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BAD DECISIONS TASTE BETTER. ISLA “Fuck Asher’s rules.” Those were the last words that left his mouth, and those words shouldn’t have done what they did to me. They shouldn’t have sent a reckless pulse through my chest or made my fingers curl against Rowan’s shirt like I was anchoring myself to him. They shouldn’t have made me forget—just for a second—that this was dangerous, and the moment I let his soft lips touch mine, there was no going back. But they did. The moment Rowan's lips claimed mine, all sense of reasoning flew out the window. My fingers instinctively found his hair, and I was pulling him closer into me. His hands snaked around my waist, pulling me into him like I was a second skin, one hand slipping down and cupping my ass. Oh God… A shameless moan racked through my chest and into the kiss as his touch sent shock waves through every nerve in my body. Butterflies flew endlessly in the pits of my stomach, my ears tingled, and something warm and wet slipped out from between my legs and wet my panties. Isla, stop! My mind called out to me, but my body betrayed me shamelessly. His hands slid down and rested on my hips, and in one move, he lifted me. My legs wrapped around his waist as he backed me harder into the door, his lips moving dangerously against mine. His teeth sank into my lower lip, and the little pain made me gasp, giving him just enough room for him to delve his tongue into my mouth. His tongue roamed the corners of my mouth, looking for a perfect place to rest, but found none before it engaged in a battle with my own tongue. I could feel something hard press against my throbbing warmth, and that sparked more intensity in my brain, and his kisses became sloppier. And just when my fingers were tugging his hair harder and I had damned all the consequences in my head, Rowan stopped. Actually stopped. He froze so suddenly it felt like the air shifted with him. His jaw tightened and his eyes darkened. And you didn't need a sorcerer to know they were darkened not with lust, but with restraint. It was clear he was holding something feral back. He swore under his breath and dropped me before stepping away and dragging his hands from my waist like it physically hurt him to do it. “Fuck,” he muttered, turning his back to me and scrubbing a hand down his face. “This is a bad idea.” I laughed weakly, my heart still racing and my lips swollen from the heat of the moment. “You’re just realizing that?” He turned back, slower this time, those chaotic grey eyes boring into me again. Those eyes would be the beginning of my destruction… “I realized it the first time I looked at you. I just didn’t think I’d lose my damn mind over it.” He sounded frustrated, but his words did something to me, something quiet and heavy. “You should go,” he said hoarsely. I stared at him, my chest aching in a way it had never ached before. “Rowan—” “Go,” he repeated, avoiding my gaze. “Before I forget why I’m trying to be good.” But I couldn't bring myself to move. Seeing as I was reluctant to move, he stepped to the side and opened the door. And then he was gone. The door shut, and just like that, I was alone. I stood there for a full minute, staring at the spot where he’d been, my body still buzzing like something dangerous had been carved into my skin. My lips felt warm, and my waist felt empty. Idiot, Isla. Stupid! Naive! Emotional! I fixed my dress, wiped the corners of my eyes, and straightened my spine. I stepped back into the party. The music became loud again, and the party was still moving like my life had not become complicated by just a kiss. I grabbed another cup without caring what was in it and took a long sip. I danced, just enough to lose myself in the movement, in the noise, and in the lie that tonight didn’t matter. By the time I checked my phone, it was past midnight. There were a lot of unread messages and missed calls from Sonia. Great. I slipped out of the frat house quietly, the night air cool against my overheated skin as I tried calling a cab. But no luck. I tried another one, and still nothing. “Perfect,” I muttered as I began walking. The streetlights were sparse, and the road was too quiet for comfort. My heels clicked softly against the pavement as I hugged my jacket closer, nerves beginning to creep in now that the adrenaline had faded. Then headlights flashed behind me. I froze as a car slowed and rolled beside me. Every bad thought rushed in at once. And the moment the window slid down, I jumped in fear. “Jesus,” a familiar voice said. “Relax. I’m not about to kidnap you.” Noah Bennett. He leaned over the wheel, one arm draped casually, the other tapping the steering wheel, grinning like he hadn’t scared ten years off my life. “Are you trying to give me a heart attack?” I snapped. “Wow,” he said. “And here I was thinking I’d get a thank-you for not letting you get murdered.” “I was fine,” I lied. “At midnight. Alone. On this road?” He hummed. “Sure.” I rolled my eyes. “Are you coming from a party?” He asked, and when I nodded, there was an amusement on his face, the kind that came before “Oh, I didn't know Asher let you move around like that.” “Don't even say what I think you're about to say.” He raised his hands in surrender. “Get in, I’ll drop you off.” I studied him for a moment before opening the door, and the moment I buckled in, he took off. Fast. “Are you insane?!” I grabbed my seatbelt instinctively. He laughed carelessly. “Relax, North. I know this road.” “You’re going to kill us.” “Only a little,” he said cheerfully. Despite myself, I laughed. He cracked jokes the whole drive, stupid ones, sarcastic ones, and ones that distracted me from how fast the city lights blurred past. Somewhere between my third eye roll and realizing I haven't laughed as much as I did with him, we pulled up to my dorm. “Wow,” I said dryly. “Thanks for not killing me.” “Anytime,” he replied. “I try to keep my passengers alive.” He threw me a wink and drove off. I had barely gotten my cheeks to relax when I turned and saw Asher standing in front of my dorm door.CHAPTER 250 (EPILOGUE)HOME WAS NEVER A PLACEISLAIf someone had told me months ago that this was how my story would end, I would have laughed and cried. Because nothing about my life had ever been simple.Not losing my parents. Not living under my brother’s rigid protection. Not falling in love.And definitely not falling in love three times.Yet there I was, standing in the middle of the rink one last time before summer break officially began, watching the golden lights reflect off the ice. The place that had once been the center of scandal, whispers, betrayal and healing.The first place I'd learned to smile at a stranger. Everything had changed.The suspension didn't last forever. Eventually even the gossip truly died and Victor transferred out under the weight of his own disgrace, the team stabilized. The coach reinstated them after weeks of discipline and silence.Asher and I were… better. He no longer hovered over me like I was fragile glass, and I no longer felt like I had to
CHAPTER 249APOLOGY IS THE BROTHER OF RECONCILIATION NOAHI had never been afraid of Asher. Not when he was pissed after a lost game. Not when he threw the first punch. Not even when he looked at us like we had personally betrayed his bloodline.But as I stood there watching him hug Isla, I felt something unfamiliar settle in my chest.Uncertainty.His back was to us at first. His arms wrapped around her tightly. And for a second, I saw the version of him that existed before all this… just a brother who had lost too much too young.Rowan stood slightly in front of me, protective even now. Ellis’ posture was calm, but I knew him well enough to see the tension in his jaw.When Asher pulled away from Isla and turned toward us, his expression was unreadable. I couldn't read anything hiding behind his eyes. He walked closer to us and none of us moved. The air felt thick, like the moment before a puck drops and we were waiting to see who would take the lead. “We’ve been friends since I g
CHAPTER 248UNLEARNING THE CAGEISLAIt had been a few days since I walked out of my brother’s room and told him to go to hell. A few days since I finally said everything I had swallowed for years and got my chest lighter than it had ever been. The campus was still… harshNot as vicious as before, but not completely kind either. There were still stares, occasional whispers when we passed… but something had changed. We had stopped hiding.Rowan held my hand openly now, his fingers laced with mine like it was the most natural thing in the world. Noah would press a kiss to my temple in the middle of the quad without hesitatio. And Ellis would cup my face and kiss me slowly and deliberately, like he wanted anyone watching to understand that I was not a mistake.The first time it happened publicly, my heart nearly leapt out of my chest.I had braced myself for the gasps, yhe judgment and the disgust. And yes, some of it came, but they didn’t flinch. Not one of them. And when people reali
CHAPTER 247THE WORDS OF MY MIND ISLA I was tired of hiding. Tired of whispering. Tired of shrinking every time someone looked at me like I was something rotten they’d accidentally stepped on.For days, I had let the shame sit on my chest like a stone, let the silence swallow me whole and let Asher’s absence carve a hole straight through my ribs.But that morning, something changed.Maybe it was because of how tired my soul was and it was suddenly angry. Maybe it was because they had been suspended from the team. Maybe it was how they stood by me, regardless of the backlash they were getting. Or maybe I was just done crying. Because suddenly, I wasn’t sad anymore. I was angry.I was angry at everything. At the students who wouldn't mind their business, at the sun that shone too brightly, at Victor. But most of all, I was angry at my brother. Asher hadn’t spoken to me at all. All he had done was shut me out. I stared at my reflection in the mirror before leaving my dorm. My eyes w
CHAPTER 246CONSEQUENCESELLISVictor’s words wouldn’t stop replaying in my head. They echoed louder than the slam of locker doors and louder than Coach’s angry dismissal.Take us off the team completely?I felt it like a threat, not just to hockey, but to everything we had left that still felt normal.Rowan was standing beside me, shoulders tight and fists clenched so hard I could see the veins standing out under his skin. Noah was quiet, jaw locked. Asher stood a few steps ahead, rigid and burning with his own storm.And Victor.Victor was still standing there with that smug, calculated look like he hadn’t just thrown a grenade into the room.I saw Rowan’s shoulders shift… that slight movement he always made before he did something reckless.I grabbed his arm and he turned to look at me with burning rage, wondering why I was holding him back. I shook my head. This wasn’t the time to lose control.I stepped forward instead. The anger in my chest wasn’t explosive like Rowan’s, it was
CHAPTER 245LINES DRAWN IN THE OPENROWANWaiting outside in her room felt longer than the last two days combined.The shower had been running for a while now, steam slipping from under the door and curled into the room, thick and warm. But it did nothing to ease the tightness in my chest.I leaned back against the wall, arms folded, staring at nothing.The past forty-eight hours had been brutal. Campus gossip had teeth, and it bit hard. Every hallway we walked through felt like a courtroom, and every whisper felt like a verdict. Betrayers. Dogs. Desperate.I’d been punched twice by someone I used to call brother. and I would’ve taken ten more if it meant Isla didn’t look the way she had when we walked into that room earlier. She looks hollow like someone had scooped her out from the inside.Noah was the one that broke the silence. “You think he’s ever gonna forgive us?”Ellis exhaled slowly, staring at the floor. “I don’t know.”That was the honest answer. I didn't know either. I p
CHAPTER 90 WHAT IF HE'S RIGHT? ROWAN The moment those words left Victor's mouth, my full attention was planted on him. I initially wanted to ignore him and just let Noah mouth him off, but what did he mean by that? “Seems like I hit a very delicate spot,” he whispered again. I froze. At fir
CHAPTER 93WHERE I NEED TO BEISLAAfter almost losing my mind last night on the call with Ellis, I needed to see him, so I decided it to be the next day. After the whole hassle at the funeral that day, I needed the rest. When morning came, it crept in quietly. Pale light slipped through the thin
CHAPTER 85SAME SKY, DIFFERENT SECRETSELLISI packed like I was running away after committing a crime.It was quiet, careful and I didn't turn on any lights longer than necessary. It was. Just the soft zip of my suitcase and the sound of my own thoughts echoi
CHAPTER 94 EVEN IN A HOSPITAL ROOM ELLIS Her hands were still on mine when the door. Lock shut after Talia walked out. The brief silence that followed felt different, I couldn't explain it. Isla stood there for a moment like she wasn’t sure what to do with all the emotions crowding her chest,







