Until I Met You

 I woke up to the loud shrill of my alarm clock. I didn't want to wake up, but I had no choice. With a groan, I sat up on my bed and stretched while wondering if I made the right choice in moving to New York. Today was my first day of college and I was freaking out because I was the definition of the word 'introvert'. I always try to be invisible, quiet, and blend in with the shadows. Without Emma, my best friend, and only friend, I wouldn't have survived high school. College was going to be tough without her. Pushing back all the negative thoughts I made my way to the bathroom and took a hot shower to calm my nerves. I got dressed quickly in a pair of skinny blue jeans and a blacktop. I comb my long, chestnut, brown hair and pull it into a high ponytail. With a little bit of mascara and lip balm, I'm ready to go. I walk downstairs to find Emma making breakfast. I was blessed to have a best friend who could cook like a pro. It s

I couldn't stop thinking about Jake on my way back home. I really didn't want to be in any kind of relationship right now. But I would be lying if I say I didn't think about it. He was so hot and I wanted to kiss him so badly. I stopped my inappropriate thoughts once I reached home and went to my room. Emma was still out with her boyfriend, Justin. They have been together for almost three years and he decided to do his studies over here when he found out that she wanted to go to Columbia University, which was so romantic. I tried to keep myself occupied by doing assignments and some reading.I was halfway through my notes when

All I could think about was Jake. I was acting like a lovesick puppy. I know I was only attracted to him and nothing more than that. But why would he be interested in someone like me? I was not that pretty. To think of it, I haven’t seen him with any girl on the campus. I was so confused. I couldn’t ask him anything directly and that’s when I had an idea.“Hey Chad,” I spoke after he picked up my call.“Hey Ash, what’s up?”

I started to unbuckle my seat belt as well and it got stuck. Shit!! I cursed under my breath. I tried so hard but it was useless. Suddenly Jake came forward and helped me with the seat belt. Our faces we inches apart. I could hear his heartbeat. Everything felt so intense and I wanted to kiss him so badly. He looked into my eyes and then my lips. Fuck it. We both moved closer at the same time and just when I was about to kiss him, he pulled away. I felt embarrassed and my face went red.

I was numb. I couldn't feel anything anymore. I wish I was dead. I couldn't believe he found me somehow to ruin my life again. I thought of calling Emma and telling here but I didn't wanna ruin her mood. The sound of my phone brought me back to my senses.It was Jake. I couldn't answer his call. I can't pull his life in danger when I knew what would happen if I continue to see him. I felt an ache in my heart. I just wanted him to hug me tightly and make everything go away and tell me things will be better. But that's not gonna happen. He is never going to want a girl with this much baggage. I should have know my little fantasy