ALEKSANDER
Some people start their mornings with coffee, or a motivational song to prep them for the tasks ahead. Not me, though, the universe has decided that I will start my morning with a nuisance that smiles. And oh, he goes by the name, Domenico. He's like a song I hate that’s stuck on repeat, loud and annoying and stuck in my fucking head. I’ve met assassins with less commitment than he has to being under my skin. He's been going at it for the past four days, and I'm this close, this close to saying fuck all and snapping his neck. For the plot. It's not anything obvious at first, not a single moment I can point to and say, That’s when I lost it. It's smaller things, stacked on top of the other until all I can see is crimson. It's how he talks too much, even in places where silence is supposed to be the rule. The way he watches me like he's making a mental note of every bone in my body, like he's undressing me. And he's not in any way subtle about it. There's no sense of self-preservation in him. The way he smiles when he should be afraid. I can’t wait for this to be over, so I can get back to my life. Boring, but peaceful. And that’s enough for me. Being rogue is probably the way of the Italians. He doesn’t belong here. He's a fucking wild card. You never know what to expect. And I hate it when I'm taken by surprise. I catch him in the hallway as I’m heading out. He's leaning against the wall, one foot braced and a coffee cup dangling from his fingers like he's got nowhere to be. Which he probably doesn't. I still don't see the reason why he's being kept alive, he's useless. He grins at me, and I have to close my eyes and count to five so I don't cut that smug look off his face. “Morning, sunshine,” he says, like we’re old friends. Like I didn’t almost put his head through a door two days ago. That does it for me. All my resolve goes flying out the window. I don't answer him as I step into his space. He doesn't flinch. Mistake number one. He clearly doesn't see how angry I am, or he probably does but doesn't give a fuck. My money's on the latter. The knife is already in my hand before I think about it. I press the cold edge to his throat, close enough that I see the pulse jump under the blade. One wrong move is all it would take, just one twitch and he's done. The asshole is clearly oblivious to that fact because he grins more sheepishly. His breath catches, but not in fear, that's when I see the flicker in his eyes, it's excitement. He's actually excited right now. “Didn't know you were into knife play” he murmurs. “Mmmm, kinky, you should’ve said” For a second, one dangerous stretched-thin second, I imagine leaning into it, watching the blood bead up and run. I imagine his blood on my knife, testing just how far he can take it. Instead, I drag the blade across, just enough to nick him. The blood Wells, but his grin never falters. I stare at it, the blood I mean, the sight of it makes me a little hazy, and my stomach does the same flip-flop thing it did back then. Heat courses through my body and settles between my legs. No. Did I just get a boxer from watching the trail of blood on his skin? That’s the moment I know he’s going to be a problem. I shove him back, hard enough that his shoulder hits the wall. “Get out of my way,” I growl. His hand shoots up, and he uses a finger to scoop some of his blood, bringing it to his mouth. He sucks on the finger, like he's tasting victory, and he lets the finger out with a low pop. I stand there rooted in place, because why in hell would that be the hottest thing I've seen in my life? “Anytime, Sasha,” he says, low and almost taunting. I turn away before I do something that’ll make me miss my meeting. My father doesn’t tolerate lateness, and I’m already pushing it. My boots hit the pavement outside, the knife still warm from his skin in my hand. I tell myself the tightness in my chest is irritation. Just irritation. But irritation doesn’t usually feel this close to hunger. —————— The Old Man’s office smells like money and blood. One masked by expensive cologne, the other soaked into the floorboards decades ago. Everything here is heavy. Heavy wood desk. Heavy leather chairs. Heavy curtains that shut the daylight out like it’s an intruder. It’s the kind of room designed to make you feel smaller than you are. And it works on some people. He sits behind the desk like it’s a throne, posture straight, eyes sharp. Custom suit and a smile thin enough to cut. Most people see charm when he smiles. I see the teeth. We’ve never liked each other much — two wolves circling the same kill, bound by blood instead of choice. He doesn’t have to say he’s disappointed in me. That’s been his baseline expression since I was old enough to throw a punch. And honestly, I couldn't care less. In a few years, everything here will be mine, he knows it. Maybe that’s why every conversation between us feels thick. He steeples his fingers, studying me like he’s checking for cracks. The Old Man doesn’t waste time with pleasantries. He just leans back in his chair, eyes flat as old ice, and says, “Keep Vescari's little stray in line.” By “stray,” he means Nico. By “keep in line,” he means break him in half if necessary. I nod once, because that’s what you do when you get orders. You don’t argue and you don't show your hand. “He’s disposable,” the Old Man adds, like it’s an afterthought. Like he’s talking about a paper cup, not a person. My body remains still and I don't show any reaction. Outside, I'm as still as a statue. Inside? I’m already picturing exactly how easy it would be to end Nico if I wanted to. One step, one breath, one twist. No more problems. The thing is… I don’t know if I want to. Later, I pass by the bathroom and hear the water running. Steam spills out from the gap in the door, the faint scent of soap mixes with something distinctly him. I should keep walking. But I don’t. Instead, I stop. Which is stupid because I don't have any business here. The frosted glass door doesn't show much. But I see him, Broad shoulders, lean waist, the arc of his spine. My brain notes every detail, storing it. For what exactly? I don't know. He tips his head back under the spray, throat exposed, lips parted. The movement is… careless. Vulnerable. It would be so easy to walk in and pin him to the tiles, let the water swallow his curses. My hand flexes at my side, and I imagine it, the way he’d tense, the way his eyes would flash between anger and something else. Probably excitement. And that’s the problem. I don’t know if I’d be holding him there to make him hurt… …or for some other reason. The water shifts as he reaches for something, and the shadow of his arm moves across the glass. My eyes follow it, of their own accord. I track every shift in his posture, every stretch of muscle, until my chest feels tight from the way I’m holding myself still. I’ve killed men with my bare hands. I’ve walked away without a mark on me or a second thought. But watching him, I feel something uncomfortably close to temptation. Not the kind I can act on. Not yet. The Old Man’s voice is still in my head. ‘He’s disposable’. Sure. But if anyone is going to break him… it’ll be me.ALEKSANDER All my life, I have thrived on control and self-discipline. Power is discipline. It is the knowledge that men twice your age would lower their heads because they know you have their future in the palm of your hand and can easily decide to crush them. I've built my life on that, self-control, I mean. I have never twitched, never lost it, never snapped. Until him.The fireball of a man who barged into my life and made it unbearable to think without envisioning him. I've never wanted to see my knife buried in someone's chest as much as I want it in him. But that's not the part that bothers me. It's the fact that I see him everywhere that really gets on my nerves. When I close my eyes, he's there. When I wake up he's there, and the worst part?, I've had more hard-ons than I can count within the past few weeks, and they're all because of him. Nico is a problem I never asked for but somehow have to deal with. Usually, I would have silenced him by now, got rid of him and mov
NICOI jolt awake, my heart pounding in my chest. Everywhere is fuzzy and I'm disoriented. It's the same nightmare, same eyes, same voice, same place and the same person. The same dream I've had a million times since I was fifteen. You'd think I would have gotten used to it by now, but I'm not. Every night, it's the same dream, each one worse than the last. But I'm not there, and I've moved on. Right?I lay there, staring at the ceiling, sweat sticking to my shirt. My brain replays the event like it’s currently happening. I squeeze my eyes shut to chase it all away, but that doesn't work. With a sigh, I get up and enter the bathroom.I splash cold water on my face; it works for now. I can't have these stupid nightmares hinder my purpose of being here. I head downstairs to get coffee. I would have gone for scotch; hell, I still might. At the bottom of the stairs, the sound of music from the gym greets me. Sasha. Of course. I wonder how long he's been awake. He's always in the gym
NICOThe water is hot enough to sting, just the way I like it. The steam curls around me and blurs the tiled room. My head tips back and the spray pounds against my neck and shoulders, grounding me. I contemplate closing my eyes and falling asleep right here in the shower because… why not?I've done it before, back then, when it got so bad. I actually slept under the shower that day, to see if it could wash away all my sins, but it didn't. I should be thinking about a dozen other things. My dwindling list of allies, how long I can push Sasha before he decides I’m not worth the oxygen I’m stealing or the main reason I was sent here. Instead, I'm thinking about that day, that place. Him. Then I feel it.The prickle at the back of my neck.You know the feeling when someone’s eyes are on you, heavy enough to press into your skin. Like a predator watching its prey, but the thing is, I’ve never been good at being prey.I turn my head just enough to see him.Sasha. Well, colour me surpri
ALEKSANDERSome people start their mornings with coffee, or a motivational song to prep them for the tasks ahead. Not me, though, the universe has decided that I will start my morning with a nuisance that smiles. And oh, he goes by the name, Domenico.He's like a song I hate that’s stuck on repeat, loud and annoying and stuck in my fucking head. I’ve met assassins with less commitment than he has to being under my skin. He's been going at it for the past four days, and I'm this close, this close to saying fuck all and snapping his neck. For the plot. It's not anything obvious at first, not a single moment I can point to and say, That’s when I lost it. It's smaller things, stacked on top of the other until all I can see is crimson. It's how he talks too much, even in places where silence is supposed to be the rule. The way he watches me like he's making a mental note of every bone in my body, like he's undressing me. And he's not in any way subtle about it. There's no sense of se
NICOCHAPTER 3: THE SASHA PROBLEMNICOThe first thing I notice when I wake up isn’t the sunlight or the birds or whatever poetic crap normal people notice.It’s my dick.And it’s very, very awake.I lie there for a minute, staring at the ceiling like maybe the ceiling will explain why I’m starting my day like this. It doesn't. Morning wood is supposed to be random biology, right? Well, mine’s got a name, an address, and an ego the size of RussiaSasha.Why the hell would it be him?I glare at my dick “Seriously, dude?”My subconscious has apparently decided to run an exclusive early morning Sasha programme. Broad shoulders, lean waist, arms that could snap me in half but probably wouldn’t because he enjoys dragging it out. I can practically feel the weight of him, the heat. And those hands…God, those hands. Big enough to palm my throat. Strong enough to hold me there. I squeeze my eyes shut, and yeah, that’s a bad idea, because now I’m picturing it.And now I’m doing something abo
NICOCHAPTER 2: BABYSITTER FROM HELLNICOThe worst part about riding in a car with Sasha is not the silence.It's the fact that he makes the silence feel like a knife, scraping my skin and baring my soul. The guy is not even moving. And I already feel uncomfortable in my own skin. I close the video on my phone. Half because I’m bored and half because I’ve been waiting for him to crack and the subtle tightening of his jaw tells me he’s getting close.“That was… disturbing,” he mutters, eyes on the road.I smirk. “What? A little vintage leather and chains offend your delicate sensibilities?”He doesn’t bite, not exactly—just lets his gaze flick to mine in the rearview for a fraction of a second. Enough to make my pulse quicken and my grin widen. The man could gut me with a glance… or do something considerably more enjoyable. And I don't know why that excites me more than it terrifies me. “Try something less… grotesque next time,” he says, voice as flat as a blade.“So you do look for