“Is it weird that I'm catching feelings for Ivan when I just broke up with Linc?” I asked Jade who was ransacking my closet.
It's been three days since she came back from Italy and she came over once I called her for fashion help, given that Ivan had asked me out… as a date.
Okay don't crucify me yet. I don't know how I said yes to him, just that whenever he's around me all my reasoning and thoughts become so jumbled up; I think he knows this that's why he was all up in my space yesterday when he asked me prompting me to say yes without even knowing it.
“Well since it's Ivan” she said stressing the Ivan. “I don't think it's weird. Just the sight of him can make a girl to break up with her boyfriend, talk less of a single girl—that being you—he's actually interested in” she continued, placing a flower patterned sun dress on my dresser stool and a nude coloured gladiator sandals on the ground near the stool.
“Does this mean I never loved Linc? Although he's a jerk and all but I know I felt something for him” I said plugging my curling iron to the socket and handing it over to Jade to do her magic.
“Infatuation, Ella. If you're sure you don't feel anything for Linc now, then it means you were only infatuated” she said rolling a lock of hair on the iron.
“So if Ivan asks you to date him tonight will you say yes?” She asked after a while. I just knew that she'll ask this question, I've been waiting for it since I told her of the date; but the answer is simple.
“No” I said. No matter how mushy he makes me feel, I won't date him. I don't even trust him and I doubt I can.
He's still coming after me because guys like him likes girls who put up the hard to get front. He thinks I'm playing his game with him, but I'm not; when it comes to him I try to thread carefully.
I can't and won't purposely put myself in something I know that won't work out; something that I know will hurt me.
I won't date Ivan, he's a walking heart break.
“Ok” Jade said in understanding.
After a while of fussing with my hair, she was finally done.
“All done!”Jade exclaimed turning me to face the mirror.
“Wow, thank you so much” I said after being awed by my reflection.
I still looked like myself though but a more elegant version. My hair looked more voluptuous and bouncy and it covered up for my cosmetic free face.
“You're welcome fish” she said pinching my cheeks causing me to laugh.
“Put your clothe on, he'll be here in five” she said thrusting my clothes to my hands.
I was looking at my reflection after dressing, I skipped the earrings but I felt like wearing a bracelet so I searched my jewellery box until I came upon a charm bracelet Sandra had bought for me on my fourteenth birthday and I felt my heart squeeze because I miss my best friend who is busy being a bitch.
If she at least asked for forgiveness, I would have forgiven her but it seems like she wanted to hurt me purposely and I just don't get it. I never treated her badly, I sought her out for every decision I've ever made in this life, I shared everything with her. My clothes were literally hers, my car was hers too, my mum usually gave her a more special treatment than she gave me—not that it ever bothered me, it gave me this unfathomable joy in my heart—but she decided to repay me with purposeful betrayal.
Speaking of my mum, I know we have a pending conversation concerning Linc, Sandra and I.
I was still looking at the bracelet when my phone rang, bringing me back to the present. I saw it was Ivan and I picked the call; it's either he's already here or he's cancelling, I hope it isn't the latter.
“Hey, Nuts” he said cheerfully; should be good news if he's cheerful.
“Hey, Ivan” I replied.
“I'm outside but if you aren't ready yet, take your time. I want you to look your best” he said and I heard the smirk in his voice.
“I'm already done, I'll be there in a minute” I said slipping the bracelet on. Although Sandra betrayed me, I still miss her and I respect the times we had together.
And I wouldn't stop wearing a really pretty bracelet because Sandra's being a bitch. No.
Once I stepped outside I saw Ivan resting on a shiny black Rolls-Royce. I took a moment to look at him. He was wearing a black fitted jeans paired with a plain brown shirt under a dark Jean jacket and brown timberlands.
“I know you like what you see, so I'll just let you ogle a little bit longer” he said with a boyish smile, tucking his hands into his jeans just as I turn into a bright shade of red.
“Oh please, you wish” I said lamely walking to the car, before I could open the door, he was already there with that goofy smile on his face.
As I was about entering the car, Ivan bent to my ear, sending sweet shivers down my spine and whispered “you look beautiful tonight” making me blush more. I looked up at him and smiled in appreciation.
Little things that swell the heart.
“I'm not sure what I want to major in yet but it will be something concerning business, probably business management” I answered Ivan when he asked.
We were in an expensive restaurant at the outskirts of our town. We were eating and talking about random things when Ivan asked me what I would like my major to be in the university.
“So, you will take over your parents company” Ivan stated rather than asked.
“It's either me or some random stranger that'll probably misuse all my parents hard work while I stay on the sidelines wishing I took over and saying oh, had I known over and over” I said with a shrug.
“Yeah, better choice” he nodded.
“Yesterday, I saw in the news that your parents were going to expand Thompson's Enterprises; the steel importation part to Africa and if it is successful, it means that your parents business has succeeded in reaching every corner of the world” he said surprising me.
Like he seriously watches the news?
Hot. Absolutely hot.
If the expansion to Africa succeeds—and it'll surely succeed—my parents goal in life which is also their company's motto ‘uplifting the people, strengthening the world’ will finally be reached.
“It'll be successful” I said in confidence because I believe in my parents and their success is my success and their failure, my failure too. “And yes, when the expansion becomes a reality, it means they've reached out to every corner of the world and it will also mean that they've accomplished their goal in life and they've given the world what they promised in their motto” I said proudly.
“You are really confident in you parents” he said with a small smile.
“They're my everything, I would murder anyone who hurts them” I said with a wide smile and I saw something flicker in his eyes but it was gone as fast as it came.
“Would you like dessert?” He asked once I had put the last morsel of food in my mouth.
“No, I'm so full. I would like to walk around a little before going home though” I said bidding my time with him because hanging with him is fun—duh.
He grinned “I would love that”.
Of course you would—that was my brain by the way. I don't really know what this brain of mine is rooting for—team Ivan or team don't trust guys.
We walked for about half an hour before I started complaining of my aching ankles and we had to go.
That was half an hour of Ivan holding my waist, half an hour of tingles all over my body and shivers down my spine, half an hour of Ivan tucking my hair behind my ears whenever the wind released stray strands.
Half an hour of pure torture!
Half an hour of having what you think you want beside you yet so far away.
Life is so unfair, I wish the circumstances were different.
Third Person's P.O.V
“They won't know it is missing until it is needed; and it'll be needed” the first male said with a sneer.
“Why do we really need to steal it if it really belongs to us? Why don't we go about it legally” the other male said thoughtfully.
“No lawyer must hear about this!” The first male scolded.
“Afterall the Thompson's doesn't play fair” the first male added angrily shutting the other male up.
Ivan's P.O.V.I arrived at Ella's house—sorry mansion; I feel like I'm insulting the mansion whenever I just call it house because it is so freaking large, like the structure, the fountain, the garden, the drive way, everything is just so large—about three minutes earlier than I was meant to and called her.“Hey, Nuts” I said once she received the call.“Hey, Ivan” she said with a strain in her voice like she was sort of unhappy.“I'm outside but if you aren't ready yet, take your time. I want you to look your best” I said smirking—like she was going to see me—trying my best to make her forget whatever was troubling her. I just hope it isn't those jerks we saw the other day, thinking of them makes me sick. I keep wondering the relationship she has with them, why were so mean to her—more like why was the girl so mean to her and why was the guy looking sad, tired and weary.One day I'll surely get the information from her; I could always get the information I need elsewhere but I want t
Ella“Why don't you pick the call” I told Jade who has been ignoring a call on her phone.We were at a fare that Jade forced me to.She was trying to get me to go on one of the rides with her but no way I was doing that. I have a great respect for my fear of heights and she knows it too.After all, all I wanted to do was sleep, is that so much to ask?To add to her failed attempt of getting me to have fun, she's been ignoring a call which comes literally every minute on her phone.“It's not important” she said dragging me to the cotton candy stand.Yeah right; it's not important.It's obvious she doesn't want to talk to the other person in my presence. I wonder why.“The person probably wants to tell you something important” I tried to mak
“What are you doing here?” Ivan asked.“Scratch that, were you spying on me?” He rephrased his question.“I—I—erm—Jade and I—we erm—” I stuttered sounding so foolish even to myself.It's official I suck.“Come on, get up” Ivan stretched out his hand to pull me up.I untangled my hand from the tangled mess I and Jade were and stretched it out to Ivan who pulled me up.These sparks I get whenever our skins touch keeps getting stronger everyday.I turned to help Jade up but she was already standing and dusting herself while Ivan was checking my body for injuries.“You injured yourself” he said, a frown etched on his face as he was looking at my left elbow which I grazed on the floor when Jade bumped into me.&ld
Ivan“Who are those people we saw at Benny's? What history do you have with them?” Why did I just ask that?She was shell shocked.She totally didn't see that coming.I don't even have the right to throw that question in her face right now. I've never prodded her for it; just that once I asked her about it and I've never asked again, so why the hell did I have to bring it up now.I'm such a díckhead.I'm not even as angry as I let her believe and I just had to throw that stupid question in.I don't totally feel bad about asking her the question though because if I didn't put something harsh out there for her to wallow in, she'll want to know about Jack– the realtor I had a meeting with at the fare.The guy sure knows how to pick weird and awkward places to meet. Our first meet
Ella“Nuts”Ivan?It can't be.Who else calls you Nuts; you disappoint me Ella.But he was furious when I left his house.I turned my head slightly just to be sure it was him and there he was in his car looking unnecessarily handsome.Is this dude bipolar or something?He was vomiting hurtful things just minutes ago; why the hell did he come after me??He can't see me crying and I so don't want to be around him now.Ugh! My life sucks.I bent my head back, he should just go on with his life and leave me alone.“Come on, get into the car so I could get you home at least”Yeah right, that'll move me.Your leg hurts, stop
“What do you want to talk about?” I asked carefully.“Us; I want to talk about us”The guts.“There's no us” I said. “At least not anymore” I added quietly and Ivan rubbed the side of my waist. Up, down. Up, down. Letting me know he was there for me.“I know, I know that and it's all my fault but I want to explain” his eyes pleaded.“We were busy and you interrupted us because you want to explain something you should have explained since?”I really wanted to hear this explanation but not today. I wanted to be with Ivan today and tell him everything about Linc, Sandra and I.“This isn't the you I knew” he said sadly.“What does that mean?” I arched an eyebrow.“You always told me that you hat
“I think I should get that” I told Ivan, untangling myself from our embrace.I went to my table, took the phone from my purse and saw it was Jade that was calling then I answered the phone and went back to the bed to sit by Ivan. I looked at him and mouthed ‘Jade’ and he nodded in understanding and mouthed ‘tell her I said Hi’.“Hey, what's up?” I asked her.“You're alive, thank God! The way he looked so angry, I thought you'll be dead meat by now!” she exclaimed and I looked at Ivan who was suppressing a laugh which caused me to laugh. Her exaggeration skills are over the top.“Ivan would never kill me” I said fondly, smiling at him.“Hm, some tone you're using. Something juicy happened right? You. Have. To. Tell. Me.” I blushed remembering the kiss.“Um, you're c
LincLast Christmas Break“I miss you” Ella told me over the phone as we were saying our goodbyes after talking for hours.I escaped from the yearly Christmas eve party my parents threw to talk to Ella who was spending the Christmas in Singapore with her family.The party was boring and I was tired of faking smiles, exchanging pleasantries that weren't from my heart and most of all my Dad's scrutinising gaze.Nothing I ever did was good enough for him and that night, it was my shoes that he kept complaining about. He wanted me to wear a pair of Giorgio Armani shoes but I wore Gucci shoes instead and he was pissed. I'm pretty sure if I wore the Giorgio Armani shoes, he'll still find a fault, so I didn't change it and by the way how would I have known he wanted me to wear a pair of Giorgio Armani shoes if he wouldn't tell me.Typical dad.I was tired of everything that night and I wanted to hear my girlfriend's voice and of course she made me feel better.“I miss you too, send my regards