Chapter: 13.*******Steven opened his eyes to be greeted by an extremely bright light, and he closed them again. When he did open them back up, the lights weren't all that bright anymore. The walls are just plain white, where the hell are his pictures? And why is his room so small?The hell...Why was he on a bed? And why is it so small? Steven tried sitting up but a strong hand held him down and soon he found himself drifting off into oblivion while listening to distance chatter. Sounds like birds chirping on a tree, which was seriously provoking to his poor ears. While he slept, he had a very pleasant dream, waking up from it he made to get up again, but that same force wouldn't let him, Steven was tired of sleeping, so he insisted until they spoke."Are you trying to get yourself killed again?" The voice asked."What?""Now you're deaf too? perfect.""Who is that?" Steven's head was pounding in his ears, the voice seems a little too loud for him, he tried to turn around when he fe
Chapter: 14.******"Do you love him too?" The little girl had asked.Yes, yes I love him so much. I love him way more than I love myself. Just, not in the same way that he loves me. David was going to answer her but her mother came in and he figured it's best he didn't say a word and so he just left. Steven looked so alone. His eyes. God, I hated seeing him like that. David's thoughts wandered. I should go back to him, to apologize and let him know that I love him. David felt his eyes sting. "No this is wrong, I can't love him that way," David yelled his frustrations into his car. Fuck David, what is wrong with you? Steven is part of him, he can't live without him."I missed us." Steven had told him. I've missed us too, Steven, and I need you, more so now than ever. David, couldn't tell from where these thoughts came but it was certain Steven completes him. David had thought staying away from him would change anything, but the truth was, it worsens everything. He almost died thi
Chapter: 15.****"Speak."Those were Steven's words after he hadn't heard from him for so long. That was his fault anyway, he neglected him, made sure he left him hurting to the point of wanting to die. He caused Steven so much pain and left him when he needed him the most. Steven had not only come out to him but had also realized he was in love with him, which was a whole lot for anyone to take in, yet he left him."Why are you calling me?"David wanted to share this moment with him, to let him know he was going to be a father soon, at some point in their lives they had both wanted this, to get married have kids, and yet still be best friends."I missed us."Steven had said those same words to him at the hospital and he heard his heartbreak, even more when he had told Steven they Couldn't stay friends anymore."I'm going to be a father, Steven." The line went dead, he should have known, this isn't the right time to talk about that, he hasn't even called him for over a month now, al
Chapter: 16.*****Standing to look out his window and perhaps open the blinds, his breath caught in his throat. A red airport taxi drove into the building, he looked on until the passenger emerges. He saw the face of the one person he desperately wanted to see and a smile seeped into his soul and filled its very ache and hollow.Steven, his best-friend, vibrant, joyous, beautiful Steven. Who had been the one happy constant in his life for years? And also the one person who caused him the most confusion. A quick look at the bed, Raya still sleeps beautifully. Quietly David made his way out of the bedroom, with eagerness in each step, he finds himself waiting at the front door.Silently, he pushed the screen door open, inviting Steven inside. Steven stepped past David into the foyer without saying a word, doing his best to ignore the surge of heat that went through him as his arm brushed David's broad chest. As always, his proximity left Steven a little lightheaded. He thought he would
Chapter: 17.*******David pulled Steven farther down the hall into the same room, he had stayed in the last time he visited. Closing the door behind, he finally let go of Steven's hand and walked to stand at the window, his back to Stevens."Why are you so upset? You know I have to get back, I've got work to do.""Steven....look, I--,""No, David... I came here so we could talk.""Then, tell me. But don't leave in two days, please!"God, I hate it when he begs. Makes it harder not to do as he says. Steven felt his heart melt for him."You know, for someone who hasn't spoken to me in a long time and probably never cared about me. You sure have a way with words.""I care about you Steven, and even if I never called. There is no day that went by, that I do not think about you, and regret every moment I've caused you pain.""Well, it didn't seem that way.""I know, and I'm sorry....please forgive me.""Fine, I will leave in five days.""One week then, please Steven, one week.""Then one
Chapter: 18.******Days flew by after that ordeal, though both men have no idea, that they had masturbated, each on his own side of the closed door. Yet they felt they knew each other's secrets. Both men longed desperately to touch, to feel, each other, and yet confusion, guilt, and shame, wouldn't let any show what they truly want. The sexual tensions between them each time they were found together alone, were becoming unbearable.Today was the last day of the agreement and Steven had to leave the next day. Neither he nor David was happy. None wanted the other gone. An unspoken desire, that troubles the innermost part of their souls. Why does it have to be this complicated?They both wondered.*********"Good morning, family." Steven greeted with the best fake smile ever. David knew the moment he looked into those eyes, that Steven was sad, but trying to play it off. The thoughts of Steven's departure and the fact that he lives so far away annoy him to no end."Morning handsome, I'd
Chapter: 19.*******“Boys!" The voice of Raya echoed again.******David allowed himself another second, one more moment to relish the sweet heat of Steven's kiss, and then he tore himself away. "Raya." He panted. "She's home."Steven searched his eyes for long seconds. "The bathroom." He suggested. "I'll distract her and keep her downstairs, then you can join us. Unless you'd rather have us walk out together.""No, it's fine," David said while walking into the bathroom, Steven shut the door behind him and came out to great Raya."Hello, beautiful.""Steven...sorry, did I just walk in on something?" Raya asked, with a wicked smile on her face."What?" Steven whispered. Fuck, I should have checked the mirror. He mentally slapped himself."You looked sexed," Raya told him, and couldn't hide the full grin on her face anymore. Steven knew he was in for a long one, from her."Keep your voice down, I don't want David hearing you." Steven needs a cover-up lie and fast. Somebody, please hel
Chapter: 20.******Once in his room, he gently lay down on his bed. For hours the thoughts of David, Raya, his mother, and that of David's, were all that filled his lovesick mind. He took out his phone and placed a call to the only person he could truly talk to at the moment. While waiting for the receiver, he studied his fingers like they were the most beautiful things in the world."Steven, is everything alright?" He heard Alice's voice. Finally taking his eyes off his fingers, he exhaled a breath he never knew he has been holding. "I'm fine Alice, how is Lily?""She's fine. But let's talk about you, tell me.""I'm a really bad person." Steven broke out, all of a sudden."What do you mean?""I've done something really bad, Alice.""Listen to me Steven, no matter what it is you've done. Never see yourself as a bad person, in fact, you're by far the most beautiful person I know. Why would you think yourself bad?""I-I--." Steven couldn't find his voice, he was crying for goodness sa