Chapter 15: She gives life

Sarah Codache

I stayed here at home for a long time ever since it crowded with people, and I felt so bored the whole moment I was here all alone. I tapped my fingers rapidly in the corner of an old wooden table in my room while sitting in front of it. 

My sister locked me here, and I have nowhere to treat my loneliness. The windows were all closed, and only this crepuscular light served as my sunlight every morning. 

For the past few days, my family has acted differently. My mom always arrived in a panic and immediately looked for me and hugged me with her worried arms. I can even feel her sobbing and wiping her tears behind me. I also noticed that my sister could not handle seeing me every day. 

Does she hate me that much? 

Later on, a green butterfly approached me from nowhere. I was struck by how it glowed and showed its unique characteristic of floating tiny white sparkles. 

It was so amazing!

I stopped tapping my fingers and immediately leaned my back towards it. The butterfly surprisingly flew and landed at the tip of my nose. My eyes looked unto it with a desire to appreciate the tiny view, and it made me feel dizzy in the meantime.

From my vicinity, the butterfly shrugged its butt. Its wings moved at a slow pace while looking at me. Because I felt so excited about how this butterfly fascinated my eyes, I touched the wings where those tiny glittering white circles floated. Then, these glimmering glitters transferred to my fingertips.

I enjoyed what I was doing!

My mouth smiled as I stared at my fingertips while the butterfly was still standing on my nose. It was my first time seeing this kind of thing! 

Omg! It is so amazing! I chuckled in my thoughts.

The boredom I felt a while ago instantly flew with the wind. 

I enjoyed the moment of having those glitters around me, but suddenly, the butterfly flew away! My eyes followed where it goes. It went towards the other side of the room, where the window facing the backyard was. 

I immediately stood up, following the butterfly's direction, trying to get it back. But the thing was, the beautiful creature went out through the small crack on the window. 

My surroundings became bare. The entire room was back to its vague feeling. My mood changed back to sadness, and I couldn't stop jutting out my emotions. I did understand my thoughts as to why I brought myself to this area, but it felt like there was something that forced me to look through that hole. 

I could not explain this new feeling that I discovered a few days ago, but I also wanted to see nature again! 

With unconscious thoughts and aggressive hands eager to check the view behind the windows and to see where that butterfly goes, I slowly tore a part of that hole to make it bigger and to make the window slightly opened. 

And I was overjoyed when I made it successful! I jumped repeatedly! 

Yay!

I leaned myself towards it with eyes, forcing to see the outside. My mouth was slightly turn up when I met the sunlight once again. Ugh! I missed this feeling! 

I was lurking my eyes around to look for that butterfly once again. But, a strange brown-colored branch slowly crawled to the window going to the inside. I almost wreck out my neck when this thin wood texture became longer! It was approaching my direction!

I accidentally bumped my butt to the floor and crawled backward away from that freaking thing! My eyes were trembling while thinking, what kind of nature is this! 

My eyebrows wrinkled, and I could not stop worrying about what might happen after this. I was afraid...

My eyes widened when that single branch became more! The cracking sound that these branches created was interrupting my thoughts, and I could not think properly. All I could hear was the sound!

I wanted to scream the emotions I felt that I could not explain and burst out. I closed my eyes deep as I tried to clear my thoughts and calm myself. 

Then, when I felt my back touched the wall, I felt a single tear that fell from my right eye. I covered my face and wiped my tears as I slowly opened my eyes. 

When my sight became clear, I gazed at the branches that were curling around my two knees. I was confused because it became green, and I can feel its grassy texture touching my legs' skin.

I felt relieved. It was so close to death.  

I thought I would die this time.

"The land cannot kill the water." A voice of a familiar man woke my quizzing thoughts. I slowly raised my head up to see where that voice came from. 

It was the man I saw a few days ago. 

The land cannot kill the water? What's that? I couldn't understand the words he was saying, so I just glanced at the window which was now broken. I was also thinking about that butterfly. I wonder where it was right now. I moved my head around, hoping to find it. 

Even though I did not look straightly at the man who was standing in front of me, I still can feel that he was starring at me the whole time.

"Why are you still looking for that butterfly?" He asked in a fixed tone. 

I accidentally looked at him and our eyes met. His gaze was different which made me look away. Also, my attention was not focused on him.

I wish I can see that butterfly once again. 

"You don't have to, you are the butterfly yourself. Those tiny whites that sparkle means their mother is alive." The man's voice whispered to my thoughts. I gasped when I slowly realized that he was talking to me through my thoughts!

I glanced at him, full of questions about what was happening. But I did not bother to pardon, because he was just standing still while locking his eyes to mine. 

I covered my ears while trying to analyze everything by myself.

Those white floating circles were pretty.

"I know, its color is pretty too."

It was my first time seeing a green butterfly in my entire life.

"It wasn't your first time. You weren't just aware." 

When he replied to my last thought, my hands were quivering as I removed them away from my ears. I felt strange and could not move an inch. The conversation we had made me feel unusual. 

What is happening to me? I puzzled.

"Since that, I found you, gradually, you are recovering the state of the one whom you used to be. You will slowly discover who you are every time we meet." The man replied, his emotions were still stagnant and I could not figure out which reality I was talking to.

I forced myself to understand what he was trying to say, but I still find it hard to comprehend.

"Don't force yourself. You will understand it soon." He advised in a way. I think he saw my reaction, that's why he said this. 

I hugged my shoulders as the wind became strong and cold. I could not get to my thoughts properly, so I felt my brain giving up. I don't want to experience this again. I am afraid of what might happen to me. I could not even understand what I was witnessing. I did know why I am experiencing this. 

I slowly looked at the man and I was surprised when he began to show a down emotion. His eyes moved a bit lower, and his lips formed a slightly down-curved. I tried to analyze his reaction but, I couldn't get it! Ugh! 

I observed him trying to straighten up his back while forcing her face to look, maybe unaffected at all? 

He went towards me and reached his hand. He wanted me to stand up. And so, I accepted it. When our hands touched each other, both our skin shined. 

His skin shined green, while mine shined blue. 

We stood in front of each other. My eyes were astounded when the branches of his arms turned green from being brown! 

His words suddenly came back and I couldn't stop closing my eyes. And to my surprise, I was now able to understand what his words meant in the first place. 

The land cannot kill the water... I whispered to my thoughts.

I kept exchanging my sight between him and his hands. I couldn't stop looking around his surroundings as well.

I tightened my lips and with a wrinkled forehead, I asked, staring at his green flickering eyes. I didn't know it was flickering.

"I-I am.."

"You are the goddess of water."