Drowning - Part I

I am drowning. It's not the type where your hands flail trying to grasp something while your lungs fill with water and your heart slowly loses its beats. It's the type where you are calm, peaceful and warm. Even though you are underwater you like it there despite the danger and you never wish to return to land. Deimos is the water. He has swallowed me completely head to toe and while I do not know what the future holds I wish to be surrounded by his warmth.

Each day holds a new memory for me to keep. He shows me what life is and I tell him what death is. Death is all I've known yet he pours light into my darkness saying life has meaning and there is a reason I was born. Though he is the first male I have showed my past to my heart often feels wary that he might end up judging me by my past. But he always shows me a part of me I never knew existed.