Kisses

Misha

I've just had the most amazing kiss of my life. I want more…so much more. There's an energy between us that I've never felt before. It's thrilling, intoxicating, and extremely arousing.

I feel like l'm coming to life. “Kiss me.” His hands tunnel into my hair as his lips envelop mine. Our tongues caress each other as I taste him. He tastes smokey yet sweet, unlike anything I have ever tasted orcould imagine. It's like he was made for me.

He's so addicting. Boy, am I hooked! However, I still don't get why me or how any of this is possible. Yet the Devil himself sits at my table. Had I not seen magic with my own eyes, l'd definitely call him on it, but Damon made a fireball in his hand and I turned it blue, to ice.

Fuck, to ice! I jump away from Damon. “Don't come near me!”

He puts his hands up. “Misha, what's wrong?”

“Don't take another step because I'll hurt you.” I feel tears start to stream down my face. Memories of that night flood my mind.

“You can't hurt me,” he says.

“I can and will,” I say nervously as he keeps walking towards me. “Stay back!”

“I can't, Misha,” he replies.

“Don't!” I put my hands over my face, palms forward, trying to keep him back as he keeps approaching.

“I can't stay back and I won't. You won't hurt me either because you can't,” he says as he pulls me into his chest and wraps me in his arms. I just lose it and weep.

I pull myself away a bit to wipe my face with my hands. As I try to stop the stutters and weeping, I speak. “I killed them.”

Damon shakes his head no, “Misha, you didn't kill anyone.”

“Yes, I did.”

He strokes my hair and kisses my forehead. He's full of so much compassion and tenderness. “What you think isn't reality.” I look at him and glare into his eyes as rage and guilt start to overtake me. “Who do you think you killed?” he asks.

“My parents.” I have carried this burden for years. It was declared an accident, but I know I caused it somehow. Strange things happen when I get upset, but that night was different. I wasn't upset, but yet something happened. I killed them in that lake. I still don't know how I survived, because I wish that I hadn't. I have not thought about them recently but I did have nightmares. I saw death take them again and again while I was frozen but safe. I have let this guilt ruin every relationship that I have had. Ana was the only one to ever help try to lift some of the weight I carry because I survived and they didn't. I know that Damon will try to say that I didn't kill them, but after he learns the truth he won't see me as he does now. He will leave just like everyone else.