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BEAM'S P.O.V

Everything was going well until it did not and it did not the day Forth bit him. They are still very much interested in each other, in all aspects of the word but they grow distant as if something crucial is missing.

Beam feels wrong being with his mate and there are times when he has this terrible thought that tells him this emptiness is not worth it. That he must master up all his strength and run far, very far away that this feelings evaporate. He knows that logic is nonsensical, they are fated mates now and they took a literal term to 'to death do them part'. That his decision to commit means there's no escape from all these feelings and that knowledge is enough to make him want to cry. There are days he wanted to leave his dammed beloved. Oh, goddess forgiveness but it is nothing bad he just contemplated it. Okay, it does not help him if he keep contemplating his decisions. It does not help that he keeps overthinking his situation more than once. And that any time he