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Chapter 21

Stella

They say, when one of your loved ones dies, it seems that you also died. I think that's true I can hardly understand myself, it's so dull. 

We are now at the cemetery. My friends, dad and mom's family dad are also here and some people who cares about this thing.  I can see in their faces the sadness of sudden loss of my mom. I can see the sympathy, the grief, but why do I seem to feel nothing at all? My heart seems to be exhausted, numb, nothing hurts more and my tears are already gone, and I can't even cry anymore.

How I wish I could still go back to the time when we're still complete. At some point of my life, I wish I didn't grow. 

Once in my life, I thought I should never grow. Because as I