Sarah’s POV
We ordered lunch then after the waiter was gone Jan asked “So, I never really asked how are you doing? How is life there in America?”
“Well, I am great and very excited to finally finish studying and as for life back there it’s really good. I have my own house. Well, grandpa bought it to me 3 years ago as he didn’t want me to stay in the dorms of the college” I said.
“Do you live alone in that house or with someone? A friend maybe?” he asked.
“No, I live alone but sometimes Noah or Penny drops by and stays a night or two with me” I said.
“Don’t you have more friends?” he asked.
“I have of course as I am the captain of the girls soccer team but those two are my very best friends” I said smiling at the memory of the three of us watching movies on my couch and Penny making remarks about roma
Jan’s POV I kept staring in her deep blue eyes waiting for any sign of regret that should stop my heart from racing and that can make me take her off my lap but I didn’t find it. What I found instead was desire and that made me turned on even more. When I was fixing her seat belt her smell turned me on and when I sensed her stare and turned and looked at her lips I was turned on more and more. God what am I thinking right now? “Sarah, what are we doing?” I asked my forehead is connected with hers. “I don’t know Jan” she said sighing. I then looked her in the eyes and said “I don’t want to stop” she smiled and then said “Me neither” and as she said that I crushed my lips to her wanting to taste her again. Her smooth lips are killing me that I even wanted more. We kept kissing and then I sensed Sarah trying to unbutton my shirt. I stopped her breaking the kiss and said “Sarah, we can’t do this. We shouldn’t do this”
Sarah’s POV “Why did you leave 3 years ago?” he asked. Oh my god!! I didn’t know that this day will come this soon or will come ever. I need to say something fast but I can’t tell him the truth. If I tell him the truth he will have hope that I don’t want him to have. ‘What will happen after this?’ his question echoed in my head. What was I thinking then? “I think you know the answer to that question pretty well Jan” I said coldly. “I left because I wanted to study in America simple” I continued. “Was that a strong reason to break up with? I told you that you can go and we still could be together but you told me that you didn’t feel like studying there anymore? So why did you leave back then?” he bombarded me with questions. “I told you back then that I don’t love you anymore” I said nonchalantly. “And this is a lie!! I saw the lust and desire in your eyes today. I saw it clearly” he yelled. “First
Jan’s POVI waited for her to answer me. I really wanted this answer. “I don’t know Jan. It’s complicated” she said looking down. “What do you mean it’s complicated?” I asked. I was getting really mad. I didn’t know that she could lie all those lies. I felt that something was weird about her deciding to leave me in the first place but I didn’t know that she decided to give up her dream just for me. I feel awful about it. “I mean Jan that I’m leaving after 2 months and I don’t want to get your hopes up” she made sense. What will happen after 2 months? I don’t know. “Then don’t. I demanded answers and you gave me them. I think I’m done here. I will see you tomorrow at the party” I said walking out of her room. Yes, I demanded answers but I didn’t know that these answers will hurt me even more. I don’t know what shall I do now. I love her
Sarah’s POVI woke up to my alarm today. It’s going to be a very long and hectic day as it’s the party day. I have to pretend that me and Jan are a couple. Jan. I don’t know how yesterday night went and how has the night turned like this; from kissing and almost having sex to fighting and shouting to each other. I’m not very proud of my decisions but at that time it seemed like my only solution back then. However, when he asked my if I loved him or not I couldn’t say yes, I couldn’t do the same thing again because if I said yes I can’t leave after that. I don’t want to be back here after I graduate. Somehow, grandpa was right about forcing me about going there and that was the only reason that made me forgive him a little bit. So, I can’t give Jan hope. I can’t tell him that I still love him but whatsoever I am leaving after 2 months and never coming back except for holidays. I can’t be that selfish but he doesn’t seem to acknowledge that. I know he still loves me as much as I love hi
Sarah’s POV I showed Noah his room and we went and sat on the couch beside the bed when he said “So Jan huh, he seemed like a very nice guy” I looked at him and both of us started laughing “Yeah, very nice. He was looking at you like he wanted to kill you Noah” I said. “You haven’t told him about our friendship I see” he said while standing up to unpack. “Actually, I told him that you are my friend, but I think he doesn’t seem to understand that a man and a woman can be only friends” I stood up to help him. “Look Sarah, I know you won’t like what I am going to say but you have to hear me out” here it goes “From the look in his eyes downstairs I can tell he still loves you and I think you have to hold on to that” I opened my mouth to protest but then Noah said “I know what you’re going to say Sarah that you don’t want to stay here and all that but why not try a long distance. It could work” “I don’t know Noah but the reason that my grandpa forced me in the first place to go to Americ
Jan’s POV I sat in my car waiting for her to get ready and as I was waiting the image of them hugging can’t be erased from my mind. Questions are popping inside my head and I’m afraid of their answers. If they didn’t notice I was there would they have kissed? Or are they just friends like she was admitting? But friends don’t get intimate like that they don’t hug like that. We were once friends and we didn’t hug like that. As I was lost in my thought I heard the car door open and then close. I looked at the passenger seat and saw her fastening her seat belt. I started the car and all of those questions are and scenarios are messing up with my head. I know I told her that I don’t want her explanation but I know that if I didn’t hear them I might explode so I pulled the breaks in the empty streets causing the car to stop suddenly “Oh my god Jan, are you fu****g crazy?? You could have killed us!!” she shouted. I looked at her and then uttered a single word “explain” she looked at me in su
Sarah’s POV Well, the day in the office has ended quickly. There were a few things to look on today but other than that there wasn’t much as everyone went home early to get ready for the party. After I have collected my things I was heading out in order to go home and get ready when I heard Jan say “Wait for 5 minutes and I will drive you home” I know we agreed to be friends but deep down I know that he will try to be more than that and I can’t give him hope. My life isn’t here and doing long distance isn’t an option. “No. It’s okay. I can go in a taxi” I said. “No, I insist just wait for me for 5 minutes” he said smiling. I sat down on my desk waiting for him when we heard a knock on the door. “Come in” Jan said. The door opened and Fred entered the room with his bright smile on his face. “Oh. Hey Sarah. Good to see you” he said cheerfully. “Hey Fred. Good to see you too” I replied with the same cheerfulness. “Hey man. Ready for tonight?” Fred asked looking to Jan. Did Fred know abou
Jan’s POV After driving Sarah to the mansion I returned home to get ready. When I was about to finish, I heard my phone ring. The second I saw who the caller was I didn’t know whether to smile or to cry. I picked the phone and said “Hi, mom” “Honey, the most amazing, gorgeous and genius son in the world. How are you dear?” she asked. I think I know why my mom is calling me it’s either to tell me that she found a new girl for me to see as she wanted me to get married as soon as possible or she has found out about Sarah and the party or both. My mom isn’t very fond of Sarah since we were dating in the past. She used to say that she was the precious gem of the Yorukan family and that she was a spoiled kid which makes her act like a brat just like all of the rich families daughters. Maybe her opinion is partially true that Sarah is the precious gem of the Yorukan family and she was indeed spoiled but she wasn’t a brat and she definitely wasn’t like the rest of the daughters. On the contra