CHAPTER: 4

-3 years later-

Years had passed and since then my life became more peaceful, fulfilling and happier now that I've thrown away every single trash that has been bothering my life. I am finally graduating from college with a cum laude on my diploma! After all the hardships, tears, sleepless nights I am going to be free and taking a new step forward in my life.

Ilang years na rin ang nakalipas pero hindi pa rin maalis yung trauma na binigay ng ex ko na 'yon, ang daming lumalapit sa'kin and they looked all serious naman pero it's ashamed that I am not ready enough to commit. Lalo na at may trust issues na ako at mas lumalala ito.

I can't help it rin naman and I blame everything on him since hindi naman ako magkaka ganito if hindi niya ako niloko in the first place. Moving on, even though naman na sobrang unbothered ko na sakanya. Ked still hasn't given up begging for me to comeback. Kaso wala na eh, ayuko na rin talaga and when I said it's over, everything is over. I just hope he wasn't expecting in return and just move on with life.

Honestly nga that break up saved me from a lot of things and atleast ngayon hindi na ako magpapaka t*nga sa isang lalaki ever again. Simula nga rin na maging single ako ay nag labasan lahat ng mga secret admirers ko, they would constantly show up and sometimes message me randomly but I don't have time for men right now, I strive and grind for my future kasi I wanna make my parents proud of me and now, it's finally time to make them proud by going at the stage for the very last time and to honor them because of their hardwork for molding me as the woman I am today.

After ko mag-ayos ay pumunta na kami agad sa venue where the ceremony would be held and once we got there, we went at our proper seats and waited for it to begin. After claiming my award at the stage, me and my family went at a restaurant to celebrate there. Apat lang muna kami since si kuya ay hindi makakauwi ng bansa kasi busy siya sa work niya and naiintindihan ko naman.

"So anak, what is your next step after graduating?" My dad asked.

"Maybe work at your company first since I wanna help you with it for over a year before I became a flight attendant. It’s on my bucket list dad."

I wanna experience working at my dad's company since recently may kumakalat na issue na ang dami daw naming utang from different corporations which was something I didn't believe since my dad and I haven’t talked about it. My dad knew from the very first place na isa rin akong business student so for sure lalapit siya sa'kin when he needed the help but through the years, hindi naman nangyari 'yon. So what's the point of having debts right?

"That's good to know, that would be helpful for me anak." My dad answered.

"Are you sure na kaya mo sa company ni daddy mo anak? You know naman na bigatin ang trabaho doon and baka mamaya hindi mo kayanin." My mom was overthinking again.

Knowing my mom as an over-thinker with everything that I do made me worry that baka wala pa siyang tiwala sa'kin masyado to discover new things that I wanna try, maybe she was just worried na baka maistress lang ako but then, what's the fun in life if you can't be stress over something right?

"Kaya ko 'yon mommy, trust me."

I do believe in myself so much na halos lahat ay gusto ko kaya kong gawin and I wanted to show them how much capable I am to handle things on my own now, malaki na ako and I know what's right and wrong in my life so sana hindi na sila mag worry sa mga pag dadaanan ko pa sa buhay.

After din naming mag celebrate ay umuwi na rin kami since kailangan naming mag pahinga at mamaya ko na bubuksan yung gifts na binigay nila sa'kin. After changing myself into something comfortable and laying on my bed I just realized na there's a lot of big things now that I needed to achieve and I can't wait to finish those achivements and to line up everything.

After resting for a few weeks I started working at my dad's company as his personal assistant, inaral ko muna lahat bago pa man ako pumasok sa kumpanya na ito. I started working and focusing on every schedule, phonecalls, business trips that are needed to be scheduled and more things and I can say that I kinda like it.

I was busy writing something here at my office when sudenly I heard a knock from my door.

"Ma'am? Delivery po." Napakunot ako ng nuo.

Delivery? Kailan naman ako nag order ng something? Baka naman mamaya sinasabutahe lang ako tas pag bukas ko ng pinto ay sumalubong sa'kin ang isang malaking boquet ng sunflowers, sobrang confused ko right now at sino namang mag dadala sa'kin ng ganyan ka bonggang boquet.

"Delivery for Ms. Shanty, may note po sa loob ma'am at sabi ng nag papabigay ay basahin niyo nalang daw po." Inabot naman sa'kin agad yung boquet at umalis na yung lalaki.

I shut the door and immediately placed the boquet at my desk at hinanap ang note na sinasabi ng nag de-deliver.

"Congratulations with your achievements, I am so proud of you and may I fly with you soon."

-Sincerely the captain of the skies.

Hindi talaga siya nakikinig, ano bang gusto niyang mangyari? Maging kami ulit? Maging okay ang lahat between us? Nakakapagod na lagi nalang siyang nangungulit and he was so desperate to want me back that instant. 3 years na ang nakakalipas and he still continued to do it, actually nga I already forgave him for what he did but ayuko na eh. Everything between us for me has come to an end and that is the last words that was supposed to be written in our chapters but he still pursued to continue the story even though I already made up my mind by ending it.

Kung pwede lang na ikasal ako ngayon para maipakita ko sakanya na off limits na at hindi niya na pwedeng kulitin pa ang buhay ko.

Pero wag naman, I still wanna achieve something in life and I haven't reached my goal yet, hopefully sooner or later naman. One day, magigising nalang ako na anjaan na yung future husband ko sa harap ko because God knows how much I prayed for him to meet him one day and to create a beautiful family with him sooner or later. Yet before anything else, life must go on now and more. Ayuko na muna hanggat hindi 'yon yung lalaking hinihiling ko kay Lord.

I don't know kung ano pa ba yung silbe netong binili niya but I don't appreciate it, even though favorite and signature flower ko ang sunflower. Tinapon ko nalang din kasama yung note na binigay niya, it doesn't matter kung gaano ka effort, kung gaano siya katagal na nag hihintay para sa'kin pero I just wanted him to know that he's just wasting his time and effort for everything that he's been trying to since wala na eh.

Ayuko na siya isipin and moving on I started to focus on my job at para matapos na ang mga gawain ko.

"Ms, shanty? Pinapatawag daw po kayo sa office ng father mo and he said na urgent daw po."

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