His kiss...

It was the following day already, two more days to our birthdays I thought as I sat at the kitchen table sipping on my cup of coffee.

Mom entered as per usual to start breakfast and was clearly surprised to see me sitting at the table with my feet up on the chair, my knees pulled close to my chest just staring at the vacantly empty table, the look of being there in body but not in mind was probably the best way to describe me at this moment.

But I guess what surprised mom more was that I was the first one in the kitchen this morning, I was never the first one up, not ever.

“Good morning sweetheart, you’re up early. You sleep alright?” She asked clearly concerned by my absent minded appearance.

I just nodded but didn’t meet her gaze, instead I kept my eyes fixed on my erratic thoughts dancing around the kitchen table like a demon possessed.

I was losing my mind slowly, because even after Kai and I had had that talk yesterday morning and he had assured me that I was his, even after I had convinced myself that it was nothing more than nerves.

The moment I walked into my bedroom and opened my cupboard door to pick out a sweater, Beau’s taunting black shirt smacked me right in the face with his scent. Too be honest, it nearly knocked me right on my ass actually.

It was official, I had to burn down my cupboard, every piece of my own clothing was now laced with his scent and I would never again be able to open the doors to the clothes I loved so much. My favorite rolling stones t-shirt was lost to me now, the only clothes I would be able to wear now would be the ones mum had washed and had not packed into that godforsaken cupboard.

“Hey kiddo,” Mum finally managed to snap me right out of my drowning thoughts as she touched my shoulder, “since when do you drink coffee?” I looked down at the cup that I was clutching on to in my hands, it was no secret that I detested the taste of coffee, I was a tea drinking girl, I had many different flavors of tea’s in the kitchen cupboard, it was a fetish I guess, but coffee had never been an aroma I could stomach.

Without answering her I went to take another sip of the putrid substance I had once hated so much only to really enjoy it’s taste more than I could even begin to explain right now, like it was my life line.

“I’d swear Beau’s starting to rub off on you,” She said with a curious grin on her face. And at that moment her words choked the air from my lungs as I instantly coughed and spluttered my sip of coffee all over a section of the table and most of myself, ‘ah shit,’ I thought as I realized I would have to go into the laundry to find clean clothes that wasn’t drenched in his scent.

My eyes widened in shock as I snapped my head up to meet her curious eyes,

“Why would you even say something like that?” I snapped as another choked cough escaped my lips. As she let out an unsure little laugh at my reaction, mum just merely cocked her head in surprise to my stunned expression,

“Well, because Beau’s the only one in our pack that drinks black coffee honey, it’s no big deal… Hey if you want to drink black coffee I promise no one’s going to judge you for it,” she answered in a now calm voice as she smiled softly, clearly trying to smooth over my obvious iritation.

My eyes slowly moved down to stare at the black liquid in my cup as my jaw dropped, how had I not thought about my actions this morning when I made myself a cup of black coffee, I hated coffee. Beau loves black coffee, Kai doesn’t even drink coffee or tea for that matter.

Swallowing hard I found my throat parched at this realization, and I was tempted to take another sip of the black-death I was now clutching onto in my hands. The aroma hit my nostrils as I breathed it in and it smelt like heaven, and in that moment I dropped the cup onto the kitchen table as it clanked before jumping up,

“Oh shit! Ah- sorry mom, I mean- I didn’t mean to spill it, ah- I mean, I’m sorry for cussing,” I felt my chest heaving as I grabbed a hand over the pulsing of my emotions. Was I about to have a panic attack, was this what a panic attack felt like, I thought as my eyes widened and I tried to steady myself by gripping the edge of the table for support.

At that moment my mom rushed over to me and grabbed hold of me by my shoulders,

“Honey, its fine, are you okay? Hey, look at me…” But I couldn’t look up at her. And at that very moment it was as if the devil himself was trying to push all my buttons all at once when I heard the front door open and that scent hit me, his scent… My head snapped up towards the entrance of the kitchen to find a very confused Beau standing there with his brows furrowed as he stared at me.

“Oh fuck no!” I breathed as I pushed past my mom and staggered towards the front door, making sure I completely avoided any part of my body from touching him, I even held my breath so I wouldn’t inhale his scent. I needed to get the hell out of here now!

“Rainn! Where are you going?” Mum called after me,

“I need air!” I cried out as I barreled for the woods. I needed to break free from whatever the hell was going on with me, I was losing it, my brain was completely scrambled as I felt myself shift into my wolf form. Kala thrashing about in my rib cage wanting to turn back and go back to the pack house but I pushed her forward as all I wanted to do was get as far away from there as possible right now.

Beau

I opened the front door to the pack house as I stepped inside, I was a bit early but luna Gabriella had asked me to come over and fetch Fala to show her around the forest she would be running through on Saturday, I hadn’t met her as yet and felt slightly nervous. I mean what if she turned out to be my mate or something, would I really be able to leave my pack to join hers?

My thoughts were abruptly pulled from its reverie when I heard a commotion coming from the kitchen, so as quick as my feet could carry me I made my way toward the entrance of the kitchen when I froze.

My jaw dropped as my brows furrowed at the sight before me, Rainn looked completely bewildered as she stood clutching her hand against her pounding chest, I could feel her frantic breaths like they were right inside my head. Her eyes widened even more when she looked up and her eyes locked on mine,

“Oh fuck no!” She breathed and her words were caught in my throat as she said them. Everything happened so quickly from that moment as I watched her push our luna away and scrambled towards me, for a moment I thought she was coming straight at me and my heart did a double beat, but she wasn’t.

She pulled her hands up to the sides of her face as she whizzed past me scrunching her face like she was in excruciating pain.

I turned as I watched her bolt out the front door shouting “I need air!” just before she disappeared into the woods.

I slowly turned back and stared into the eyes of a very stunned and confused luna,

“Um-” was the only word that came out my mouth. But she merely shook her head as she tried to gather herself,

“Beau, don’t worry about Fala. I’ll ask Kai to take her, please just go after Rainn. I don’t know what’s going on with her, she completely lost it after I made a reference about her drinking black coffee this morning,” She said clearly shaken by Rainn’s reaction.

Nodding I immediately turned on my heel and headed out the door bolting after her, the thought of her freaking out over a cup of black coffee was strange to me but then it hit me that Rainn didn't even like coffee. But still, why had that been a reason to freak out I thought to myself.

I didn’t need to search for her. Her scent alone was hitting me like a ton of bricks with its sweet smell of coconut and pineapples, kind of like a Pina colada would smell but way more intoxicating and mouthwatering.

Shaking the feeling that already made me hard for her right from my mind I started picking up the pace, damn she was bolting and had clearly shifted into her wolf form. My wolf River was pounding against my chest wanting to be set free, and I knew he would catch up to her a hell of a lot faster than I could. So without giving it a second thought, I found myself allowing River to take full control as I shifted mid jump.

From that moment on he was glued to her scent like being pulled by an invisible cord, it wasn’t long  before I spotted her, she was fast but I was faster.

Rainn

I could sense his presence, his scent as it engulfed me, ‘no, no, no!’ I screamed inside my own head. Why the hell was he coming after me, wasn’t it obvious that I needed space and to be left alone.

Why was he always there, causing my brain to explode with thoughts I didn’t want to think, causing my body to react in ways I didn’t want it to. Beau was the last person in the world I wanted coming after me right now, I was running away from my thoughts and my feelings, I was running away from him.

I felt him gain momentum as he got closer and closer to me, I could hear his heart beat pounding hard in his chest as his Wolf River panted vigorously in the chase.

He was going to collide with me, because that’s what Beau was best at, colliding into my life with his fucking forceful aura that didn’t know how to leave me alone.

I suddenly did a 180’ turn as I skidded to a holt, my teeth were baring at him as a growl escaped my chest.

‘Go away!’ I snapped as I mind linked him. He abruptly came to a stop as his wolf stared at me, River was the most beautiful wolf I had ever laid my eyes on, and he had the richest black fur with streaks of golden brown on the sides.

Shaking my head as thoughts of him were intruding my mind, I definitely didn't want to give him the satisfaction of linking my thoughts right now.

‘Rainn, what the hell is going on with you,’ He linked back,

‘Nothing, just leave me alone, okay,’ I barked before spinning around and bolting away from him further into the woods.

I needed to get away from him, I wasn’t able to think straight with him around and an unconscious realization to why that was, started creeping into the pit of my stomach.

Like a coward running away from its fears I found myself barreling away from him, and like the stubborn ass he was, Beau was right on my tail as he suddenly collided into me causing both our wolves to tumble over numerous times as we hit the ground with a hard impacted thud. Beau was on top of me, both our wolves a panting mess before both our forms began cracking and heaving into our human ones.

Beau

I had her pinned down, both of us now in our human forms as I kept my eyes focused on hers. We were both panting like crazy, our bodies covered in sweat and dirt from the tumble.

I felt her trying to thrash against me as she fought to get away but I held her wrists pinned down to the soft ground as my eyes pierced through hers,

“Stop it Rainn, what the hell is wrong with you,” I blurted out in a husky low tone.

“Get off of me, let me go Beau. Get away from me!” She all but wailed as she kept frantically trying to get away from me. I needed to do something to get her to snap out of it, she was thrashing about like a woman possessed and I didn’t know what else to do, so in a moment of pure insanity I crashed my lips to hers.

She tensed her body as she cried “no,” against my lips, her body still trying it’s best to fight against me, but I molded my lips to hers as I moved them, the taste of her was so sweet I could hardly breathe.

I felt as her body suddenly relaxed beneath me, her rigid movements calmed and then something happened that I hadn’t expected, she began kissing me back.

Her lips slowly parted allowing me more access as a groan escaped her and I could immediately sense her arousal, which suddenly made me loosen my grip around her wrists as I ran one hand through her hair and the other around her waist, pulling her into me as I devoured her mouth.

We were both completely naked, of course, we were, we had just shifted back into human form a few moments ago. But it didn’t feel strange to be this way with her, to have our exposed bodies pushed up against one another as I felt tingles zapping through me from our touches.

She ran her fingers through my black wet tasseled hair as she fisted her hands pulling my mouth even more into hers, I felt delirious with lust as my tongue glided effortlessly into her mouth dancing alongside hers in a choreography best described as the spiraling of angels.

Her fingers started trailing down my abs as she began clawing at the skin, burning her presence into me like a tattoo to my soul, which only made me want her even more as I groaned into her mouth.

I pulled my face away from hers slightly only to see the brown of her eyes exploding with sparks of gold, and before I knew it I was drowning in her sweet scent as it engulfed me completely.

Rainn

I thrashed against him as he had me pinned down, I needed to get away from him, my whole entire body and mind was about to explode into his intoxicating scent of wood and grass, my stomach was in knots as I did my best to get out from his grip shouting at him to let me go, when suddenly his lips came crashing down onto mine.

My whole body froze as I pushed against him, the word ‘no,’ escaping me in a meekly muffled tone as I tried not to give in to a sensation I had been trying to fight this whole time.

When suddenly my whole body relaxed beneath him as my lips parted, my walls once so strong came crashing down as his tongue found its way into my mouth and the zaps of the pull between us left my body absolutely aching for more wherever he touched.

I couldn’t think about right or wrong as my soul pulled at the core of my body, and Kala herself was diving head first into the driver’s seat of this sensation between us.

She wanted to claw her way deep into the movements of River and never let him go, and as he pulled away gently to look deep into my eyes it wasn’t confusion or regret that I saw there, but rather the green of his eyes had specks of yellow dancing about as his wolf had decided to claim what was his.

His tongue dove into my mouth as his lips crashed against my soul causing a shudder to occur so deep within me, a sensation I had never experienced before. I felt his rock hard strength pushing up against my entrance and it never occurred to me to mind, it felt natural to have him there, to allow myself to be with him, as if all this time I had been sucking on a straw for air to now finally and at long last be given the opportunity to fill my lungs to the brink.

I gasped it in as I gulped at the air, my body and soul had been deprived of it, not knowing of its presence up until now.

And then something strange happened, beyond the dazed moment of his touches and beyond my soul wanting to allow more of him into itself.

I felt the sensation as it extended itself inside my mouth, my canines had begun to protrude and I suppose that was the moment, the realization and shocking truth came crashing down as I came to understand that my wolf wanted to mark him, she wanted us to be together and that this most certainly meant what I had been trying to run away from these past few days.

Beau was my fated mate.

This realization came crashing down on me like a tidal wave as I pulled away to look at him, only to notice his canines were elongated as well.

It was as if my mind did a back summersault and finally snapped back into place, as I pushed Beau away hard, jumping back and landing myself sitting upright huddled against the bark of a large tree.

My eyes were wide as I pulled my knees up to my chest, the shock overcame me as I covered my mouth with my hands, reeling my wolf back in I felt the tears stinging the back of my eyes as the reality of the situation came thundering down on me, shaking I began to sob, I couldn’t control it. I was a horrible person I thought as more tears flowed from where the others had ended.

Kai was my person, my chosen mate, my best friend. And here I was completely exposed and giving in to something the moon had chosen for me, how could I do that to my best friend, how could I be so selfish and how could the moon goddess be such a bitch.

Beau was feeling my pain, I could see it in his eyes. Obviously he would, if he was my m…

I couldn’t even say it, the thought suddenly made me nauseous. And as he slowly tried to move toward me, to comfort my shivering form I’m sure, because that’s what mates did right, they comforted each other in times of pain.

I immediately found myself back peddling away from him as I held my hand up like a wall between us, my eyes were pleading as my breaths came out in short gasps.

“Don’t,” I whimpered, “please just stay away from me,” I begged, and I could see the pain flashing through his eyes. His need to hold me, River’s eyes were thrashing against his own. And I could feel his pain too, it was literally gutting me where I sat.

And in the next moment I just couldn’t take it anymore, the pain of my betrayal mixed with the ache I felt for Beau just caused everything to spiral out of control.

I found myself bolting away as I stumbled forward, I ran for the pack house as fast as I could, and this time Beau didn’t come after me.

He let me go and the further I got from him the more the loss of contact hurt, every ounce of me wanted to turn around and go back but the rational part that was thankfully still present within me couldn’t get over the fact that I had fucked up so badly right now.

What had I done, there was no way to undo what had just happened. Because Beau now knew it just as much as I did, we were fated mates. My best friend and boyfriend’s older brother was my fated mate.

Chosen by the moon goddess herself, a sick and sadistic sense of irony danced around my head as I thought about how fucked up this was. And I hated her right now, I hated the fact that she had done this to me, to Beau and above all else, especially to Kai.