MasukArianna
“Sit still, tesoro. You keep wrinkling the dress.”
I tried, really. But the satin stuck to my thighs, and my nerves made it impossible to stay still. I shifted again on the stool as my mother, Lucia, fussed with the bodice, muttering about my posture and how expensive the gown was.
My sister, Bianca, lounged on the couch nearby, already sipping something fizzy out of a crystal flute. Her hair was pinned perfectly, her lips a deep red. Married at eighteen, bitter at twenty-one, and already looking like she couldn't take one moment of it anymore.
“You’d think you were being crowned Queen of Italy, not just married off,” Bianca said dryly, crossing one leg over the other.
I rolled my eyes, but Lucia glared sharply. “Don’t ruin this for her.”
Bianca lifted her hands. “Fine. I’m silent. Just here for moral support.”
I smoothed the front of my dress. It was beautiful—off-white with a subtle shimmer, the kind of thing I’d dreamed of once, when I was young enough to believe in fairytales. It hugged my waist, dipped just enough at the neckline to feel daring. They’d done my makeup soft, romantic. My hair was pinned up, a few strands left loose around my face.
I looked... older.
Not like myself. But maybe that was the point.
“Just remember,” my mother said, securing the final clasp at the back, “you belong to him now. From tonight on, your life is with him.”
I didn’t answer. My eyes drifted to the mirror. He’d see me in this dress.
Enzo.
I tried not to smile, but my lips betrayed me. Everyone assumed I was some sheltered girl being tossed into the lion’s den, but they didn’t know the half of it.
I’d seen Enzo Romano. Not just glimpsed him at formal events or family meetings, but watched him, listened to the way people spoke his name. The Reaper. Antonio’s right hand. Deadly, respected, feared. And devastatingly handsome.
That part no one ever said aloud, but I’d noticed.
The broad shoulders. The sharp jaw. That calm, quiet way he carried himself, like he didn’t need to raise his voice to dominate a room. He was the kind of man women whispered about behind closed doors and never dared approach.
And now he was going to be my husband.
Would he like me? That was the question that kept echoing in my head. Would he even look at me, really look at me, or would I just be a transaction?
Lucia pulled my face back into focus with two fingers, pressing powder under my eyes.
“You must please him, Arianna. That’s your only job now. Make him happy and give him sons.”
Bianca groaned. “Don’t start with the sons already.”
Lucia ignored her. “A man like Enzo doesn’t want drama. You must be soft. Obedient. Presentable in public, generous in private. You understand?”
I nodded, but my thoughts were already wandering.
Obedient.
Sure.
I wasn’t naive. I might have played the part for years—quiet, delicate, the good daughter—but my mind had wandered places my mother would probably faint over. And when it came to Enzo… I’d imagined more than once what it would be like to kneel for him. Not in shame. Not in submission. But out of want.
I’d never even kissed a man. But that didn’t mean I hadn’t thought about it. Fantasized, late at night when everyone else was asleep. Not about candlelit romance and roses, but about strong masculine hands.
“Your wedding night might hurt,” Lucia added carefully, brushing a curl from my face. “It’s normal. But you endure it. It’s your duty.”
Bianca scoffed. “Duty,” she repeated bitterly. “Mine lasted six minutes and smelled like whiskey and cigars.”
Lucia shot her a look. “You’re not helping.”
“I am helping,” Bianca said. “I’m telling her the truth.”
I looked between them, my heart thudding too loud in my chest. “You’re all terrible at pep talks.”
Bianca smirked. “You want a pep talk? Fine. Here it is: even if he doesn’t love you—which, let’s be honest, he probably won’t—you can still enjoy the sex.”
“Bianca!” my mother snapped.
“I’m just saying,” she said, raising her glass. “Reaper or not, he’s hot. There are worse ways to lose your virginity.”
I blushed, but only slightly. Deep down, I knew Bianca was right, but I didn’t just want duty. I didn’t even want just good sex. I wanted Enzo to like me. I wanted Enzo to fall in love with me.
“I don’t care what anyone says,” Bianca continued. “He’s not like my husband. Enzo’s cold, yes, but he might not be heartless yet. You saw the way he looked at you when they called you in the room?”
I bit the inside of my cheek, trying not to smile. I had seen it. Just a flicker of something behind his eyes. A pause.
“He loved his first wife,” Bianca added.
Lucia huffed. “Men like that don’t love.”
“People said he went crazy when she died.”
“Of course he did,” my mother said flatly. “He had a reputation to protect. Someone kills your wife, you retaliate. You don’t go mad with grief. You go mad for revenge. You don't know what went on in their marriage.”
Silence settled over the room.
Then I sighed. “You two are terrible at cheering me up.”
Bianca laughed and leaned in, brushing a smudge from my cheek. “You’ll be fine. Just remember: if it hurts, close your eyes and pretend it’s not you, and that you’re not there. Works like a charm.”
Lucia clucked her tongue in disapproval, but didn’t correct her.
“Oh,” Bianca added with a wink, “and moan. Loudly. They like that.”
I burst out laughing despite myself, hiding my face in my hands.
A knock at the door interrupted us. A voice from the hallway: “It’s time.”
My breath caught.
Lucia straightened her shoulders. “You’re ready, tesoro.”
Bianca stood, smoothing her dress. “Come on, let’s get you married to the Devil.”
I rose slowly, my gown cascading like water down my legs. I turned toward the mirror. For a second, I didn’t recognize the girl staring back.
Was I ready?
No. But I was willing.
I took one last deep breath, fixed my veil, and whispered under my breath:
“It’s time to marry Enzo Romano.”
Edoardo has been traveling for three days—three days in which I have been able to sleep without his presence, although not in peace. I will never be able to be at peace as long as he knows that at any time he can get into bed and take me."As far as I've heard, yes."That answer ends up deflating me. Whenever he spends days away, he arrives like a caged beast straight to sodomize me. At least this time, he won't be able to do it because of my menstruation."I'm leaving now; Greta must be about to wake up." I roll my eyes as soon as she names her. "You should make peace. You are the same age; you could get along.""I haven't done anything to her, Domenica. She's the one who hates me, as if I had killed her mother to take her place. You well know that it's not like that; I hate being here.""Greta has a lot of problems, Bianca. She hasn't had it easy either.""I assure you that it's not as difficult as me having to put up with the pervert they have for a father," I hiss with disdain, an
BiancaI look at the blood stain on my underwear and sigh with relief."Thank you, God."One more month saved. The last six months have been torture, waiting every month for my menstruation to arrive, praying to God not to get pregnant by the disgusting pig I have as a husband. It is one thing to endure beatings and humiliations, but a child... with that, I could not cope.Ironically, since I got married, I love having my period—not only because it is a sign that I have been spared for one more month, but because it is five or, hopefully, six days in which Edoardo does not touch me. A day that he does not is glory for me. Fortunately, he turned out to be very scrupulous with that issue; he says it disgusts him, and while I'm menstruating, he leaves me alone.I put on a Tampax—another thing that he controls now. He doesn't want me to use sanitary napkins because he doesn't even want to see them; it really disgusts him. As he always asks me to wear thongs as underwear, I have to use Tam
I slowly shake my head because I hate doing this.“I don’t want to,” I sob quietly.He snaps the belt again. This time I scream in fright, covering my ears.“I don’t give a damn what you want!” he shouts. “I’m the one in charge here, you worthless whore. So open that mouth and suck. Don’t pretend to be a saint—we both know you’re an expert at this.”My body trembles with sobs, my throat tightening until oxygen barely reaches my lungs.I don’t want him to use me anymore.But he doesn’t care—he never has. He pulls himself out and presses it against my face, rubbing it there to humiliate me further. The nauseating smell makes bile rise in my throat.“Open your mouth!” he orders, pulling my hair so hard I feel like it might rip out.I have no choice. Through muffled sobs, I do what he demands. The taste is the most disgusting thing I have ever experienced, and death begins to feel like a reward. I’ve fought for years, but I don’t know how much longer I can endure.He grips my head and sta
The mysterious man does not appear again for the rest of the night, but I will always be grateful that he noticed me—my feelings, not my body—that he looked into my eyes and not at my breasts. Perhaps he will never know it, but with that gesture he healed something he had never broken and planted a spark of hope in the middle of so much darkness.The sound of glass shattering pulls me from my thoughts, and I turn to see Edoardo clumsily standing up, breaking a few glasses in the process. He is drunk, and that only means my night will be even worse than I expected.“Well, I think it’s time for my wife and me to leave and consummate our marriage,” he announces with a grin, and my skin crawls.I don’t want to. Damn it, of course I don’t want to go there, and my whole body stiffens knowing the moment is now inevitable.The other men cheer him on with a barrage of insults and filthy jokes typical of them. I try not to listen so I won’t feel even worse.I search for my cousin’s face—my only
A murmur rises at the entrance. A tall man I think I recognize walks in, and several men approach to greet him.“What’s Ferretti doing here alone?” my uncle asks.“Looks like Lucchese is snubbing us,” Edoardo replies disdainfully.The man approaches our table with firm, imposing steps, as if nothing around him matters. I don’t know why my heart begins to race.“Good evening,” he greets.His deep voice sinks into me, and a shiver runs down my spine, raising goosebumps on my skin. But it’s not the kind Edoardo gives me—of fear. This is… different.“Fabrizio Ferretti,” my uncle says, standing to shake his hand. “A pleasure to welcome you to my city. But where’s your boss?”“My boss?” he asks with a challenging smile—perfect teeth framed by a shadow of beard that makes my stomach flutter. “You mean our boss.”My uncle adjusts his collar, visibly uncomfortable.“Antonio is busy,” the blond man explains. “As you can imagine, it’s not easy taking the reins of the entire organization.”“Espec
The ceremony drifts through my mind like a storm cloud. I don’t pay attention to anything the priest says—I don’t care, not really. They’re all empty words, meant for couples in love, not for women condemned like me. He shouldn’t be speaking of love and commitment, but of death and disgrace.“Bianca Isabel Bernocchi D’Angelo, do you accept Edoardo Rinaldi Tortolani as your lawful husband?”The priest’s question hits me like a bucket of cold water, jolting me out of my stupor. I don’t even know when they asked him, but I assume they did—and of course he said yes. As for me, my voice won’t come.I look at the priest; his face is blurred. I don’t know if it’s the veil’s tulle or the tears filling my eyes. Edoardo squeezes my hand and throws me a threatening glance, but my lips remain sealed.“Bianca,” Edoardo whispers under his breath, and I can already feel the punishment that will come later.I’m disobeying him. I’m making a fool of him in front of his people, and this will cost me dea
AriannaI sob, curled into a ball on the bed, my gaze vacant and my hope fading. It seems as though God, fate, or whatever pulls the strings of our lives doesn't want me to be happy or to find peace. There is always something haunting me, a latent threat, and perhaps it’s time to accept that it wil
Arianna I run my hands over my head because it has started to ache."I’m very confused, Ilaria. I don’t even know what I want.""And that’s okay too. Give yourself time; you don’t have to make a decision right now.""Do you think he’ll be willing to wait? Enzo isn’t exactly an example of patience.
Arianna I hear their voices all around me, their mockery, their disgusting provocations, their laughter as they touch me. I hug myself, bringing my legs to my chest, hiding my face, turning into an insignificant little ball in the middle of them—in the middle of pitiless bastards. I ask my son's
EnzoAntonio reaches my side, stepping over the pile of fallen bodies, and anguish is reflected on his face when he notices the blood soaking my shirt."I have to get you out of here," he declares, alarmed."No, I'm going for her," I reply sharply, continuing toward the last door with him behind me







