~Houston~It’s been a week and a half, and I’m not holding up well. I’ve been trying to be in Alayasia’s orbit, but she keeps shutting me out. I let her use my office to work, and she makes sure to stay out when I'm in or exit quickly when I come to check on her. She hasn’t really been eating meals with the group, mostly taking meals in the office. I haven’t even laid eyes on Zara. I asked around about her and I heard good things. She’s thriving at the daycare center, and she’s been making friends. I’m trying to get the process rushed to get a teacher for the blind in the school. She needs to interact with other kids regularly. Alayasia hasn’t joined the pack yet, regardless of how much we try to push her to do so. I think she’s still toying with the idea of running from the pack, which would be a disaster. I hope we can sway her soon. And then there is Shiloh. She’s been lurking around, and it’s getting on my nerves. I have no idea why I feel so differently about her these days, b
~Alayasia~Why did you walk away?What do you mean, Clover?Why didn’t you stand up for yourself? Why did you fight for our mate?You can’t be serious right now. We don’t have a mate! We can’t claim Houston without revealing our true selves. We have nothing except Zara. I refuse to stand in the way of his happiness for my own selfishness. Clover blocks me, but I saw that coming. There’s anger coursing through my body. It’s partially from the back and forth I just had with Clover, and the other part is from the words that woman said to me. I shouldn’t be surprised, I mean, I’m used to the words thrown at me from being deemed human. It’s something about her words in particular that got under my skin. I sigh and continue my way to the Alpha’s office. Maybe I need to reject this job and leave. I know how horrible an idea this is, but I can’t help those thoughts. I just want to survive and take care of my child. I don’t want to cause anyone any issues, and I don’t want to have harm fall
~Shiloh~I was mortified because of what Houston said to me, but I tried not to show it. I didn’t want anyone to be able to tell how much he embarrassed me. If I could disappear into thin air, I would gladly accept it. I can’t even believe that he told me not to sit at this table anymore. I don’t sit here at every meal, but when I do, it’s never been a problem. Now, he doesn’t want me to sit here, and I’m sure that Alpha Tyrice won’t contradict him. I’m no fool, by any means. I know that Jakob doesn’t care for me, and I suspect that Alpha Tyrice feels the same. I don’t really care what they think of me because they aren’t who I’m after. Let me be clear, I’m not the ambitious type. I’m not trying to gain a title for myself. I want Houston; I always have. I’ve kept my eye on him since we were in school. He’s a gorgeous man who has never really paid me much attention. Don’t get me wrong, Houston has never been what you would call a ladies' man. He’s always been respectful when it come
~Houston~I swear, Colby is good for something sometimes. He’s been running rampant in my mind all morning. It’s been driving me up the wall. It’s times like these when I wish I could remove him from my consciousness. Then again, Colby isn’t usually like this, so I have no idea how to handle it. I was supposed to be training a bit longer this morning. I like to hand back and help keep things organized. I help train the pack members and give them advice on their forms. Since Colby was doing so much, I skipped the extra process and decided to call it a day. The moment I walk into the dining room, I swear the sight in front of me makes me want to kiss Colby. Because of his insistence, I get to have breakfast with Alayasia. She’s sitting next to Jakob, and Tyrice is talking to her about what she can do around the pack. I step closer behind her, not being able to keep out of the conversation. “What idea do you have for Alayasia, Alpha?” All eyes turn to me except Alayasia, and it makes
~Alayasia~I turn in the bed, watching the shadows play on the wall. I know it’s early morning, but it’s still pretty dark outside. I really need to see about getting a phone again. Hell, I really need a job. The tour was great, and I was able to see a lot. This pack is much bigger than the Mystic Wolves pack, and it’s even bigger than my home pack, the White Paw pack. It looked like people here are happier than either of those packs, but I don’t know that for sure. Jakob was a lot of fun to be around. It’s been so long since I’ve just hung out with another person and enjoyed myself. I could never do that because Maxim would always be watching me. He would be quick to shut any fun down or to isolate me when he felt I was doing too much. Thankfully, Jakob didn’t ask me anything about myself or my past. He took all that time to tell me about the pack and the surrounding lands. The highlight of the trip for me was the daycare. Zara is school-aged, but Maxim would never let her go to s
I continue to stare at the wall, wondering what time it is. I know I could easily check the time, but I don’t want to. I want to pretend that I’m not hung up on a married human with no explanation. I want to pretend that this woman hasn’t invaded my very being since I first laid eyes on her. Don’t get me wrong, I have no issue with humans. The fact that Alayasia is human doesn’t bother me at all. I always said that if my fated mate were human, I’d love her with everything I have inside. I don’t even care that she has a child. Honestly, the way she is with her child is amazing, seeing as how Zara has a disability. Alayasia is so patient with her and caring. I have no issue being a father to someone else’s child. The real issue, the real reason why I want to pretend, is that it doesn’t make sense. She’s a married woman and not my fated mate. I don’t even know what this pull to her is and it’s driving me crazy. Why has Colby been so attentive since meeting her? Why was I gutted when s