Chapter Twenty-one

Avyanna Elyse

"Na'ko, Avy malapit ka nang manganak pero di parin alam ni Rigel, ampoca eto nalang, ha-hanapin ko ulit yon  at sasabihin na buntis ka't malapit kanang manganak, ano? Kasi kung papayag ka ha-hanapan muna kita ng bantay sayo habang wala ako, tanginang pakasal pakasal yan, lintek nalang ang walang ganti," na pra-praning na wika nito habang tumitingin sakin.

Ika-kasal nako sa taong totoong mahal ko.

Agad bumalik ang mga salitang simple ngunit masakit sinabi ni Rigel sa'kin, I just smiled on Kit and sighed.

"Wag na, madaya na'ko nito Kit, and'yan ka naman parati, may maging anak na rin ako, ano pa kulang don?" wika ko habang nag pe-pekeng tawa.

"Saya mo nuh? Ampoca Avy, 7 months na 'yang anak mo, ayoko namang makita unang inaanak kong walang ama oy! Kung iisipin mas ma-mahalin ko yan kesa sayo, de joke pero oo nga, ganun nga ba talaga mga buntis? Tawa sa mga bagay na dapat iiyakan? Ewan ko sayo! Tsche! Maka bili na nga ng pagkain mo," wika nito sabay pag flip ng hair nito, as if he has a long hair.

**

"Oy madafacking! Oy! Oy! Hawakan niyo ng mabitin yong buntis! Pag yan na ano I de-demanda ko kayo agad!" agad na nag tinginan ang lahat ng maids at guards ni Kit habang inaalayan akong nag lakad patungong car, kaya ko naman eh pero o.a lang nitong kaibigan ko.

"Gago mo Kit," I said while glaring at them, na awa kasi ako sa mga maids at guards, akala nila too yong sinasabi ni Kit.

"De joke lang naman po, oh sige tara buntis let's go shopping!" he shoutey like a gay.

**

While walking around the mall halos lahat ng tao ay nakatingin sa'kin marahil halos isang batalyon ang naka paligid sa'kin, eto namang si Kit feel na feel lumakas habang tinignan nila.

"Oy! Gusto ko Red yong parating isu-suot mo kay Amber ah!" wika nito sabay turo sa'kin I just shrugged, ang dami nang gamit para sa baby pero halos are araw si Kit bumibili ng gamit.

**

"Oy! Dapat pag nanganak kana ako mag ba-bantay kay Amber ah! Wag kang madamot, pangit yong maramot," he said while pouting.

"Kung ikaw nalang kaya siguro ina ng anak ko? Daig mo pa nanay, you're so noisy tas, ambaho mo pa, before ka kaya pumunta sa'kin from work mind to take a shower muna?" I said and glared at him.

"Ay, umay sorry ho, I'm going to take shower na ho ah para maka pang bwesit na sayo! Bye dragona, sana di mamana yang kamalditahan mo sa inaanak ko,"

**

While walking around the mall, which is my daily routine agad akong napatingin sa isang pamilyang nag tatawanan sa labas ng mall, umuupo sa isang carton, while sharing a piece of donut, the next thing I knew I cried.

"Avy, anong nangyari sayo? Masakit ba? May masakit ba sayo? Oy? Gago wag ka pa ano dyan kinahabahan ako sayo, bakit yan? Hoy?" agad na atat ni Kit nang makitang umiiyak ako.

"Let's buy donuts," I said, while continues to cry.

"Ampoca, sabi na nga gutom lang prankerist ka? Oh sige bibili ako, yong buong companya ba or donut lang?" he said while pointing at a donut store.

"Stupid, a donut," I said and walked inside the store, mas inunahan ko pa si Kit.

**

"Oh, sige kain na," wika nito sabay subo sa'kin ng isang donut.

"I don't  want to eat," I said and glared at him.

"Hoy, jusko marimar, nag pabili ka ng donut tapos di mo kakainin?" he said and was about to cry.

"No, not me, give it to them," I said and pointing the poor family while enjoying a single donut.

I just saw kit smiled at me and bought more of the donuts, even bought canned goods and stuff.

**

While looking Kit giving them the items he bought, I smiled seeing the father cried in joy.

After ni Kit ibigay yon ay agad itong pumasok, I smiled at him.

"I wish I was also poor," I said, while looking at the window, while the car is running.

"Bakit naman Avy?" Kit suddenly asked.

"Because, kahit mahirap sila from the looks of them they don't seem to be sad, mahirap nga sila pero mayaman naman sa pagmamahal ng pamilya, at kompleto sila, if only mom will be still here, everything would be perfect, and so as Amber, I know she'll be looking for her dad soon," I said, sighing.

I looked at Kit's hand now holding mine, then he smiled.

"Then I'll be her father," he said and smiled again.

**

As tears into my eyes fall, the mist of the winds kisses my skin, trying to make me feel at ease.

Gabi gabi nalang ako ganto nakakapagod na.

As I watch the video prenup of Rigel and Samantha my tears couldn't stop but falling.

"Ang daya, you promised me that you'll marry me with our own money and be blessed by everyone we love,oo magawa mo pangako mo pero sa ibang tao Rigel, madaya ka, ako yong pina-ngakoan mo pero sa iba mo ginawa," I whispered, while my body shakes.

"Madaya," I said whipping my tears, slowly getting up without my big 8th month womb being hit by something.

While I look into the dark sky, I sighed, I just want to see the stars, because I missed it, but instead the moon showed up,  lighting the dark skies, letting me see the  beautiful sky.

Why does the moon always shows up everytime the sky is dark?

Minutes later I thought of something.

I immediately took my phone and didn't hesitate to call Rigel.

"Hello?" I heard Rigel's voice, his cold voice, then I smiled.

"Hello Rigel?" I breathe deeply before saying anything about my pregnancy.

"What do you need?" he said, from his voice I think he's irritated.

"Uhmm, can we speak for a couple of minutes?" I said, trying my voice to be cheerful.

"We are talking, speak," he replied.

"C-could y-you tell me why we ended like t-this R-rigel?" I asked trying not to cry.

"What do you mean?" he said.

"Could you tell me, what happened? Why we ended like this? Think of the times we spent together, the struggles we fought together, what happened to us? You said that you only love me not that bitch," I said, now I was defeated by my tears, now falling.

"Avyanna, don't say anything against Samantha, remember we only got married due the process between our parents, kumbaga sa papel lang tayo kasal noon, noon yon Avyanna,"He directly said, like he really means it.

"P-per—," I was about to say something pero pinutol yon ni Rigel.

"Tanggapin mo nalang na hindi kita mahal at hinding hindi kita minahal, kung ano man ang nakita mo sa'kin noon pag pa-panggap ko lang yon, dahil naaawa nako sayong gawin lahat ng bagay magustohan lang kita, tama na," he said because of that my heart broke, it was too hurtful for me, ang sakit.

"S-sige, n-nau-unawaan ko, n-nag panggap ka lang, sige maawa ka sa'kin, kahit mukha nakong desperadang babae sige, mag pa-pakatanga ako, basta mag patuloy ka paring mag panggap na mahal mo'ko, gusto kong bumalik ang dating tayo," I said now my voice cracked.

Kahit para sa anak mo nalang, Rigel.

"Enough of this bullshit Avyanna," he said, while my heart feels like it's been punched a thousand times that I couldn't breath.

"N-no, I know that there's something, I know you really love me and hiding something, you're doing that because you love me, alam ko, if you really meant that words you said earlier that you never love me, then I'll change, I'll change like the other girls, just so you could love me for real this time," I said, but the next thing I knew, I felt sleepy, and Rigel didn't answered what I heard and cut off the line.

**

My eyes slowly opened and saw everything white, I tried to breathe slowly getting myself up to consciousness, after that I slowly putted my hand on the bad, trying to get up, but the thing I noticed that my stomach isn't big anymore.

"Why's my stomach not big anymore?" I asked myself, touching it, slowly.

Maybe I already got birth to my baby.

"Avy," I quickly turned my head on the person who called me and saw Kit, from the looks of him he didn't get any good sleep, halos mag mukha na siyang panda sa mata niya.

I smiled at him.

"Where's baby Amber?" I asked smiling.

But he didn't answered.

"Oy, if you steal my baby  sue you," I said glaring at him.

"Sana ganon nalang, mas maganda pa," I heard him whispered.

"Anong maganda don? Tsk, give me my baby," I said, looking at him with the sharpest look.

But then I saw Kit suddenly cried.

"Potangina, kasalanan ko to eh,", he said, now knelling on the floor.

I just looked at him, naguguluhan na'ko.

"Sana di nalang kita iniwan, di sana yon mangyayari," he said again.

"Huh? Hey! Tristan! Give me Amber!" now I shouted.

But he cried more.

"You're baby, our Amber's gone," he said.

"Tangina, prank na naman yan, gago ng mga  prank n'yo na kakasakit sa dibdib," I said  laughing.

"No, she's dead, she died during the delivery, she's gone," he said still crying.

I immediately stood up and pulled all the things that were on me, and didn't noticed the sting when I did it.

But before that the doctors ran into me, holding me.

"Ma'am, you can't do that," the doctor said.

"Doc! The patient, she's bleeding!" the nurse shouted, but I didn't care I want my child!

"Give  me my Amber!" I shouted, now crying, I couldn't do it, they're too strong.

My eyes widened when someone injected me something, making me feel sleepy.