"Pulling a new friend into your life is a form of balance. It's a ripple in the system that is so beautiful a new spirit, new energy. Both are souls combined. When two people complement each other, it is a valuable commodity to the flow of the world. A chain of events that bring happiness to more than just.... new friends. By Sara Sisson." As I read these words aloud all I can think of is Cronus.
We have grown quite close over the past few days. I tend to be shy and cautious when I meet new people but with Cronus, I feel different. Different in a good way. I feel like I can be myself with him and that no matter what I do or say he wouldn't hold it against me. While Deimos brings out the strength in me, Cronus brings out the child in me. The pup who is always curious and the pup who just wants a shoulder to lean on.
Cronus chuckles behind me while Deimos looks at me fondly. Fondly? What? "Looks like our Luna is enjoying this trip," Cronus says with a chuckle. As the three walks forward leaving me behind to take my time and enjoy, something grabs my attention. It is a simple necklace with a baby pink stone. I don't know what it is but I like it. I don't notice that I am staring at it for a long time until the seller calls out to me, she is quite an old female. "Do you want it?" She asks me. "Yes, but I don't know why I feel scared to buy it. I feel I am not yet ready to own it yet" I whisper to her. The necklace seems to call out to me. But before she could reply to me Cronus calls and I leave leaving that necklace one final longing look. Perhaps another time.
Today's world is different, when we hurt each other instead of talking it out and healing ourselves we completely ignore the other for nothing else but just to gain their attention. Just for them to look at you, hoping that at night they would lay awake on their beds, thoughts of you consuming them, that at least somehow you could be with them, even though it's just in their thoughts. This is the relationship Deimos and I possess right now. I haven't seen nor spoken to Deimos since our last argument. My body and mind tired, my hope fragile and my soul tearing. If he speaks or does anything hurtful I will definitely break. And even thinking about it makes me gag. I fought through everything for nothing. What I thought would be my strength turned out to be my biggest weakness and downfall. To what I thought would be my prize for my rein turned out to be my hindrance.
I feel the heat of Deimos's gaze upon me yet I make no move to look at him. I don't want to give him that satisfaction. As time passes by Cronus tries his hardest to help me learn and though I am quite a fast learner I cannot seem to get a hang of it until Cronus smiles with a huff walking up behind me. Holding the arrow in front of me pressing his front to my back he whispers into my ears. "Okay, now I want you to calm your breathing and focus the pupil of your eye on the circle, don't think don't focus on anything else than that circle. Think that the circle is running from you and you want it so bad but you need to catch it. When the feeling of desperation overcomes you, shoot." Cronus tries to make it easier for me. Closing my eyes taking a deep breath in I picture Deimos in my
Change. Can people change in a small period of time? Can they suddenly turn from ice cold to a soothing warm? To slowly begin to grow your hope like a plant, nurturing and protecting it with care. That's what Deimos seems to be doing to me these days. Like something made him see or change his mind. His eyes follow me everywhere, hands keep reaching for a feel of my skin and nose sniffing for a whiff of my scent. He seems... feels different. Though being an Alpha needs him to be present always in everyday affairs he does his best to at least see me once a day. How can someone go from not wanting to be in my sight for a minute to always searching for me? To always aching to be by my side? However, I haven't been able to see him these days as he seems to be busy preparing for the shindig. I didn't understand the meaning behind it until I
Tiring isn't even the word to define it, it drains me of all my energy. While Cronus sits on the sofa outside the dressing room I contemplate whether to show him the gown I have on. It's quite a simple evening gown but with a slit crawling up my leg. Simple but elegant. As I open the curtains, giving Cronus the view of me. His eyes come up slowly from the book he was reading and widen to the sight of me, his hands gripping the book harder as they shake. While the other wolves look at us in awe Cronus walks towards me in slow steps walking around me in circles looking at every part. Stopping in front of me looking deep into my eyes, putting a strand of hair behind my ears. He tells me, "You look beautiful Luna." My eyes widen to his movement and the look he possesses in his eyes, I don't understand why he looks at me this way... a way
I keep watching him as he fixes his cuffs and brushes through his hair to fix strands that do not stay. I keep watching until his eyes fall on me. His eyes widen, and pupils turn to an instant black to the presence of his wolf. He, no... they like what they see. He makes no move towards me and I do the same. We just appreciate each other looking at the other slowly from top to bottom, thinking of the things we could do to each other. I keep standing there admiring until I catch the sound of his voice. "Come." He tells me. One word... one word is all it takes for me to go rushing down the stairs until our chests meet. We look at each other, pupils dilating biting lips and mouth salivating. I grow in need. I want his hands on my body, I want his lips on my neck, I want to touch him, I want to possess him. My wants are interrupted with D
Deimos's words to Cronus last night surprised me but they also hurt me. A mate would feel utmost happiness when she hears those words from her mate's lips and I should too as the Deimos who possesses walls around his heart claimed me as his to Cronus. But every time he nurtures my hope he crushes it and kills it and I was scared to feel happy. I didn't talk to him after the ball I ran to the comfort of my room before he could catch me before he could hold me in those arms that provide false warmth. I haven't seen him from daylight today, I don't want to see him. I don't want to hear his fake excuses that possess neither meaning nor truth to them. He chose her right in front of me, even when he could see the desperation brimming within my eyes. And so I wish to choose something or even someone else, I wish to stop fighting for him. I wish to fly to a place that holds peace anywhere but h
He retreats with a surprised look, as he swipes his thumb over his lips. I smile internally watching him bleed. It satisfies me. "Don't try to shut me up by kissing me, if you think I will fall for these antics trust me you are wrong. I am not like other females, I will not bow to you." I shout. The silence slowly kills my anger and gives birth to sadness that creeps up stabbing my heart, the sadness I was trying to ignore. "You could have stayed, enjoyed our moment we shared. Wait.. was it even a moment for you? Did... did you even feel anything? Do you ever feel anything when you are with me?" I shut my eyes tightly preparing for his knives that he would strike through my heart. "I told her to leave," Deimos says calmly releasing me of his tight hold. I look up at his eyes widenin