tom... Whatever. Ethan gave me a scolding look as if he knew what I was thinking. Arhg, I hated it when he looked at me like that.I had hoped one day to have friends so that we could be the The Powerpuff Girls, or the totally spies, but since I only had boy friends, Fantastic Four would do for now.“We'll think of a better name than the Fantastic Four," Nick said with a laugh.“Let's have a contest!” I suggested energetically as we walked into my house.“How about the Heavy Quintet?” asked Nick, making me laugh.“Never," I replied with conviction, "it was a ridiculous name.”“The five detective?” suggested Tom.“And of course Ace Ventura has nothing to do with the name, right?” asked Ethan, messing up Tom's awful hair do that looked just like the guy in the movie.We all laughed as we sat on the couch in the living room and said names worse than each other.From that day on we became a group, even Tom was part of it.We never decided on a name because of lack of agreement, but that didn't matter. What came from our group of five changed our whole life.Sofia Hernandez - January, 2022I enter her room desperate not to see what I wanted. I try to contain the panic, while my logical side screams that she's only been missing for a few minutes.My cellphone beeps."I found her, she's in the tree."I exhale in relief and head straight to the garden. Up high, proudly standing, is my treehouse reminiscent of another life.I climb the stairs, which are sturdier than ever after the renovation five years ago.I hear her carefree laughter before seeing her face. "I'm sure it's not written like that, Daddy."My little girl looks at the book resting on her lap while her back is supported against Ethan's chest.- "Don't blame me, blame the book. It's right here," Ethan points to a passage on the page, laughing.Her childish face contorts into a grimace, and I know she won't stop until she gets the answer she wants."No, Daddy, that's not right. That word isn't "stinky" I know what stinky means, and it's not that," she responds, looking into his e
Ethan Hernandez - May, 2014As I embarked on my journey around the world, I thought of Sofia every day.We kept sporadic contact through messages, just checking in on each other. Every time I receive a message from her, my heart fills with joy. She seemed to be doing well, having landed a job as a primary school teacher near her home, and most importantly, she was sober.While traveling, I meet incredible people, visit fascinating places, and delve deeper into my career as an architect. But in every new location, there's an emptiness, a void that only Sofia's presence can fill.Two years quickly pass by.I look at my latest project nearing completion. A beachfront vacation home in Lanikai.This was the last house I would work on in the renovation of the friends Mr. Miller referred me to.After that, a position as a university professor awaited me in Chicago, my hometown, where my family lived.I was eager to live near my mother and sisters again, but I'd be lying if I said that the ca
Sofia Adams - May, 2012Entering the house where I lived with Nick feels strange because it seems like a lifetime ago that I was here, not just two months. I gather all the cleaning supplies, garbage bags, and boxes that I will need.Entering our bedroom is like being hit by a million memories all at once, including our last fight. Nevertheless, I stay strong and begin to clean. I carefully fold and store Nick's clothes that will be donated, pack away items I don't want to get rid of, and items that I know his parents would want.After everything is sorted and sealed, I start cleaning the room. I change the sheets, take out the trash, and I even find the empty box of the pregnancy test from that night. It was never a possibility, and I feel sad for the children I never had with him. But it's a sadness that I now know I can bear, and I can do it all without alcohol.I call Anne. I hear her sleepy "hello" from the other end of the line; I think I woke her up."I'm in my room," I say aft
Sofia Adams - April, 2012Spending ten days with Ethan, fully aware of my feelings, was almost magical. Whenever his work allowed, every minute was spent together. We visited every tourist spot in the city, went back to the Ferris wheel, talked on the rooftop until dawn. It was like how we used to be. Him and me in our own little bubble, stealing kisses here and there. It almost made me want to give up everything and follow him around the world. Almost. But here I was, sitting by the fountain one last time, looking at Ethan waiting for me.April is coming to an end, and so is our deadline."Have you made up your mind?" I ask, gazing at the undisturbed water. I tap my fingers, creating small ripples.Ethan touches his fingers to mine through the water."I've thought about it a lot, and I'm going to follow your suggestion... I'm going to accept. I've talked to my family, and in a month, I'll have a week off to visit them. For now, Hong Kong is my next destination," he says, taking a dee
Ethan Hernandez - April, 2012A long time passes without a response, and I offer another option."Or not, I can decline the offer, and we can go back to Chicago," I suggest.Sofia raises her head, and I see her eyes shimmering with unshed tears."We? Ethan, it's not your obligation to take care of me," she says, sounding slightly offended.It wasn't my intention to offend her with this conversation. We slowly resume walking aimlessly."I know that, I just want to," I say nonchalantly. I can't make a big deal out of it, or Sofia will run away.Sofia sighs."But I don't want that, and I don't think it's what I need right now," she firmly responds.Suddenly, I feel guilty. It seems like this conversation isn't going as I planned."But..." Before I can argue, she interrupts me."Look, Ethan, I appreciate the invitation. I really do, but I need to decline while you need to accept this offer," she says.I look at her confused; if I accept, the chances of us seeing each other will be almost
Ethan Hernandez - April, 2012Mr. Miller sent me another message asking if I accepted the offer.I send the following reply:"I'm still thinking, Sir. I promise to have an answer by May 1st."My phone immediately beeps."It will be two years traveling the world, Hernandez. You're young, you can make the most of this personal and professional experience. If it makes you more comfortable, I'm sure the costs of an additional traveler can be covered. Maybe that pretty friend of yours could go with you? ;)"I laugh at the message. Who would have thought my boss would play cupid. It's not the first time he suggests it; he's very generous.It would be a lie if I said that whenever the subject comes up, I don't stop to think. And to have a little hope.If Sofia were to come with me, traveling around and exploring places. Just the two of us enjoying our lives. It would be a dream.Before my mind wanders too much, I pull myself back to reality.Sofia is still slowly overcoming Nick's death. Sof
Sofia Adams - April, 2012I leave the meeting room with Kate in tow and find Ethan outside. For a moment, I forgot about our dinner."What's wrong?" he asks, already sensing that something isn't right."Jones didn't come. He's not responding or answering, and we think he's in a bad state," I reply, without mentioning his sister's possible birthday. It's not my story to tell."Where do you think he could be?" Kate asks."We could check his nightclub..." I reply uncertainly. Those environments were always challenging for a recovering alcoholic. There's plenty of alcohol available and reminders of the old life.Kate sighs, understanding my dilemma."I can go in there and look for him," Ethan suggests, seeing our distress.We breathe a sigh of relief."Yes!" Kate exclaims, already heading towards the exit.We arrive at the nightclub and wait outside while Ethan goes in.Some people are outside with their bottles in hand, chatting and having fun."Do you miss it?" I ask. Sometimes, I feel
Sofia Adams - April, 2012I stare at Anne, unable to believe what she's saying."I'm just saying she's changed. Maggie isn't the horrible teenager she used to be," she defends."Whatever, I'm just grateful she doesn't live here with her parents. I don't need to see her, and she doesn't need to see me. Everyone's happy," I respond, annoyed."Is this about Ethan?" Anne asks, adjusting herself on the bed in the room where she's staying at Tom's aunt and uncle's house."What? Of course not," I reply, avoiding eye contact and twisting the sheets on the bed with my fingers. "I've already gotten over that silly relationship they had. I've forgotten about it, and she was his first, that's all in the past.""I can see that," Anne responds, smiling at me.I caress her protruding belly."So, have you found out what it is yet?" I ask, changing the subject.Anne looks thoughtful."Well, unless I give birth to a pumpkin, I believe it's a baby," Anne responds seriously.I laugh at her terrible joke.
Sofia Adams - April 2012We walk through the streets of Las Vegas."Is the fourth step still keeping you up at night?" Ethan brings up our conversation again."I just don't understand what there is to evaluate. I did bad things, got it, next step," I say exasperatedly.Ethan laughs."I don't think it's that simple, Sofia..." We stop at a familiar park since we've come here a few times to talk."Tell me the complete step," Ethan requests, sitting on one of the plastic benches. I sit beside him."The fourth step: Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves. We were given instincts for a reason," I repeat.Ethan gazes into the horizon."Since these meetings started, I've been researching about it. The fourth step seems to be one of the hardest, and seeing you, I understand the difficulty. I think your main obstacle is not understanding why it's so important," Ethan says. I don't know how to feel when I hear that Ethan researched the twelve steps for me. It's confusing."Th