LOGIN~Ava~
I spent the entire weekend avoiding Jax like he had the plague and a hard-on with my name on it. Didn’t work. Every time I walked into a room he was already there, shirtless, smirking, pretending to stretch so his abs did that stupid thing. I hated him. I hated my vagina more.
By Monday I was ready to set the house on fire just to get some peace.
Riley texted me at lunch:
emergency. I'm at the cafeteria. bring ice cream and a baseball bat.
I showed up with a pint of cookie dough and zero chill.
She was sitting at our usual table in the corner, hood up, sunglasses on indoors like a celebrity hiding a hangover. The second she saw me she yanked the sunglasses off and I almost dropped the ice cream.
Her left eye was fifty shades of purple.
“What the actual fuck, Riley?”
“Harper,” she spat, like the name tasted bad. “We got into it Friday. She found some old texts from Scarlett, lost her mind, threw a bottle. I ducked. Wall didn’t.”
I sat down hard. “You okay?”
“Been better.” She snatched the spoon out of my hand and attacked the ice cream like it owed her money. “Also I’m moving into your mansion tonight. Dorm’s too small for my emotional damage.”
I opened my mouth to say hell no because Jax…. but she kept talking over me.
“Don’t even try. Your mom already said yes when I called crying yesterday. Richard told me to pick any guest room. I picked the one right next to yours. You’re welcome.”
Great. Just what I needed. My best friend sleeping ten feet from the stepbrother who jerked off to my government name.
This was fine. Everything was fine.
That night Riley showed up with two duffel bags, a black eye, and a grin that said trouble.
Mom hugged her like she was a rescue puppy. Richard carried her bags like a gentleman. Jax came down the stairs shirtless …of course…and stopped dead when he saw Riley.
Riley stopped dead too.
For three full seconds they just stared at each other like they’d been hit by the same truck.
Then Riley smiled, slow and sharp, and said, “Well hello, tall-dark-and-brooding. You must be the stepbrother Ava won’t shut up about.”
Jax’s eyes flicked to me, then back to her. “And you are?”
“Riley. Ava’s person. Also temporarily homeless. Be nice to me or I’ll cut you in your sleep.”
Mom laughed like that was adorable. Richard coughed into his fist. I wanted to die.
Jax recovered first, smirked, and leaned against the stair rail. “I like her,” he told me, not looking away from Riley. “She’s fun.”
Riley’s grin got wider. “Oh I’m a fucking riot. Wait till you see me drunk.”
I grabbed her arm. “Okay, tour’s over, let’s go upstairs before you adopt any more family members.”
I dragged her up the stairs. Jax watched us the whole way, eyes on Riley’s ass in those ripped jeans. I swear I saw her put extra swing in it just to piss me off.
The second my bedroom door shut Riley spun around, dropped her bags, and whisper-screamed, “Are you fucking kidding me? That’s your stepbrother? He looks like a walking felony.”
“Shut up.”
“I’m serious. I need to climb him like a tree. You think he’s single?”
“Riley!”
“What? You’re not using him. Someone should.”
I threw a pillow at her head. She caught it, flopped on my bed, and sighed dramatically.
“Relax. I’m kidding. Mostly. He’s got that whole tortured-soul thing going on. Bet he moans during sex urghhhh.”
I made a strangled noise. “Can we not?”
She rolled onto her stomach, chin in her hands, batting her eyelashes. “Why? You jealous? Because last I checked you were busy getting railed by Professor Married-with-the-jawline.”
I face-planted into my pillow and screamed.
She poked my side. “Come on. Details. Is the stepbrother packing or is it false advertising?”
I lifted my head just enough to glare. “I hate you.”
“You love me. Now spill.”
I groaned. “I walked in on him jerking off. Calling my name. Like full-on moaning it. Came buckets.”
Riley sat up so fast she almost fell off the bed. “Shut the front door.”
“Wish I could.”
“Details, woman!”
I told her everything (the cracked door, the wet sounds, the way he said my name like it hurt, the come on his chest, the eye contact, the almost-apology). By the time I finished Riley was fanning herself with both hands.
“Okay, new plan,” she said. “I’m definitely fucking him. Purely for science. You can watch if you want.”
I threw another pillow. This one hit her square in the face.
She laughed so hard she wheezed.
Later that night I was brushing my teeth when the bathroom door opened (because apparently privacy is a myth in this house) and Jax walked in wearing nothing but boxer briefs and a smirk.
I spat toothpaste like a startled cat.
“What the hell!”
“Relax, it’s my bathroom too.” He leaned against the counter, arms crossed, looking way too pleased with himself. “Heard your friend’s moving in.”
I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand. “Don’t even think about it.”
“Think about what?” All innocent. Like butter wouldn’t melt in his mouth. Or anywhere else.
“Riley. Keep your dick away from her.”
He raised an eyebrow. “Jealous, little sis?”
“Gross. And stop calling me that.”
He stepped closer. I stepped back and hit the wall. He caged me in with one arm, voice dropping low.
“You sure? Because you didn’t seem grossed out when you watched me cum saying your name.”
My face went nuclear. “I’m telling Riley you said that.”
“Go ahead. She’ll probably ask for a live demonstration.”
I shoved at his chest. He didn’t move. Just grinned down at me like he knew exactly how wet I still got remembering it.
“Move,” I hissed.
“Make me.”
We glared at each other for five seconds that felt like five years.
Then Riley’s voice floated down the hallway: “Ava, if you’re done flirting with your brother, I need you to come hold my hair while I puke up bad decisions!”
Jax’s grin got wider. “Sounds like my kind of girl.”
He stepped back, smacked my ass as he walked past, actually smacked it hard, “arghhh” he laughed at the sound I made and called over his shoulder, “Night, little sis.”
I stood there hating him, hating Riley, hating myself for the way my stomach flipped when his hand connected.
This house was going to kill me.
Or I was going to kill both of them.
Probably both.
Chapter 187IvySix months later, I was standing on a porch in America with a suitcase in each hand, watching my mother knock on her own front door.She didn’t need to knock. Her mother had been standing at the window for an hour. We’d seen her the second the taxi turned into the street, a small gray-haired woman with both hands pressed flat against the glass. But Mum stood there on the doormat anyway, with her knuckles against the wood, like she needed to do it properly.“You okay?” I asked.“No,” Mum said. “Yes. I don’t know. Ask me in ten minutes.”“You’ve been sober six months. You can knock on a door.”“Six months and four days.”“Six months and four days,” I said. “Knock, Mum.”She knocked.The door flew open so fast it bounced off the wall. And then my grandmother, a woman I had never met, whose name I had only learned half a year ago, had both arms around my mother on the porch, and they were both crying so loud that a man walking his dog across the street stopped and stared.
Ivy I woke up before the sun came fully up. Daniel’s arm was heavy across my waist. His breath was slow against the back of my neck. The room was still dark except for the thin line of light under the curtain. I lay there without moving and listened to him breathe.I never thought he would be my end game. Not once. When I first met him he was just the man who kept showing up. The man who drove me places. The man who did not flinch when my life fell apart. I told myself he was temporary. Safe for now. Good for the hard days. I never let myself think past that. End game was for other people. People with clean histories and quiet minds. Not for me.But here I was. In his bed. With the taste of last night still in my mouth and a blank canvas waiting in the living room because he had bought it without asking. Because he had written that note. Start with any color you want. Nobody’s allowed to tell you it’s wrong.I turned carefully so I could see his face. His eyes were closed. His mouth
Chapter 185IvyEverybody was looking at me. That was the worst part. Jax had said the words, a proper place, doctors who stay, and then every single head in that hospital room turned toward me like I was the one who had to answer.I wasn’t. Mum was.But I knew why they were looking. Because I was the one who had driven her to every rehab place in London since I was fifteen. I was the one who packed her bag. I was the one who sat in the car afterward and cried where she couldn’t see. I was the one who picked her up twenty-eight days later every single time, and watched her promise, and watched her break it.“Mum,” I said.She looked at me. Her eyes were red. Her hands were shaking.“You don’t have to decide right now,” Jax said.“Yes, she does,” I said. “If she doesn’t decide now, she’ll talk herself out of it by tonight. I know her.”“Ivy,” Riley said softly.“No, I’m serious. I’m not being mean. I’ve done this with her nine times. Nine. Every time she says this time is different, an
Chapter 184JaxI was halfway through my second cheeseburger when the door opened, and I honestly thought it was a nurse coming to tell me off again, because the last one had said a man with a hole in his shoulder should be eating soup, and I had told her that a man with a hole in his shoulder deserved whatever he wanted.It wasn’t a nurse.It was a woman in her late thirties with short dark hair and a leather jacket and a backpack on one shoulder, standing in the doorway like she’d just walked straight off a plane and into my room without asking anybody where she was going. Which, it turned out, was exactly what she’d done.She looked at me. I looked at her. I put the cheeseburger down.“Riley?”“Hi, Jax.”“What… how…”“You’re on the news,” she said. “You and Ava and some mayor from New York. Every channel. They showed a picture of her from when we were nineteen. The one from the school yearbook. I was at work. I dropped a whole tray of coffee on the floor.” She laughed, but her eyes
Chapter 183IvyHospitals always smell the same. I have spent more nights in hospitals than I can count, waiting for Mum to wake up, waiting for Mum to sober up, waiting for some doctor to come out and tell me she was going to be fine this time, and every single one of them smelled like this. Bleach and burnt coffee and fear.But I’d never waited for Jax before.“He’s going to be fine,” Daniel said for the fourth time. He was sitting next to me in a plastic chair in the waiting room with his elbows on his knees. My hands were clean now. A nurse had taken me to a sink and helped me scrub them until the water ran clear, and then she’d given me a set of blue hospital scrubs because my dress was ruined, and now I looked like I worked there.“You keep saying that.”“Because it keeps being true.”“You don’t know that. You’re not a doctor.”“I know the bullet went in under the collarbone and out the back. I know he was talking the whole way down in the elevator. I know he asked the paramedic
Chapter 182DanielI heard the door open through Ivy’s microphone before I understood what it meant, and then I heard Ava say his name, and every person in that van turned around and looked at me like I had done it.“How is she in there?” Morales snapped. “Where’s Jax? Jax was supposed to keep her at the end of the street!”“He was,” I said. “He was supposed to.”Superintendent Whitlock was sitting at the front of the van with one hand pressed to her own earpiece and her face didn’t move at all. “Is she wired?”“No.”“Is she armed?”“She’s Ava,” Morales said. “She’s barely holding a handbag.”Through the speaker, Noah Carrington laughed. It came through the little box on the table in the van clear and warm and friendly, and it made my skin crawl.“Ava. My God. Twenty years. You look terrible.”“You look exactly the same,” Ava said. Her voice was shaking. “That’s the worst part.”“Mum, go,” Ivy said. “Please. Go back downstairs.”“No, baby. I’ve been going for twenty years. I’m done go
Ava I sat there on that crinkly hospital bed paper, staring at this doctor guy who'd just frozen like I'd slapped him, and then it hit me harder no, not…. , it was actually Noah, holy shit, Noah from way back in high school, the one who'd been my massive crush, all brains and that shy smile that m
Ava I slapped my hand to my cheek where the sting was still buzzing like a pissed-off bee and just stared at her for a second, mouth open, brain finally catching up to the fact that this whole thing had gone from hot to straight-up humiliating in record time. “What the actual fuck, Yvana?” I snapp
Ava Two weeks crawled by like they were dragging their feet on purpose, but weirdly enough it felt... good? Chloe had already bounced back home the day after that whole disaster and vanished with her suitcase and Riley followed a couple days later, hugging me so tight I thought she was moving to a
Ava Yvana laughed. Turned halfway, kissed him over her shoulder while her hand slid up my thigh. Under the hem of his T-shirt I was still wearing. I gasped when she brushed the edge of my underwear.She smiled against Noah’s mouth. “Sensitive.”“Girl please…,” I muttered.Noah’s hands were on her







