Chapter 54

I found myself at home in bed crying myself to sleep. Logan was blowing my phone up after I had run out on him. How could one person make me feel so happy and so sad at the same time? I was on a rollercoaster ride with Logan. My only saving grace right now was the fact that Logan did not know where I lived. I was sure if he really wanted to know he would probably flex the rules and find out through his job one way or another. For now, I just had to hope he didn’t and would respect me enough not to do that.

I decided to turn my phone off completely. The following morning after a restless night I turned my phone back on and watched the notifications start to appear. One of the messages from Logan was saying he had read the letter. Obviously, my frustration and anger at him, along with the fact I ripped the letter up must have triggered him enough to piece it back together and read it. It was not something I could think about then and I would need to discuss with Logan at some point.

In amongst all of the messages and calls from Logan there was also one from Brax.

‘Good morning, gorgeous. I hope you got home safe and sound. If you are free today, I would love to grab some more time with you.’

"Crap, I was supposed to message Brax when I got home." I said to myself.

I found my heart skipping a beat with Brax. There was no pressure, no mixed feelings, and nothing felt forced or flippant. I found myself accepting the invitation and organizing another date with Brax. Although I was happy for the invitation, my emotions were so muddled from Logan. It felt like I was forcing myself to accept the invitation from Brax. But after some contemplation it was clear that with Brax it felt so easy and with Logan everything now felt too complicated and there were too many feelings involved that I couldn’t figure out if they were real or not. This made me realise that accepting the invitation from Brax was the best thing I could do.

I met Brax for breakfast at a quiet cafe in town and we spent a few hours talking and enjoying each other's company. Brax invited me to a club the following Friday, and I found myself accepting without a second thought. Although my feelings were nowhere near as strong as with Logan, they were simple. I enjoyed spending time with him and wanted to continue getting to know him. I wanted to be close with him.

As Sunday came to an end, I was still dodging Logan’s calls. Monday morning, I woke to a knock at my door. When I opened it there was a courier with a large bouquet of flowers. I accepted the delivery and placed it on the kitchen table. There was a small envelope attached to the box.

I ran away and then made you run from me.

I am here asking for forgiveness for my worst mistakes in life.

I am not willing to give you up without a fight.

Logan

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I rolled my eyes at the card. It was only a matter of time before he got my address. With every hope in the world, of course he would find it without my permission. I picked the flowers up and hovered over the bin with them. As much as I wanted them gone, there was a small part inside niggling at me to speak to Logan. I put the flowers back on the table, pulled out my phone and hit the dial button.

“Hi.” His voice was soft.

“How did you get my address?” My tone was sharp, there was no messing around I needed answers and needed them now. I had to know if if used his job to get it or not.

“Abigail gave it to me.”