ASHLEY
I’m always the happiest when I’m at my best friend’s house. As soon as I pull into the long driveway and see their gorgeous house on the
lake, I immediately feel at peace. I love Sara, and I’m sure that has a lot to do with it, but if I’m being completely honest, it’s really because of her dad.
I’ve been in love with Mr. Mancini for as long as I can remember. I practically grew up in this house, and my entire childhood is filled with memories of him. He was like a second dad to me, but all that changed when I got older. I started to see him in a very different way. He was born in Italy and came to America when he was a teenager, and I began to be aware of those gorgeous Italian genes of his. His jet-black hair, dark eyes, and olive skin drove me crazy when I’d come over and stay the night, and it still does. He’s completely ruined my chances of ever being with anyone else. I’m so obsessed with him that I’ve never even been on a date with anyone. High school for me was like a nunnery. The only action I ever saw was with my hand when I was thinking about my best friend’s dad. I try not to think about how fucked up that is.
Pulling my car up to their garage, I park my sensible, and very used, Ford Focus behind Sara’s red sports car and grab my bag from the back. Things are going to be different now, I tell myself. We just graduated high school, and I’m 18. Mr. Mancini has been divorced for years, and as far as I know, isn’t dating anyone at the moment. Thank god! Maybe I can get him to see me as something other than just his daughter’s best friend.
As soon as I ring the doorbell, Sara opens it in a rush and pulls me into a big hug.
“I’m so glad you’re here!”
I laugh and hug her back. “We did just see each other a couple of days ago.”
“Yeah, but it’s different now that we’ve graduated. I don’t miss school, but I miss seeing you every day.”
I follow her inside and toss my bag by the stairs before we head into the kitchen to grab a drink. Climbing onto a stool, I wait while she digs around in the fridge. It’s just Sara and her dad in this massive house, and they’re wealthy enough to have a maid and a cook who comes by to prepare all their meals in advance, so when she pulls out a pitcher of what looks to be homemade lemonade, I know it’s going to be delicious.
She pours us a couple of glasses and sits on the barstool next to me.
“I’ve already ordered us pizza for later, and there’s a scary-looking movie that we can watch.”
“You never last more than five minutes,” I say with a grin. “You watch the whole movie from under a blanket or between your fingers. I don’t know why you keep trying.”
“I do not! I watch them.” She shrugs and adds, “Most of them.”
“That’s all right. I don’t mind giving you play-by-plays. I can be the brave one in this relationship.”
She snorts and butts her shoulder against mine. “Very funny.”
I take a drink of my lemonade and can’t help but give a groan of appreciation. “Holy shit that’s good.”
“I know, right? Mrs. Johnson is the best. You remember her chocolate chip cookies?”
“Oh my god, so good,” I say, remembering the last time I had them.
“Well, she heard you were coming and made us some.”
“Tell her I said thanks and I love her.”
Sara laughs and empties her glass in one long drink. “Will do.”
When I’m done, we head up to her room, and I can’t wait any longer, so
I say, “So, is it just you and me tonight?”
“Yeah, my dad is at some work thing. He said he’ll be gone pretty much all night.”
I try not to look as disappointed as I feel. There’s always tomorrow. Maybe I’ll be able to see him in the morning before I leave. It’s hard to resist the urge to just lay down and curl into a ball, but I don’t want to ruin the night for Sara, and I sure as fuck don’t want her to know how I feel about her dad. Plastering a grin on my face, I do my best to enjoy our evening. It’s not long before Sara has me laughing and the time starts to fly by.
The doorbell rings, letting us know the pizza’s here, and I hang back while Sara gets the door. I have to stifle a laugh when the young delivery guy starts acting all flustered around her. Sara is gorgeous. How could she not be with a dad like hers? Men, old and young, can’t help but fawn over her. Where my clothing tends to cover more than reveal, Sara’s outfits are chosen to show as much flesh as possible. I’ve always felt like the less attractive, invisible friend, but I’ve never been angry or jealous of her. Okay, well maybe a little jealous, but not in a mean way. I love Sara to death, and she’s never made me feel bad about myself. Quite the opposite. She loves my blonde hair and brown eyes and always tells me there’s nothing wrong with being on the short side.
I park my butt on the stairs when it’s obvious the delivery guy is in no rush to get away. When my stomach lets out an embarrassingly loud growl, she finally says goodbye and follows me into the kitchen with the pizza and a phone number.
“You’re such a flirt., I say with a laugh, grabbing a couple of plates for us.
“Of course, I was flirting. Did you see how hot he was?”
EPILOGUELAINEHE TELLS me my old house is finished. Good as new he says.I kick off my heels and thank him, but it feels so far away from that place.I guess it will be nice for Mum should she ever come back.Maybe she’ll be back for Christmas. Maybe I’ll get a text.Maybe she’ll even come to dinner with Nick and me. Maybe I don’t care that much anymore.I’m EXCITED about my own life now.I’m excited about finishing up my college course, even though Nick tells me he earns enough for both of us. For all of us. For the children we plan to have and the life we want to lead. Enough for everything.At least child studies put me in an alright position to have babies of my own.I want so many of Nick’s babies.HE SAYS he’s going to redecorate Jane’s room. A new room for new little people when they come along.He’s already started boxing up her things.He’s moved her DaDDy drawing to the corkboard in the pantry. I trace my fingers around the letters sometimes and wonder what it will be like
LAINEIt’s strange to wake up in such a big bed, but there’s so much more room for stretching out. I kick out my legs and enjoy the space, and Nick is right beside me with a quiet smile on his face.“Morning, sleepyhead.” “Morning, Nick.” Nick.It’s going to take some getting used to. How funny, how things change. We’ve been on a rollercoaster, him and I. It climbed so high so fast, and then it tumbled, so scary as the train sped over the drop. But we’re still on the rails, and somehow I think we’ll be climbing even higher this time.It’s late, I can tell by the light at the window. I take in the surroundings, and it’s nice in here, in his space. I like it.I look at the bedside cabinet on my side and wonder what I’ll fill it with. I wonder which wardrobe I’ll hang my clothes in, and if it would be appropriate to bring Mr Ted in here too.“Are you hungry?” he asks.I shake my head, and I’m not today. I’m not.I stroke his face, my thumb brushing over his shadowy stubble, and I want hi
NICKLAINE NEEDED to be cared for, just as I needed to care for her. Both need that special someone to slot so nicely into their broken parts.It was beautiful.It still is beautiful.But this game can’t be all we are, not anymore.I pour her a whisky as I pour myself one. “It’ll help calm you down,” I say.She manages a smile.I take a seat at the table opposite and we sit in silence no longer simmering with conflict.We’re past that now.My demons have backed away into their shadowy pit, and the girl in front of me no longer looks like her soul is breaking.“Tell me about Kelly Anne,” I say. “Not just about what a cow she is, but about why you ever liked her in the first place.”“You want to know?”I nod. “I want to know. It was part of you, Laine. I want to understand why. Maybe that way we can stop it ever happening again.” “It won’t happen again anyway. I’m done with her.” I believe her. Her eyes are full of the pain of betrayal.I know it’s a tough pill to swallow.She takes a m
LAINEI’ve NEVER RUN SO FAST in my life. My feet barely touch the floor as I pound the beachfront, my heart in my throat as I realize what I’ve done. What she’s done.I’m out of breath as I see his car in the distance, but I still keep running, and then I see him, and he’s running too.I slam into his body and wrap my arms around his neck and I want to tell him how sorry I am but no words will come.“What, Laine?! What is it? What’s going on?” His hands are in my hair, on my cheeks, checking me all over, and his eyes are wide and petrified. I struggle for breath, and it pains me so much to see what I’ve done.“Nothing…” I wheeze. “Not like that… it was Kelly Anne! She changed my clock! I didn’t know! I swear I didn’t know!” His eyes are so hurt as he realizes. So hurt.It makes me feel like shit upon shit. I struggle not to cry, but I don’t deserve to cry, not after being so stupid. I’ve been so stupid.I am naive. Just a stupid fucking idiot. Just like Kelly Anne says.“You gave her
LAINEKELLY ANNE IS TOO DRUNK to listen to anything much I have to say, but whenI tell her at eleven that I might make a move early she seems to hear that loud and clear.“NOOO!” she wails and grips my wrist for dear life. “I need you, bestie!”Like hell she does.She’s grinding away on Tyler’s friend Mickey, trying to smile so coyly like there’s any chance she won’t be fucking him this evening. Tyler is too close to me for comfort, dancing so close with a stupid grin on his face. I dance away a little, trying to keep a bit of distance, but wherever I go he follows.“I’m serious!” I tell her. “I’m going soon, Kels! Nick will be waiting soon anyway!”“I’m so sick of hearing about fucking Nick!” she snaps.And I’m so sick of her bullshit and our one-sided friendship, but I bite my tongue and keep dancing.It is her birthday, after all.NICKMY HEART IS in my throat as the bell tolls midnight. I’m scouring the street, scanning the people walking from club to club for any sight of her be
LAINEKELLY ANNE POURSses a sneaky vodka from her dad’s bottle and tops it up with cheap cola. She clinks her glass against mine as she plays some drum and bass compilation I don’t like, as though simply having a bit of alcohol is cause for celebration. It doesn’t feel like it. Not so much.I’ve learned since her last birthday that some celebrations mean something, but it seems Kelly Anne didn’t get tagged in that particular life post.“Gonna get so fucking trashed tonight!” she tells me, and my stomach rolls before I’ve even taken a sip. I have no doubt she’s gonna get so fucking trashed tonight, only there’s no way I’ll be joining her in that. Not with Daddy Nick’s Mercedes waiting like a pumpkin carriage as midnight strikes.I’ve been telling her all week about my curfew. I didn’t say it like that, that it’s a curfew, just that we have plans. Plans. We do have plans. Nick is going to take me shopping for a Christmas party dress tomorrow once the birthday celebration is done and dus