Natalie "Yes, I love Alaric." But I'm not in love with him, or I am, but it's nothing compared to how I feel about Noah. Noah studies my face. It might be my imagination, but his eyes grow sad and disappointed for a minute. A wave of longing and wanting to wrap my arms around me crashes over me. I want to kiss the hurt away from his lips. But his expression quickly changes into a smile. It throws me off and leaves my heart thumping in pain. "Of course you love Alaric. What was I thinking?" Noah laughs at himself and smiles at me again. Those eyes suck me in and chew me up. "Or else you wouldn't be planning on marrying him. Right?" My heart thumps. "Right." Noah keeps the smile, and we turn back to watching Rick and Morty, but my heart feels heavy with guilt. I gave Noah the correct answer. So why does it seem like I've made a grave mistake? I can barely focus on the TV. Every part of me is on fire, and it's not the sexy kind, but the ones capable of destroying your soul. I'
Natalie I'm dying right now. Noah and I took Emma to a park. He is making sounds to make her eat her baby food. But the thing that is making me crack up is Noah's disguise. He is pretty well-known and is wearing shades even though the skies are gray, and he is also wearing this ugly Stitch onesie to hide his body. And I swear Noah wasn't made to wear Disney onesies—he looks cramped inside the blue fabric. It's hugging his body like a second skin, but at least he is adorable. I can't take my eyes off Noah and the floppy Stitch ears are making it worse. Noah is so gentle with Emma and winks at me now and then to give me butterflies. His joking nature and those mischievous eyes got me melting like a cone of ice cream under the blazing sun. "What's the matter?" Noah asks me when he catches me staring. "Have you never seen an alien before?" I snort at him. "You should wear onesies more often." "Really?" He looks hopeful. I laugh again. "Lexie would leave you, and your womanizer l
NoahLet my gaze slide toward Natalie, watching intently as she smiles and takes a seat behind the wheel of the red Ferrari. She doesn't expect me to buy this one for her, but the truth is that I would gladly give her anything she pointed at. "I'm so excited to drive this car," Natalie beams at me, and I return her smile. My heart squeezes seeing her so happy."Remember to go easy on the gas pedal," I tell her. "It would be a tragedy if Emma lost both of her parents."Natalie chuckles and drives us onto the road. I take great satisfaction in observing her lips curl into a smile. Those wide, beautiful eyes take in our surroundings. Natalie doesn't know this car will soon belong to her."I love this car!"My skin tightens as I imagine Natalie saying those words to me, that she loves me. God knows I love her, and love never changes. Even when I had no memories, I loved her. That feeling will never go away, or it wouldn't be love. Yet I'm hesitant about flirting with her. Natalie is ge
NatalieA few days later, after Noah bought me my new car. I'm making dinner in the kitchen when Alaric comes home. My mood is so good, and I'm dancing to some new pop song on the radio. These steaks are going to taste like a happy life.Sadly, the music within me dies when Alaric walks into the kitchen with a bouquet of flowers. There is a big smile on his lips. It turns into a sad line when I cross my arms underneath my chest.I frown at him, meeting his eyes with fury behind mine. "You didn't call me after I was let out of the hospital.""I know, honey," Alaric inhales deeply. "Losing our child was hard on me...""It was hard for me too. I expected us as a couple to get through the hardship together," I tell Alaric, looking him up and down.Alaric is wearing an expensive suit, and he has shaved. He cleans up nicely, but I won't step into the trap of inhaling his cologne and letting him kiss away my anger.Alaric let me down when I needed him the most. Instead of him being there for
NatalieThings have been going great with Alaric. We have spent the entire week joking and having fun. We are getting married next week, and... I might not be the happiest I could ever be, but I'm satisfied."You seem lost in thought."Alaric's deep voice washes me, and I realize I must have spaced out. How rude of me.We are eating dinner at some fancy restaurant. I'm talking to my dad again, and he gave us money; Noah's money, to pay for this dinner I'm having with Alaric right now."Are you alright, Natalie?"Alaric's brows are furrowed, and his mouth is turned down. For once, there is actual concern written on his face."I'm excellent," I smile, lifting my class to share a cheer with my soon-to-be husband. When I see the worry disappear over Alaric's handsome features, hope for the future ignites within me. Tonight is about us. I'm trying to fall back in love with Alaric because he is a good guy. When we first met, he was a total gentleman. He held up doors and threatened me to
Natalie I dig into my dessert to try and look busy around our table. Alaric left to visit the bathroom in quite a hurry. He had an incoming phone call from his business partner. So I'm eating my soufflé alone. The fancy restaurant is filled with people tonight. They crowd the floor and mingle with each other before finally sitting down to order. I feel a bit out of place, especially since I'm alone. I'm also suffering that nagging feeling that every other person inside this room is wearing way more expensive clothing. I swear some women frown upon seeing me while others snicker at my second-hand bag. "I'm sorry," Alaric returns to the table. "My business partner had a lot to say." A smile takes hold of my lips. I get the feeling Alaric's business partner is a woman since he is afraid of naming them. I wonder why he is trying to keep that a secret? "It's alright," I tell him. "I ordered dessert to keep me busy." "Was it any good?" "Delicious." "Anyway, about our wedding," Alar
NatalieI stare even harder at the scene going on by the other table. Lexie is covering half her face with her glitter-colored nails. She appears excited, with her leg dangling over the other, while Noah's face is shrouded in shadows.What is going on?I'm hanging on by the skin of my teeth. I didn't realize Noah was in love with Lexie. Are they honestly close to getting married already? I'm sad and confused and close to tears.I have no right to feel this way, but I do.Flashing a wicked smile at Lexie, Noah opens the black box to reveal...A diamond necklace.Time seems to stop. Noah didn't propose to Lexie—why is that such a huge relief? It feels like a rock has been lifted off my chest. Lexie might be dancing in her seat right now, but she won't become Noah's wife.Thank the heavens.I watch the pair, holding my breath when Noah turns around. His eyes meet mine and linger. I'm caught, spellbound by the gorgeous man. Recognition flashes over his features, and I avert my eyes with m
NatalieSilently, I look myself over in the mirror, sad because I didn't get to rent the dress I wanted, but happy since the one I'm wearing does fit me. The minus would be that it's puffy around the shoulders and lacks the finesse I had dreamed of. I resemble a white cake with plenty of whip cream. But at least this is a proper wedding dress, and with my brown hair sat up in silver pins, I have to say I look prettier than ever before. A corset is holding in my pouch of a belly. I'm wearing fake diamond earrings on top of the cherry, and Linnea did my makeup. She is currently in tears behind me. I have to bite back a laugh. Linnea has taken on my mother's role and is looking at me like I'm her daughter. It warms my heart. "You look stunning," her lip is quivering. "So damn beautiful I can't hold back my tears..."Linnea's boyfriend, Johan, is already inside the church, but Linnea won't leave me just yet. She is watching me like a hawk, unable to blink away from my dress and makeu