CHAPTER 7 : Consequences of my stupidity

Damien's POV

It was too hard for me to move past this new development.

A life without Arianna was totally useless. I shouldn't have listened to my mother while she was persuading me so much.

“My Lord, you haven't had anything good to eat or drink in days,” Victor interrupted my peace.

Victor was my beta, and he was loyal as well. He was in support of me rejecting Arianna.

“Why are you here? I asked you to leave me alone. I need some time alone!!” I yelled, my voice roaring and thundering with so much fury.

“I'm sorry,” he apologised, quickly heading out of my chamber immediately.

Just as he went through the exit, my mother quickly turned it to an entrance, walking in with a firm look on her face.

“What do you think you're doing?” She asked, glaring at the empty wine bottle in my hand and my sober face.

It was hard for me to get drunk, and no matter how hard I tried, I just ended up feeling fed up with the wine without getting drunk.

“What does it look like, huh? I'm drowning in the same misery you created for me,” I replied.

She lifted her hand immediately and threw a firm slap to my cheek without thinking twice about it.

“Do you realise that you're an Alpha? You deduct dignity, Damien,” she said firmly.

Placing my hand against my right cheek, I stared at her for a while and then burst into laughter.

“What's so funny?” Mum asked confusingly as she glared at me.

“An Alpha, right? Does that mean I have no right to live the life I choose to live?” I questioned her.

“You do. But you have to make decisions that won't put your people in danger. I can't believe we're still talking about this,” she replied, shaking her head in disappointment.

“Of course, we should be talking about this. It's my happiness. You made me stand there and bluntly reject a mate that my heart still yearns for. Where's the dignity in that?” Tears slowly trailed down my eyes as my heart squeezed with so much pain.

“Man up, Damien. This isn't the man I raised you to be,” She kissed her teeth in disappointment as she stormed out from my chamber.

It was time for me to make my own decisions. I was done sitting back and watching her make decisions for me like I couldn't even speak for myself.

I grabbed my robe and quickly headed out to my stable as I pulled out my horse for a ride.

I was about to climb when Victor rushed in immediately.

“I'm coming along with you,” he said, pulling his horse along.

“That's not happening. You don't even know where I'm going,” I replied, attempting to dismiss him immediately.

“You can't stay away from her,” he said.

Taking one more look at him as I climbed my horse, I agreed and allowed him to come along with me.

Maybe he could help me beg her if the need arises. But I'm not casting all my hopes on him at the same time.

We both rode to Arianna's house, and surprisingly, we met her grandmother sitting right outside her house while enjoying the warm air outside.

I quickly alighted from my horse and slowly approached her, keeping a soft smile on my face.

“I can smell an Alpha when I meet one. What are you doing here?” Her senses revealed my identity immediately.

I swallowed hard, shocked by her awkwardly sharp senses.

“Arianna…I've come looking for her,” I revealed.

She cleared her throat, glaring straight at me with a firm look on her eyes.

“Maybe I was right about you after all. You are really a coward who hides behind the guise of an Alpha,” her subtle insult sank right into my ears.

“I've come to plead for her forgiveness. I was a fool to have rejected her in the first place,” I confessed.

She smiled softly, keeping her unwavering gaze fixed onto me.

“Arianna has gone to find a better path for herself.”

My eyebrows furrowed. “What do you mean gone?”

She pointed her hand towards the North. “A path that she must pass through alone.”

I quickly climbed my horse and raced it, heading towards the gates of the wall.

She must have tried to leave, but I'm not sure she has gone through that gate.

My heart raced heavily with every mile I covered, racing with every progress I made.

I shouldn't have let her go in the first place.

It was hard for me to live without her. This realization is heartbreaking, and my heart has never felt peace since she left.

Maybe I can still make things right between us. Maybe I can still make amendments for my foolishness.

Several thoughts came flooding through my mind, clouding my thoughts with so much doubt.

Eventually, we were lucky enough to get to the gate in time.

“Greetungs, My Lord!” They echoed, bowing their heads slightly.

“Dod you see any lady walk through this gate?: I asked desperately.

“We saw two. The women were so tired, and they looked like they had a long journey ahead,” one of the guards replied.

“Why didn't you make an attempt to stop her?” I scratched my head vigorously, trying so hard to keep my cool and bearings.

“But you never gave us such an order, My Lord,” they replied.

They're right anyway. Damn it!!

I paced from one corner to the order, pondering on my next course of action.

Suddenly, a sharp thought struck me.

“Come on. Let's go after her. I'm sure she wouldn't have gone too far,” I urged, climbing my horse without hesitation.

“Come one, Damien. Let's just go back to the castle. You need to accept reality and move on,” Victor replied.

“But I can still get to her,” I said.

“I know. But we have to go back. This isn't worth it,” he replied.

I was torn between returning back to the castle or chasing after someone I claim to desperately love.