Second Chances

…Jenna POV…

In front of me, I have Tyler fast asleep. We have been waiting for seven hours now; this last hour will be absolute tormented torture for us. Our faith and our love have been tested today, and it is not yet near close to being over.

Who is more scared at this very moment is left to be seen. But apart from the fear of the unknown, not knowing what to say next, I know that there is only one thing in life that I care about the most.

And that is Tyler.

So I gently take his hand into mine and whisper to him,

"You are the only precious thing in my life.”

I hold his hand close to my heart, then I continue to speak in a hushed voice to him, “There's no moment that I don't think about you. I've always wished to experience that kind of love shown in movies, not knowing I was a step closer to experiencing it. It's so great to finally have someone as beautiful as you are to enjoy life with. You're my push, my strength, my best friend, and my fighter. 

You've seen me at my worst and terrific moments and watched me cry on the countless occasion, but in all, you never judged me for being weak. Instead, you acknowledged the fact that I am only human created to feel emotions. What else is there to look for when I've got everything in you? You made me the luckiest girl ever the day you asked me to be your girl,

I smile whenever you breeze into my mind. You're a jewel that stands out from the rest, shining and pleasing to the world at large. You are a spectacular being whose way of life is worth emulating. You met me with scars and praised me for my brevity and uniqueness, staying nonetheless when others fled at the sight of them.

Saying I Iove you isn't sufficient enough because my feelings have attained another height such that profound dictionaries lack words to describe how I sincerely feel towards you. I don't love life as much as I Iove you. You're my better half. If you walk away, I could die. Nothing seems delightful and beautiful without you in it. It does feel great to share my life with you. Although the future looks far away, it's worth waiting for. And I promise to keep on waiting till the day I wouldn't have to wait anymore. You're all mine, and I am all yours. This is just the start of our fairy tale. 

They say happiness begins within you, but mine emanated from having you beside me. All my life, I've always looked forward to having someone who would love me even just a little, but you showed up and loved me far more than I can ever imagine. Such that, my feelings grew mightily. Though I've loved it several times, what we have can't be classified in the same category as love because, truthfully, it's way beyond love. My thoughts, my mind, and my heart are all occupied by you alone. I know you love me, but I love you more than anything pleasurable and desirable in the world. I honestly can't wait to grow old and to spend eternity with you. 

The fact that you're always going to love me makes me the happiest girl ever. Each time I stare into your tempting eyes, I want to get lost in them forever. When we're together, I get muted, for I can't figure out the ideal words to say because the whole world seems beautiful with your presence. I want to be with you, loving, caressing, and holding you down all day. You're my Prince Charming, my superman, and the sweetest candy I've ever tasted whose taste would linger in my mouth till eternity

Some persons come into your life for a short period, while others are destined to stay till the end. You're one of such persons. I'm not ever going to let you out of my life because you're a perfect representation of all the beautiful things in my life. You've always been the reason for my persistent smiles and happy moments in difficult times. I can't love you lesser than this. As long as you're willing to stand by me, my feelings will continue being doubled and tripled.

There are things money can buy. But there are some priceless things that money cannot afford. I've got much in my life. An invaluable man that creates a fire in my body. Something extraordinary that can't be felt by every soul. How lucky am I to experience such tremendous feelings. You've stolen my heart with your act of kindness, benevolence, and humor. All things make perfect sense with you by my side. 

Nothing beats the happiness I get within me each time I see you. It's a unique feeling I want to keep having every day of my life. You're my all in all. My best friend, my soulmate, and my partner in every meanest thing. What a blessing! I've been shown by life that good men are hard to come by, and when one sees a good man, he should be treasured like a diamond. That's what I am going to be doing, my love — hoarding you for as long as I live.

They said true love is everything. It's undoubtedly true because what I feel for you is astonishing. I can attest to that from the struggles and sacrifices we've made thus far. As the days wear off, my feelings keep growing. You're the only thing I live for. I don't ever want to be in the cozy arms of another except yours. Though we may find ourselves entangled with the difficulties of life, I want to let you know that nothing can ever break us. My feelings will stand the test of time.

For long, I've been trying to pen a beautiful love note about my feelings, but it has been futile. Only recently has it dawned on me that there's no perfect moment to express one's heartfelt feelings. It's better communicated just as it comes. Here, I am simply going to tell you that I love you, and I'll be lying if I don't tell you that I love you with every bit of my heart. You hold the light to my life, and if you ever decide to walk away, I would be quenched for eternity. My life is yours, and I'll spend every bit of it with you.

They say Love never fails, and ours have proven that countless times. I can't begin to imagine the different stages of transitional Love we've gone past. And all through those stages, my feelings never waxed cold. I could feel the bumbling feeling sending shivers down my spine. Now I know why it never worked with anyone else. Because they lacked the spark needed to light up my world. With you, life seems more beautiful, with us savoring and capturing the explicitness of life's journey. What loveliness!

This is far the happiest I've been since the day I breathe into existence. My feelings for you elude the four letters of love. I think it's high time they coined a new word for it because saying I Love you doesn't entirely depict the state of my heart. What I feel for you cannot be measured, nor is it quantifiable. It goes right into the afterworld. I'm all yours, Mr. Pierce, and I can't wait to behold your tantalizing touches and kisses that ignite a fire in me. I heart you.

Falling and growing in love with you was the best thing to have ever happened to me. The changes that have taken place within me leaves me speechless each time it crosses my mind. This whole time, I never knew what I needed was true love to bring healing and redemption to my life. I'm wowed by how much I've grown putting all my childishness in a zip lock bag and dumping it in the trash where it rightly belongs. Overwhelmed is an understatement to describe the tingling sensation I feel for you. I Love you deeply and wholeheartedly. You're my rising star giving a glow to a dark world. Believe me when I say the feelings I have for you are innumerable. 

All my life never has my soul felt peace just as it is now. Before this phase, the word peace sounded like one of the most archaic words I ever saw in the dictionary. Why? Because I've been tossed from different sides by the fierce waves of life with no one to pull me out. Hence, I never really knew what peace felt like. Surprisingly, I found you, and I felt enchanted by the aura of peace that you carry.

You calmed the waves, pulled me out of the water of tumult, and took away the fog from my eyes so that I could see the true pictorial depiction of a life with hope. You brought to my understanding the fact that we make our own rainbow no matter the challenges we've encountered. I couldn't help but fall sanely in love with you. My soul feels so at peace now with you around me. I've written this letter to profess my feelings for you and to tell you that I ain't ever going to walk away from this ecstasy even till the end of time."

As the very last words leave my lips, I can see a small tear sparkle in the corner of his eye, then he slowly flutters them open and pierces his eyes deep into my soul, “Jenna, I don’t think that I can do this anymore. I have lost hope; everything seems dire and bleak. My heart has died a slow death.”

I only but shake my head at him as the tears start to build in the deepest corners of my eyes, “Don’t say things like that. You need to believe and embrace the present with courage and hope.”

“No,” he turns his head away from me. “I have come to accept that I don’t know where I am going. But I know that as long as I spread my wings, the wind will carry me where I need to be.”

“You are not going anywhere.” The tears start to roll like a waterfall down my cheeks that are being drenched, “You need to believe in miracles.”

“Jenna, there is no such thing. We only get second chances, and I have already had mine the day I walked out of that barn.”