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Flashes of seconds before now filled my eyes. It drove my heart crazy when I remembered our lips smashing against each other. With every peck on Catherine's blood-stained mouth, embers of my soul ignited.
Making out with random girls is not new to me, but this was different. This time, it felt too overwhelming, too addictive. It’s not just a temporary high and cravings of the flesh. It’s not something that I would want to be sober from.
I was running out of breath while breathing in too much at the same time. Foreign feelings I have never once felt towards anyone introduced their familiarity in my body. As if telling me that this very feeling, it won't be over shortly--or ever. I had a feeling that the way my heart pounded when I held Catherine, it's going to pound even harder in time
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