EXHALE

Going through a lot of things will teach you to look into people's eyes just as I was doing now.I've lived with Aunt Mae for about six months, the longest I'd stayed with anyone and that was partly because Aunt Mae talked a lot so her cheerful voice managed to drown out my thoughts sometimes. Not just that, aunt Mae looked at me the way a mother would love at her child, something I never experienced even though I had a mother.Aunt Mae was also the kind of lady who would smile a smile that passed a message. "it's okay, I understand, I feel what you feel too." The hugs she gave me every morning when I woke up and at night before I went to bed, much like she did her son, made me feel better, it made me feel normal too. Throughout my stay here I hadn't lit a cigarette even once, in a way Mae made people forget their pain.                     However, today I didn't feel like Aunt Mae was any of those

      "Let me out of here you ....you arrgggh." screaming loudly I angrily fling the laptop on my table across my room, it hit the wall and then fell with a crash on the ground of my room.People would think I was just being unreasonable but that wasn't true and if I wanted to I had every right to be unreasonable. Like always, they were making me leave again to somewhere else probably because of what I did to Janice but within me I knew it wasn't that, I knew that they already arranged for me to leave the moment I returned I was lucky to have been allowed to spend up to a month here now it was time to go but I didn't want to, anywhere else would have been better but not to Caleb’s. Hell no I couldn't and because I had blatantly refused I was beaten and then locked up in my room with guards stationed all around, they even had a few of them stand outside just below my window someone would think there was a criminal in here. Bangin

I pulled my jacket closer to my body as I walked out of the vice chancellor’s office with Caleb following close behind. Today, I’d worn a bermuda short and a henley shirt paired with a ski jacket and black combat boots. You’d think I was in mourning because of the amount of black I had on. I had no makeup on and today I decided to let my hair loose instead of the normal cornrows. I swiped my tongue across my lips just to feel the coldness of the ring pierced on it. A stranger would easily think I was up to twenty because of my height as I stood at almost 5’11ft and probably the multiple piercing. My lips and nose were both pierced, my right eyebrows had about two piercing and that wasn’t all, my ears were pierced, my tongue and the most recent piercing I had done was my belly button and my butt. I had a couple tattoos but no one knew that because my upper body was always covered. However, I only turned eighteen in August, last year. Yeah a brand new adult who was also no

You ever felt so exhausted you just want to sleep, to just keep sleeping and not wake up? That was how I felt right now. Completely exhausted tired, too drained to even form words even when I tired to, no words left my mouth it was almost like I had lost the ability to produce sounds.The past two weeks I've had constant nightmares all with Tessy in them. She was either telling me to go home or just pointing, either way it was horrible. I usually slept with the aid of sleeping pills but now I could take countless amount of it and nothing would happen still. Every single night I'd fallen asleep in my bed only to wake up and run to the toilet, it was horrible I wanted a break no needed a break. Caleb had suggested we take permission from the school before going away for a month but the events that followed made him change his mind.                 By 10am on Friday, Caleb, my

It was the second day since I awoke and the rest of them took time to rest since the doctor had promised that I was fine. My mind kept drifting to the dream and what Tessy had asked of me. I had no idea how she wanted me to find this boy, I had no idea where that envelope might be now and that frustrated me. I wanted to find this boy, he definitely had the answers to all this problems.I was pulled abruptly from my train of thought, when the door was opened.It was that young doctor, I observed that he came in alone today. There were no nurses or residents just him and his annoying smile."Good morning miss,” he greeted with a blinding smile."Bethany.""What?" He asked confused.Rolling my eyes I repeated, "Bethany not miss."His smile immediately returned to his face, “beautiful name for a beautiful lady.""I know," I smirked.He returned my smirk befo