My cheeks heat and words left me as I fought to respond. Did I want this? Absolutely. He was barely touching me, and yet I felt a pull I had never experienced before to raise my chin just a fraction so I could taste his lips. My head was silent of all thoughts save one, how badly I wanted to feel his skin on mine.
My hand raised and pressed against his chest, slowly smoothing up and between his defined pecks. The heat from his body does nothing to calm my nerves and my heart pounds wildly.
I close my eyes as he lowers his head, and I feel the tip of nose caress my cheek and press against the side of my neck. A shiver travels up my spine and I ache to press myself tighter against him.
Before I know it, I’m already doing it. My mind completely consumed by this insanely sexy man in front of me. I wrap my arms around Adrian’s neck, rise on my toes, and try to taste those delicious lips.
Adrian lets out a low chuckle, his broad hand tipping up my chin.
“Take it easy.” He says, his voice a rough whisper. “What’s your name?”
Those piercing blue eyes lock on mine.
I could drown in those deep blue eyes. The heated promise in them makes me want to melt into his arms and let him do whatever he wants with me. Yet there’s a tenderness in them that makes me feel warm and protected. I don’t know Adrian, yet I know I’m safe here.
Blue eyes, safe. Julian.
Memories of Julian hit me like lightning—sudden, sharp, and sobering. My face is still burning, but now it’s with shame.
I pull away from Adrian’s embrace, hard, fighting the intense pull, that stupid sense of belonging.
“Mr. Whitmore… I’m sorry. There’s been a misunderstanding. I have to go.”
Adrian’s relaxed expression freezes over. That cold, detached look returns.
“A misunderstanding? I don’t think so. But I don’t force what isn’t wanted.” His voice turns low, almost dangerous. “Do what you have to do. Just don’t regret it later.”
I turn to leave the room, hoping he doesn’t notice that my cheeks are still flushed and I’m trying to keep my hands from trembling. My body wants to stay. To take Adrian up on his offer, relieve him of his towel, and let him have his way with me.
But my mind is on Julian and shame rears its ugly head at the thought that I almost betrayed him. I’m not a cheater and the idea of hurting him makes me sick.
By the time I get back to the party room, it’s clear I’ve been gone far too long. The guests have been indulging in too much wine, and Erica alone hasn’t been able to keep up. Another wave of guilt hits me like a truck. I shouldn’t have left her.
As I’m reaching for a tray to dive back in, a pair of keys come flying at me. I fumble to keep hold of them and look up to see Vanessa, flipping her long hair back and looking at me from down her nose. “You. Drive me home.”
My eyes sweep around her instinctively, but I don’t see that Julian doppelgänger anywhere. I relax a little. But Vanessa has definitely been drinking. I’m not dealing with this spoiled girl’s drama.
“I’m not a chauffeur.” I toss the keys back at her. Drunk or not, she catches them out of the air.
“Don’t you know who I am?” She scoffs at me. “Don’t you dare talk back to me. I knew it the moment I saw you. You’re just another worthless, lazy server. Just hear to collect the paycheck. No ambition.”
I don’t give her the satisfaction of a response, which just seemed to irritate her more.
“Lily!” My manager calls. I look over to see her beckoning me over, Vanessa smiling smugly as she saunters away. I walk over and she hands me a bucket and a brush. “One of the guests got sick all over the carpet under the head table. Go clean it up.”
I want to argue, but I know if I do, I’ll be considered difficult and won’t get scheduled for parties anymore. And I need the money.
I take the bucket with one hand, and holding my tray with the other, go to set it down on a stand when another drunk party guest runs into me. A piece of leftover cake goes flying off my tray, smearing chocolate down my white shirt. Great.
I sigh heavily and try to ignore that the man didn’t even apologize before going to the head table and locating the pile of vomit.
Getting to my hands and knees, I start to scrub at the carpet. I’m not far into my task when I hear Vanessa’s voice, turned sickly sweet, announce over the crowd, “Everyone, my fiancé is here!”
I can't help but think of that Julian look-alike earlier, and my eyes follow the crowd's gaze. My head snaps up so fast, my neck cracks.
No luck.
It is Julian. My Julian.
Standing next to the pretty birthday girl, his arm around her waist, is the familiar man I’ve been sharing my home with for months.
Vanessa is smiling brightly up at him and I feel my heart twist painfully in my chest.
He’s not just cheating. He has a fiancé.
My first instinct is to go over there and throw a bottle of wine at his head, but I’m the server. The sweating, hair falling out of its braid, chocolate cake smeared down her shirt server. If I go over there and confront him, he could just deny it. Then I’ll just look like a lunatic in front of all of these people.
“Star struck?” My manager asks with a grin. “They make a beautiful couple. You know who that is, right? The only son of that billionaire, Adrian Whitmore.”
Adrian Whitmore? The gorgeous man I almost kissed twenty minutes ago? The gorgeous man I turned down because I had a boyfriend, only to find out that said boyfriend, is cheating on me. This is the worst night of my life.
Tears sting my eyes, threatening to fall, but I force them back and clear my throat. “I thought I just heard that Julian’s last name is Huntington.”
My manager shakes her head. “Adrian’s late wife was from a noble family, so Julian goes by her maiden name.”
Nobility and the son of a billionaire, and yet, he had to take my tuition money to pay his bail, leaving me to work sixty hours a week, just to get by? So, not only is he cheating on me, but he’s also been lying to me about everything from day one.
Julian still hasn’t seen me, and I want to try one more time. Maybe I’ll get an explanation. So, I take out my phone and dial his number. I watch as Julian reaches into his pocket to take out his ringing phone and glance down at my name. Then my heart dies in my chest as he declines the call and it goes straight to voicemail.
“Who was that?” Vanessa asks, pouting her lips at his phone.
“Nobody.” Julian answers and Vanessa smiles back up at him.
No. I will not take this. Rage fuels me and I storm out of the room and back into the hotel. In that second, a wicked idea for payback flashes through my mind.
Time to prove I’m not just nobody.
That man looked done with me half an hour ago, but I’ve got nothing left to lose.
I don’t think about it, refusing to let my nerves make me change my mind as I knock on Adrian’s door.
It opens, revealing the beautiful man who doesn’t look surprised—just amused, like he saw this coming.
“Too bad. I don’t do second invitations.”
But I’m not taking no for an answer today.
I step closer, hook my finger in his collar. “Then I guess you’re making an exception for me.”
I stand on my toes and kiss him, right on those lips I’ve been staring at since earlier.
He tastes just as dangerous as he looks.
AdrianMy wolf bellows in rage as it breaks free. Every bit of energy unleashes and though I don’t make a sound, Vanessa trembles and falls backward. Lily clutches my arm, and I tighten my grip around her. Her fear just lets loose another wave of power and the wolf inside rattles the bars to be set free. I don’t want to hear Vanessa’s apologies. It wants to see her terror and humiliation after what she has done. The pain she feels from her fall from the horse isn’t nearly enough. I struggle against the wolf, doing my best to keep it caged as it screams what it thinks it knows. Mate. Lily could be my mate. It feels similar. Julian’s mother was so long ago, but this feeling is familiar. It’s a wave of relief and realization that comes with an instinctual knowing that’s hard to ignore. It’s not true. I tell the wolf as it rattles the bars. It’s not quite right. When I found my first mate, it was like an explosion that went off the moment I met her. This is quieter, more subtle, and
A few days go by, and Adrian doesn’t come back. I’m trying not to take it personally and blame myself for all but chasing the man out of his home, but it’s difficult not to. Grace’s schedule today includes horseback riding lessons. I love horses. I really do. It’s just that I love them from afar. Up close, they terrify me. I’m already nervous on the ride over, but I do my best to hide it. I’ve already been subjected to Thomas’ look of hopeless exasperation after he told me we would be going to the Whitmore Country Estate and I asked if we weren’t already in the country. Apparently not, because we drove for half an hour before the driver stopped the car and let us out at the stables of an estate that dwarfed the one, I was currently staying in. I greeted Grace’s riding instructor who informed me that she would be taking Grace on a ride through the fields today, so I was welcome to wander the grounds. With nothing left to do, I find a spot I hope is out of the way and settle on a
Time seems to stop and I even though I know I should remove myself from this situation. I can’t seem to move. Adrian’s hands don’t release their hold on me, and his intense eyes darken. Like he’s remembering what I remember. Feverish kisses in a hotel room only a few days ago. We didn’t have much by the way of clothes then either. My skin flushes and my heart pounds. I swear his grip tightens and my compulsion to run my hands over his body almost wins when I hear Grace’s voice call out “Hello, Julian!” Now I’m panicking for a whole new reason. I clamber off Adrian and look over the gate to the fence around the pool to see Julian greeting Grace in the middle of the lawn. He’s too far away and his focus is on Grace. Before he can see me, I duck down behind the gate. The fence only stands to my waist, so I’m undeniably crouching and there’s no denying the fact that I’m hiding. Adrian stands, glances at Julian, then back at me his brow furrowed in confusion. Then he seems to understa
I force air into my lungs. It does nothing to calm my nerves, but at least I’m breathing. “Coming!” I call to Adrian and turn my attention back to my phone. “It’s just my employer. I’m sure the kid I’m taking care of needs something. I have to go. I’ll call you later." I don’t wait for him to respond before hanging up the phone and launching for the door. Adrian stands on the other side, still in his slacks, his shirt sleeves rolled up to the elbow. He seems to take me in for a moment, and my cheeks flush a little as he surveys me. “Grace was hoping you would read her story before bed.” He finally says. I nod dumbly and just about step out of my room before he says, “Perhaps a robe is in order first.” I look down and only then do I realize that I’m standing there in a thin nightgown he can probably see through and that’s barely long enough to call itself a gown. With how much of myself is showing, there is little left to the imagination. “Oh, I’m so sorry.” I stutter and shut t
“What are you talking about?” Adrian asks. His voice is light, but his face looks far from happy to see me. “Sir!” Thomas comes rushing into the room as though sensing his boss’s displeasure. “Please, excuse Miss Lily, but we now know she is far from a suitable candidate for this position. I’m sure she is lovely with children, but she lacks the appropriate class and will only teach young Grace poor manners and unsophisticated habits.” “Tell me Thomas, do proper manners and sophistication require one to be snob as well, or is that just you? And stop talking about Grace like she’s not in the room.” I snap back. This job isn’t going to stick anyway. Not with what I just realized. I can’t live in the same house as Adrian. Not with everything that has happened. Thomas gapes at me like a fish, clearly struggling for words to communicate his indignation. “Lily, can I speak to you in the hall, please?” Adrian says. I know that tone. It’s the one people use to deliver bad news or have har
I check the address and then check it again. Sure enough, this is the house. Except to call it a house might be an insult. It’s more like a mansion. The sheer size of the building is only outdone by the sprawling lawns surrounding it. I walk up to the intercom at the gate and press the call button. “Yes.” Says the voice on the other side. “Hi, I’m Lily. I was just hired as the new nanny.” I explain and the door opens. I walk up to the main entrance where I’m greeted by a frowning little man in a smart gray suit. He looks down at me and surveys me from head to foot. He’s definitely not impressed with what he sees, because his eyes take on an indignant expression and his lip curls a bit. I look down at myself expecting to see a stain on my dress or something else to warrant that look. I see nothing. “Miss Lily, I am Thomas. The Whitmore family butler.” He reluctantly introduces himself and quickly turns, disappearing inside the house. Assuming I’m to follow him, I pick up my suitc