Masuk
Chapter ONE ~ It Was Just A Kiss.
CYRUS’s POV
“Hi, I'm Dominic. You are?”
The familiar figure asked me, but I was completely stunned to reply.
Did he not recognize me?
Or was he acting up?
I remember those icy blue eyes so well. It was too familiar to miss. He was the same guy from the club.
The same guy with filthy lips, who wouldn't stop whispering dirty things to me, leading to a kiss between us both.
This man literally had me questioning my sexuality for so many days. I kept assuring myself that it was a mistake and that I was a straight man.
And now he was standing in front of my house, introducing himself?
Really?
I was still recalling how his lean fingers had curled around my face as we kissed, how he had groaned in my mouth and how he had called my lips his “perfect temptation” when someone brushed past me.
“Honey, you really don't need to introduce yourself to him.” A sharp voice snapped me out of my thoughts.
It was Phoebe, my sister.
She dragged Dominic inside, throwing me a vicious glare like usual before storming in with the man.
I didn't get it.
Why was she calling him so sweetly?
Was he her friend?
“Umm, who's he?” I asked, walking back to the sitting room.
Phoebe and Dominic were now sitting on the couch and their arms were interlocked while Phoebe rested her head on his shoulder.
Phoebe lifted her head off Dominic’s shoulder. “If you weren't so busy trying to bag unnecessary degrees, you would have known that he's my boyfriend.” She taunted me but the word “boyfriend” caught my attention.
My eyes darted towards Dominic. As he looked back at me, his icy blue eyes still had that glint of seduction whirling up in them.
What?
My sister's boyfriend?
How is he dating her and still kissing men at clubs?
Does she know what her boyfriend is doing behind her back?
A lot of emotions pooled inside me, weakening my legs so I took a seat on the couch across them. My mind was swirling with a lot of thoughts.
How was this possible?
Should I tell her? But that meant bringing more trouble for myself.
Phoebe and I never got along like the way siblings should and I always blamed myself for it. Though I'm the eldest, she just always saw me as the guy who overshadowed her success with mine.
She was averagely smart and I was a literal genius and as a result of that, my parents often preferred showing me off to friends more than her and being a good looking guy—as girls always tell me—I got a lot of attention while growing up.
This created differences between us, and even made her start competing with me because she always felt the need to prove that she was better than me.
However, all I really wanted was to be cool with my kid sister. It's why I studied so hard, trying out new things because I want to make so much money to spoil her and win her heart.
But no matter how hard I tried, she always pushed me away. So, if I dared to tell her that her boyfriend kissed me? I know she'll literally burn me alive.
“Babe, I made pasta for you. Come and eat,” Phoebe sweetly said to Dominic, who lifted her hand to kiss it.
A lump formed in my throat at the sight, and I didn't understand why.
The duo headed for the dining table just behind the sitting room, leaving me behind.
My lips curled downward, even if Phoebe made the best dish in the world, she would still restrict me from tasting it.
Phoebe blushed so much around Dominic, letting her look very happy and that made my shoulders drop. I wish I could make her smile like that.
Asides the lingering feeling of yearning to reconcile with my sister was a hot feeling of what I really do not understand. Dominic was acting so sweet to her, his eyes heavy with admiration whenever he stared at her and seeing all that, made me feel lonely.
No one had ever looked at me with so much affection, not my sister, not my exes, not even my parents.
Dominic was the only one who looked at me like he wanted to have me for life and seeing him look at my sister in the same way, made my jaws clench.
My brows furrowed at the sight of him flirting with my sister.
I didn't like that.
“Thought you said it was just a kiss, so why does it matter seeing him treating your sister lovingly?” The voice in my head asked, making me retrace my thoughts.
I shouldn't feel cheated. I mean… I'm not even gay.
So why do I care?
I tried to avert my gaze from them but I couldn't. And with every passing minute, the two of them grew even more romantic.
From feeding her, to wiping off the ends of her lips, whispering in her ears and kissing her cheek.
Christ.
My heart was palpitating at the sight.
I started feeling like I was suffocating despite being in such a wide room with big enough windows.
“You're not interested in Dominic, Cyrus. You're a straight man,” the voice in my head encouraged me and I took deep breaths, calming myself down.
Noting that I couldn't possibly think straight with him around me, I quickly headed to the kitchen, wanting to grab some fruits then head over to my room.
I had picked up an apple and some grapes, putting them in a plastic bowl when I felt someone's presence in the kitchen.
Heat crawled up my neck as I froze, my nostrils picked up a familiar musky scent.
I slowly turned back and there he was, standing only three inches away from my body. I could have sworn my heart jumped to my throat before racing.
My eyes widened, “What are you–”
“Shushhhh,” He pressed an index finger over my lips, his eyes sparkling with unchecked lust.
Being so close to him made me feel…hot. I usually felt hot whenever I was nervous so I assumed it was that until he drove the pad of his thumb over my cheek, making me shudder.
I swallowed hard, “What–What are you doing?”
He grinned, “I've been yearning to have those lips again, and now that I've found them, I'm going to make them mine.” He finished, biting hard on his own lips.
Fuck.
Why does that excite me?
OUT IN THE OPENCYRUS POINT OF VIEWI woke up to noise, I didn’t open my eyes at first because my head was pounding and my body felt pinned, heavy, wrong, the whispers kept going anyway.“—that’s him.”“I know.”“I thought he died.”“Well obviously not.”I opened my eyes. I saw White ceiling. Hospital lights. Curtains half pulled. Two nurses standing just outside my room, angled toward each other, heads close. One of them noticed my eyes were open and stopped talking mid-word. They both looked at me like I’d caught them doing something dirty.I swallowed. My throat burned. “Morning.”Neither answered. They exchanged a look. One nodded. They walked off together and started whispering again the second they were a few steps away. My heart started racing. I lay there staring at the doorway, jaw tight, chest feeling too small.Another nurse passed by. I tried again. “Hey.”She smiled without stopping. “Morning.” Already gone. They were avoiding me. All of them. Talking around me. Like I wa
I LOVE YOUCYRUS POV.“I love Doninic ,” I say, and I don’t pause, don’t soften it, don’t give her time to brace because I’ve been bracing for years and I’m done carrying that weight alone. “I don’t love you, Stella. I never did. I tried to convince myself I could, that it would come with time, that marriage would fix something that was already broken in me, but it didn’t. It just made the lie heavier. If you need the truth stripped bare, then here it is: I've been gay my entire life. This didn’t start with him. It didn’t start last year or last month or whenever the rumors decided to crawl out of the gutter. I was born this way, and I buried it because it was easier to be the son, the husband, the partner everyone expected than to be honest.”She doesn't move at first. Just stares. Like she’s watching something collapse in slow motion and can’t look away. Her lips part, then press together again, like she’s tasting every word, weighing how much damage they’ve already done. I can se
OUT IN THE AIRCYRUS POV.I swore I’d never step foot in Festus’s house again.I said it years ago, out loud, drunk and furious and bleeding from a fight that never should’ve happened. I remember pointing at the place like it was cursed ground, telling Timone if he ever dragged me back here it’d be because I was dead or desperate. Turns out desperation counts.The door closes behind me and the sound lands wrong in my chest. Too final. Too quiet. The house smells like coffee and wood polish and something citrusy that doesn’t belong to me. Festus’s place has always felt like a territory line I wasn’t supposed to cross. Clean. Controlled. Everything I’m not right now.I stand there longer than necessary, hands shoved in my pockets, jaw tight, trying not to think about how I don’t actually have anywhere else to go.Timone notices. Of course he does. He always notices.“I’m sorry,” he says, low, careful. “I know you hate this place. I know you said you never wanted to come back here.”I le
THE GRAND PLAN Dominic I haven’t stopped moving since I got here. That’s the first thing that hits me every time I become aware of myself again. Not where I am. Not what I’ve done. Just the fact that my body refuses to settle, like if I stop, something worse will catch up to me. The room feels wrong in a Foreign hotel. Neutral colors meant to offend no one, comfort everyone, and somehow they do the opposite. Thick curtains pulled shut even though it’s still daytime. My suitcase is open on the bed, clothes half unpacked, folded and unfolded again without purpose, like my hands needed something to do so they wouldn’t reach for my phone.I pace from the window to the desk to the bed and back. Over and over. The same steps, the same path, like if I repeat it enough times it will start to make sense. My fingers twitch. My jaw aches from being clenched too long. My chest feels tight, heavy, like something is pressing inward, something that won’t let me take a full breath. I keep thinking
SILENT REMORSECYRUSA week passes and it doesn’t soften anything. It just stretches the pain thinner until it’s everywhere, like I’ve been skinned and forced to live anyway. Every hour feels the same. I don’t wake up refreshed, I just surface from one kind of numb into another. I keep thinking there should be a moment where my body realizes Doninic is gone and adjusts. It never does. It just keeps waiting, stupid and hopeful, like I trained it wrong.I stop eating first. Not deliberately. I sit in front of plates and stare at them until the smell turns my stomach. When I try to force it down, my throat closes. My body rejects it like it’s foreign. Like it doesn’t deserve to be fed when the person who mattered most to it isn’t here anymore. I tell myself I’ll eat later. Later never comes.Sleep goes next. Or maybe it goes first and I just don’t notice. I lie in bed for hours, eyes open, staring at ceilings, at corners, at nothing. My mind loops relentlessly—what I said, what he said,
JUST ONE NIGHTCYRUSThe apartment was quiet. Dominic and I sat on the couch. The TV was off. The lights were dim. The only brightness came from the city outside the window, He was sitting close to me. Close enough that our thighs touched i looked at his hand. At the lines on his palm. At the way his fingers curved slightly, relaxed."You keep looking at my hand," he said."I like your hands."He turned his head. His eyes found mine. In the low light, they looked darker than usual. Almost black."Yeah?""Yeah." I reached out and traced my finger along one of the lines. "This one means something. I forget what.""It means I'm going to live a long life.""Does it?""No. I made that up." He smiled. "But I'm going to anyway. Live a long life. With you."I felt my chest get tight. Not in a bad way. In the way that happens when someone says something so simple and so true that it knocks the air out of you."You can't promise that," I said."I know." He turned his hand over and caught mine.
BACK TO THE BEGINNING.DOMINIC.I felt good. Relaxed in a way I hadn't felt in a long time. My back was against the couch, my legs spread just enough for Cyrus to settle between them. His hands were on my thighs, warm and steady, and his head was lowering. I had one hand in his hair, holding him cl
AN ILLICT AFFAIR.PHOEBE.When I stepped off the plane, I didn’t even bother letting myself settle before reaching for my phone. I already had Cyrus’s message typed out halfway through the descent because there was no point in pretending. I always sent the same thing every time I came back from any
I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YOU CYRUS POV.I kept my hand on the doorknob because it felt safer to hold something. My fingers were stiff from how hard I’d been gripping it, but letting go made me feel like I’d fall forward. Dominic stood in the entrance, chest rising and falling too fast, like he’d jog
CHOOSE ME, NOT HIM CYRUS POV.I woke up too warm. I didn’t move. Just blinked slowly into the soft, golden haze leaking through the blinds. Everything smelled like sex and skin and dominic—his cologne rubbed raw against my neck, his breath soft on my shoulder. I felt his arm draped over my waist l







