Restlessness paralyzed my body, forcing me to sit on the damn bed and stare at the door. My stomach growled a few times already, reminding me that I hadn't eaten for... Actually, I wasn't sure when the last time I had eaten was, and the apple the old woman had given me during the whole beautifying process didn't do much to silence my overly loud stomach.The voice at the back of my head kept repeating that I would be safe in Alpha Kaan's presence, but the rational part of me didn't seem convinced. Of course, Caspian words rang in my head as well, and that didn't help me lessen my worries either.I had already checked the windows and any other route of escape twice, and I knew that my chances were nearly nonexistent, especially without any weapon. Shit. This entire place had been built like a fortress, and with those freaking magical wards and soldiers guarding almost every wall, I'd have better chances of running away from the center of the crowded battlefield than from this chamber o
KAANThe Fates had always found the cruelest ways to ridicule me, and perhaps I shouldn't have expected this situation to be any different. The Goddess must have cursed me when I was born. All my life, I felt as if I had been tainted by a demon's mark, bringing nothing but death to those closest to me.A few years ago, I had learned that the cure for my curse existed. I had been trying to find it ever since, and I had almost lost hope… until the one who might be the key to righting all the wrongs in my life literally broke into my chamber.I would know for certain in about two and a half months, and I had time until then to convince her that I was more than the monster the world believed me to be. Unfortunately, I might not have had enough time to gain her trust, especially when she still believed she was my prisoner, and I didn't know how to explain why I needed her to stay by my side.I wanted to make sure she felt comfortable around me… and I had to pay a painful price for her comf
ASENAEyes widening, I pulled the sheets closer to my chest. Why did he want me to witness all that cruelty?! I didn't think I could stomach watching innocent people die while I sat and did nothing. Not to mention that I would observe it all from the side of our enemies. I felt sick just thinking about it. Goddess knew that if I only had my bow and arrows, I would have gladly shot every fucker from Kaan's army.“Please… don't force me to go there,” I whispered.His features hardened as if it pained him when he said, “I have to. I know that it is hard for you to understand it all, but the safest place for you is by my side.”I lowered my head and swallowed a thick knot that rose in my throat. A sudden burst of anger spread a searing wave throughout my body. It felt almost like an itch that rose until it began sneaking through the pores of my skin. “Why are you loyal to that tyrant? Do you have a conscience at all?” I strained through my teeth, mustering my coldest glare.He moved back
I had hardly seen Kaan for the entire next day since he was busy preparing another attack. My stomach churned every time I thought about what he was doing, and I felt a crush of guilt whenever I realized I wouldn't be able to do anything to stop the slaughter. Thinking about it was slowly driving me insane, and the fact that I was locked in the chamber did little to redirect my thoughts elsewhere.Fortunately, Kaan hadn't left me without company. The two women dressed in gray robes took care of my meals and made sure I didn't lose my mind while sitting in Kaan's warded rooms. As I now knew, the older one, Delmira, used to serve at Shadow Mountains Pack's castle, and the younger one, Lelah, was Delmira's niece.“We prepared your clothes for the travel and something to change while you're in the tent,” Laleh said, placing a long cream-white gown and a hooded cloak trimmed with fur on the bed.My lips twisted into a wry smile. “The clothes are beautiful, but can't I ride in pants? Wearin
“I will not ride with you!” I mustered my best glare while my heart began to thunder at the sole thought of being so close to him for countless hours of riding.“That's not up for discussion, little one,” he said curtly, taking Than's reins from Caspian and turning him toward the main gate. “You can climb on his back on your own, or I will put you there.”Frustration within me rose. “Please, can we just—”Kaan scooped me from the ground and settled me on Than's back before I could even gasp, leaving me with no choice but to grab the pommel of the saddle and swing my leg over the horse to sit astride. He joined me a heartbeat later, quickly positioning himself behind me, so close I could feel his warmth on my back. Then he leaned forward, grabbing the reins with one hand and placing the other on my stomach. My whole body turned rigid.A soft chuckle escaped him, his breath fanning the shell of my ear. “It'd be much more comfortable if you relax and lean against me.”Relaxing was curren
KAANI could feel Asena tense as her eyes locked on the new guy. I had put the fucker on the Elite Squad because he was the son of an Alpha, but seeing Asena's reaction, I realized that I might have made a mistake. It was obvious that she knew him; he would have become her Alpha if we hadn't destroyed the Eastern Valley Pack. She might have hated him solely because he had chosen to save his skin by joining us, and for a moment, I believed that was her reason to react this way. He surely was a traitorous piece of shit. Then again, so was most of this squad and the army I led…Asena's knuckles whitened as her fists continued to clench. Then my eyes turned to the fucker… The way he looked at her made me want to claw his eyes out. It became obvious that whatever was between him and Asena seemed personal, and I would have lied, saying it hadn't turned the blood in my veins into lava.“Quit staring at her, or I will make sure you die in the first upcoming battle.” If my words hadn't carried
ASENAPerhaps after three years of fighting in war, I should have gotten used to long rides in the saddle, but that wasn't the case. I had a feeling that my butt would fall off at any moment. My thighs were sore, my back stiffened, and my shoulders felt as if they were covered by stone. I was exhausted, and I could almost hear the bedroll lying in the center of the tent calling me to lie down.I used the moment when Kaan wasn't inside the tent to strip off my clothes and change into something more comfortable to sleep in than a tight bustier and a long skirt. I also wouldn't mind taking a hot shower, but for now, a basin with so-called fresh water had to suffice.I washed myself the best way I could given the circumstances, but it quickly turned out to be less problematic than finding something even seemingly appropriate to sleep in the bag packed by Delmira and Lelah…I wasn't sure how many times I cursed, pulling out another piece of see-through fabric. I wouldn't wear most of it as
We were riding for more than six hours without stopping, but at least we finally managed to pass the mountains. Kaan told me that we were an hour away from reaching the Sombra Valley, where the rest of the army should gather and build the war camp. My stomach churned at that thought. Traveling alongside a few assholes was exhausting enough, and I could barely imagine staying in a place filled with more than two hundred bloodthirsty bastards who might be even more brutal than those from the Elite Squad.Our second day of travel seemed different than the first one, but I had yet to determine whether it was a good thing or not. I felt as if I had let Kaan tame me; that was what he did. I wasn't sure when I had gotten so used to his touch that it became something natural. I casually leaned into his embrace as if it were the safest place to be. And the strangest part was that I could no longer convince myself that staying with him was wrong.“So…” Kaan started when we found ourselves at a