LOGINCHAPTER THREE
GREY EYES & BAD IDEAS ISLA Oh my fucking God! Grey eyes… That was the first thing I noticed. Not the noise, not the bass rattling the walls of the frat house, not even the heat pressing into my skin the moment Sonia abandoned me. Just the color of his eyes as they locked onto mine from across the room, like he’d been waiting for me to look up. Rowan Pierce, sitting like he owned the place, a girl draped over his arm as he stared at me. He didn’t wave or even move; he just stared. And somehow, that tightened a knot in my stomach, much tighter than I wanted it to. My heart stumbled, then picked up its pace as my grip tightened around the plastic cup Sonia had shoved into my hand before disappearing into the crowd. Look away, Isla… This means nothing, and you don't even belong in this scenario! But none of my self pep talk worked. The room was packed, of course. Bodies were swaying, laughter was spilling, and the music was pounding, but the space between Rowan and me felt fragile, like one wrong move would snap it. I turned slightly, pretending to scan the room and pretending I wasn’t acutely aware of him pushing his weight off where he was seated and weaving through the crowd. And there it was again, that low heat in my chest as the noise dulled. “You look like you’re about to bolt.” His voice came from behind me, low enough to curl straight down my spine. He was close… too close. I inhaled slowly before turning around. “I might.” His mouth twitched, his grey eyes boring into my brown ones. “Why’d you come, then?” “I didn’t know it was… this.” I gestured vaguely to the chaos around us. “Yeah,” he said, eyes flicking over my dress and lingering for two seconds too long. “You don’t really scream frat party.” “Neither do you,” I shot back before I could stop myself, meeting his gaze and trying not to go jelly under the intensity of his. That earned me a full smile, one that came out very slow. “Careful,” he murmured. “You might hurt my feelings.” I snorted despite myself, weaving my fingers through my hair. “I’ll survive.” “Maybe.” His gaze dipped again, this time unapologetic as they raked all over me. “You look beautiful, love.” My throat tightened. Okay… okay… Don't pass out! “You shouldn’t say things like that.” “Why?” he asked softly, his head tilting a bit as his eyebrows raised in amusement. “Because of your brother?” “Yes,” I said immediately, like I was trying to remind myself he was off limits. He tilted his head. “Or because you don’t want me to?” The question landed too close to something I didn’t want to examine. He stepped even closer, getting rid of the little space that was between us before. “Does Asher know you're here?” He asked, and for some weird reason, his question sparked something angry inside me. “What do you mean? That I don't take a breath without my brother knowing?” One would think he'd back off at my angry tone, but Rowan proved me wrong. “You don't?” Before I could answer, a sharp laugh cut through the moment. “Well, this is interesting.” I turned to see a blonde girl leaning against the counter beside us, the same one draped over his arms when I walked in. Her eyes were bright with curiosity and something sharper underneath. She looked me up and down like she was assessing a threat. “Didn’t know Asher North’s little sister did parties,” she said, lips curling. “Thought you lived in the library.” Rowan’s jaw tightened as he turned to glance at her. “Lara.” She ignored him. “Guess the quiet ones always surprise you.” Heat flared in my chest, in addition to the one that had been there earlier. “I guess the loud ones don’t,” I said under my breath before I could stop myself. Rowan barked a laugh before he could stop himself, and Lara’s smile slipped. “Cute,” she said coolly. “You should be careful, though. Parties like this aren’t for girls who hide behind their brothers. Because I'm sure you can't even kiss a boy without your brother's permission.” These words stabbed my heart and earned mockery laughter from those around us that had begun to notice the drama. I wanted the ground to open and swallow me up. “Seems I was right,” she continued, a coy smile on her face. “You're really just living pathetically off Big Brother, virgin little sister.” My eyes blurred, and before I could think, I was pushing past them and running away. The whole sound had dulled in my head, and I could only hear the sound of my beating heart. Until someone grabbed my arm and pulled me into a room. “Hey,” Rowan's voice interrupted my thoughts as his palm cupped my cheeks and a tear slid free. His thumb grazed the tears away gently, and before I knew it, I was getting lost in the ocean of his grey eyes. He leaned in, close enough that I could smell him. “I should've let you leave because if you stay,” he said, voice dropping together with his hands, “I don’t know if I’ll keep pretending.” He walked until he was backing me against the door. I swallowed the lump in my throat. “Pretending what?” “That I don’t think about you.” His eyes darkened. “That I don’t want you.” My heart slammed so hard I could swear he could hear it. “This is a bad idea. My brother would kill the both of us.” I whispered, Lara completely forgotten. His hand brushed the wood beside my head, trapping me without touching me. “Yeah,” he said. “But you haven’t walked away.” I didn’t answer; I couldn't. After all, he was right. The world narrowed to the space between us, to the way his gaze flicked to my lips, and to the way my body leaned in before my mind could catch up. His hands slipped to my waist, holding me firmly against him. Crazy signals shot through my body and straight to my brain, and all I could think of was his lips against mine as he leaned in until our lips were inches apart. Then he whispered. “Fuck Asher’s rules.”CHAPTER 250 (EPILOGUE)HOME WAS NEVER A PLACEISLAIf someone had told me months ago that this was how my story would end, I would have laughed and cried. Because nothing about my life had ever been simple.Not losing my parents. Not living under my brother’s rigid protection. Not falling in love.And definitely not falling in love three times.Yet there I was, standing in the middle of the rink one last time before summer break officially began, watching the golden lights reflect off the ice. The place that had once been the center of scandal, whispers, betrayal and healing.The first place I'd learned to smile at a stranger. Everything had changed.The suspension didn't last forever. Eventually even the gossip truly died and Victor transferred out under the weight of his own disgrace, the team stabilized. The coach reinstated them after weeks of discipline and silence.Asher and I were… better. He no longer hovered over me like I was fragile glass, and I no longer felt like I had to
CHAPTER 249APOLOGY IS THE BROTHER OF RECONCILIATION NOAHI had never been afraid of Asher. Not when he was pissed after a lost game. Not when he threw the first punch. Not even when he looked at us like we had personally betrayed his bloodline.But as I stood there watching him hug Isla, I felt something unfamiliar settle in my chest.Uncertainty.His back was to us at first. His arms wrapped around her tightly. And for a second, I saw the version of him that existed before all this… just a brother who had lost too much too young.Rowan stood slightly in front of me, protective even now. Ellis’ posture was calm, but I knew him well enough to see the tension in his jaw.When Asher pulled away from Isla and turned toward us, his expression was unreadable. I couldn't read anything hiding behind his eyes. He walked closer to us and none of us moved. The air felt thick, like the moment before a puck drops and we were waiting to see who would take the lead. “We’ve been friends since I g
CHAPTER 248UNLEARNING THE CAGEISLAIt had been a few days since I walked out of my brother’s room and told him to go to hell. A few days since I finally said everything I had swallowed for years and got my chest lighter than it had ever been. The campus was still… harshNot as vicious as before, but not completely kind either. There were still stares, occasional whispers when we passed… but something had changed. We had stopped hiding.Rowan held my hand openly now, his fingers laced with mine like it was the most natural thing in the world. Noah would press a kiss to my temple in the middle of the quad without hesitatio. And Ellis would cup my face and kiss me slowly and deliberately, like he wanted anyone watching to understand that I was not a mistake.The first time it happened publicly, my heart nearly leapt out of my chest.I had braced myself for the gasps, yhe judgment and the disgust. And yes, some of it came, but they didn’t flinch. Not one of them. And when people reali
CHAPTER 247THE WORDS OF MY MIND ISLA I was tired of hiding. Tired of whispering. Tired of shrinking every time someone looked at me like I was something rotten they’d accidentally stepped on.For days, I had let the shame sit on my chest like a stone, let the silence swallow me whole and let Asher’s absence carve a hole straight through my ribs.But that morning, something changed.Maybe it was because of how tired my soul was and it was suddenly angry. Maybe it was because they had been suspended from the team. Maybe it was how they stood by me, regardless of the backlash they were getting. Or maybe I was just done crying. Because suddenly, I wasn’t sad anymore. I was angry.I was angry at everything. At the students who wouldn't mind their business, at the sun that shone too brightly, at Victor. But most of all, I was angry at my brother. Asher hadn’t spoken to me at all. All he had done was shut me out. I stared at my reflection in the mirror before leaving my dorm. My eyes w
CHAPTER 246CONSEQUENCESELLISVictor’s words wouldn’t stop replaying in my head. They echoed louder than the slam of locker doors and louder than Coach’s angry dismissal.Take us off the team completely?I felt it like a threat, not just to hockey, but to everything we had left that still felt normal.Rowan was standing beside me, shoulders tight and fists clenched so hard I could see the veins standing out under his skin. Noah was quiet, jaw locked. Asher stood a few steps ahead, rigid and burning with his own storm.And Victor.Victor was still standing there with that smug, calculated look like he hadn’t just thrown a grenade into the room.I saw Rowan’s shoulders shift… that slight movement he always made before he did something reckless.I grabbed his arm and he turned to look at me with burning rage, wondering why I was holding him back. I shook my head. This wasn’t the time to lose control.I stepped forward instead. The anger in my chest wasn’t explosive like Rowan’s, it was
CHAPTER 245LINES DRAWN IN THE OPENROWANWaiting outside in her room felt longer than the last two days combined.The shower had been running for a while now, steam slipping from under the door and curled into the room, thick and warm. But it did nothing to ease the tightness in my chest.I leaned back against the wall, arms folded, staring at nothing.The past forty-eight hours had been brutal. Campus gossip had teeth, and it bit hard. Every hallway we walked through felt like a courtroom, and every whisper felt like a verdict. Betrayers. Dogs. Desperate.I’d been punched twice by someone I used to call brother. and I would’ve taken ten more if it meant Isla didn’t look the way she had when we walked into that room earlier. She looks hollow like someone had scooped her out from the inside.Noah was the one that broke the silence. “You think he’s ever gonna forgive us?”Ellis exhaled slowly, staring at the floor. “I don’t know.”That was the honest answer. I didn't know either. I p
CHAPTER 65FAULT LINESELLISI didn't think I'd be given the luxury of knowing what heaven looks absolutely felt like. Until Isla came along. Now I sure as hell don't want to go to hell.Three days.That was all it had been since I stood in front of Isla’s door and watched her fall apart in a way s
CHAPTER 60ONE STEP OF PAIN AT A TIMEROWANOh well, maybe this is the beginning of something I'll resent for the rest of my life. The room felt smaller after the doctor left. It didn't mean physically, but something pressed in on my chest, something heavy and sour that felt too much like humiliat
CHAPTER 49PAPER CUTS DEEPER THAN BLADEsISLAMy eyes followed the paper as it rolled and stopped short at my feet. The whole class was completely swept with silence as we all stared. What the fuck is that!?The paper on the floor didn’t feel real, and for a second, my brain refused to accept it.
CHAPTER 47JUST THAT LITTLE MOMENT ELLISI was so much in there, the pleasure ripping through my brain and every nerve ending in my body. Being inside her was a feeling in itself and I wanted so much to drown inside it that I didn't know I was going overboard. The word didn’t register at first.T







