I can't wrap my head around the fact that Baxter hit me. That was uncalled for. I might have kissed Andre but that doesn't give him the right to just hit me like that.
I remember waking up in Baxter's bed alone in his house. I hurriedly get into my car and drive off. It's officially over between us. He doesn't need me to break it off with him to know that.Opening my front door as fast as I can, I run in before I get spotted by anyone. I don't want people saying shit now. I have to use an ice pack to massage my cheeks that hurt like hell. Moving a little slow even for my own comfort, I clean myself up and apply a lot of make-up to cover up the bruise that was on my very pale skin. I put on a long-sleeved black turtle neck top to cover the bruises on my neck too. After debating for a while, I pick a very light brown knee-length skirt. I style my hair in a loose bun, I can't make it right because my scalp still hurts from all the pulling yesterday. I am in flats. I definitelTWO MONTHS LATERI have finally found love. After twenty-four years of being single, I found love with Baxter. The first few weeks of our relationship have been not so smooth but we're perfectly okay now. Work with Andre has been better. He's suddenly stopped giving me compliments. He's even stopped flirting with me. I was bothered at first but I'm fine. After the first time, Baxter hit me he hasn't laid his hands on me.“Baby. What are you thinking of?” That is Baxter whispering in my ea. I blush at the closeness and heat of his breath on my soft and sensitive skin.“About how much I love you” I giggle. Some people say I feel too fast and really hard but I don't care. I'm in love with him and he's in love with me.“Are you still up for dinner?” Baxter asks. I sigh, curling up to him. I place my hand on his chest.“I’m sorry. I don't feel like it.” I say. He smiled, curling my hair in his fingers.&l
Making your mind up about something can be really hard. I've always felt this way with Baxter. A lot might call me stupid for sticking with him even after he hit me. At the time I thought I deserved it. I cheated. Well, my boss kissed me but it still counts. Ever since then I have felt obligated. I have just had to make him happy all the time. I did everything he wanted. I even blocked some really good friends of mine including Asher simply because he felt threatened by them. I thought all these were just his way of telling me how much the kiss had hurt and affected him. It took me a while to realize that his actions were just him being himself. Nobody should ever feel the way I felt when we were dating. I know I have broken things up with him before and still got back with him but this time I’ve done some soul searching and I finally know I am worth a lot more. I felt so safe with him. There were times in our relationship that I could really talk to him about my feelings and
***********************************************************Two months after breaking up with Baxter I can say I have my life back. I got an apartment only six blocks away from work. It's a small yet cozy place for someone like me. I've tried my best to distance myself from Andre. I don't want him to know how hurt I have been in my relationship. It was my first and for now, I think it will be my last.My healing process included calling my brother and mother more often. During the relationship, I never really talked to them. I know my mother would have been hurt but she understood that I didn't express myself much with words and she wasn't with me to know if I was ok or not, not until I tell her, and I don't want her to worry. She has enough on her plate already.Jade and Asher postponed their wedding to this weekend because Jade said she didn't like the color of the flowers and it was too late to change them. She wants this to be perfect but I could tell she was nerv
"Do you think I should pick this?" I ask as I scan the strapless long green gown. It exposes a lot of my back and cleavage. It is not my type of dress but it looks manageable."Nope." Jade shakes her head as she pops open her bottle of Coke."Why not?" I whine, still looking at myself in the mirror."I mean, it is obvious that is not your type of dress." Jade says, laying more emphasis on the 'that'."But we have been here for about two hours now!" I say as I plop myself on the red couch, sitting beside her."It's not my fault we have not found a dress suitable for the wedding." She shrugs. "Besides you need to look dashing for Andre." She winks at me, a small smirk playing on her lips. "did I say dashing, sorry, I meant hot. So he won't be able to keep his eyes off you." She grins at me.I rolled my eyes at what she said, "you know I'm not dressing to impress him." I shake my head as I stand up and then check the rails of clothes again. Who knows I mig
Details of yesterday night come rushing like a flood.I remember coming home feeling so tired yet happy that my best friend is getting married soon. I remember how I entered my bathroom and let the water from the shower pour on me and how memories from my relationship came rushing. I remember that I broke my promise. I promised not to cry but still, I needed to let out my frustration one way or the other. I feel sick and I knew this was because of yesterday night. I cried so hard that I could hardly recognize who I was anymore. I won't let this affect me more than it already has.I stretch and get up from my bed.I walk too slowly to the bathroom stripping myself of my nightwear as I walk in. I brush my teeth and packed my hair in a rough bun to avoid water from touching it. I walk in gracefully and I let the cold water cascade on my skin. I feel refreshed as water drops fall on me. I need a long bath but Friday morning is not the best time for that, especially when y
Happy Sunday y'all!!Enjoy the double updates again!!❤ ❤ ❤***************************************I wake up feeling nauseous. I need to be there for Jade. I can't put a hand on why I feel so sick. I'll have to go to the hospital after the wedding. I stand up despite my body's disagreements with me. I need to do something. I walk to my bathroom carefully so I won't fall. Maybe I'm hungry that's why my head hurts so much. I pick my toothbrush, apply my toothpaste to it and wash my teeth. When I am done, I release my hair from the bun it is in and removed my clothes.I drop my clothes on the sink and entered the bath. Turning on the shower, I take my shampoo container and apply a little pressure on it to release a little of its content on my palm. I rub my shampoo in my hair carefully. Making sure to get it to my scalp. Rinsing off the shampoo I apply my body wash on my sponge and scrub my body. When I feel satisfied I walk out with my towel around my body.
Andre and I get to the church a few minutes after Jade does. I don't understand what made her that late but knowing Jade and how excited she was I know she probably freaked out again."Wish me luck!" She screams. I smile softly."You don't need it. Now go marry him!" I say, sounding excited. I'm really excited for her and Asher but I haven't even been able to face him after blocking him for no reason. I remember he called me and tried asking me what he did wrong. I didn't have an answer to that because I couldn't say something along the lines of, "Hey Asher my boyfriend doesn't feel comfortable with our friendship"Thinking back on things I really would have sounded stupid. Jade goes back to the car to wait for the service to begin."What are you thinking about" The usual deep voice whispers in my ears. I jump a little from the shock. He stares at me with confused eyes. I clear my throat."Nothing" I smile. He pulls my arm and locks it in his. I take deep br
After the service, we all move to the reception. The wedding is a beautiful one but it takes a huge toll on my emotions. I'm happy for Jade. I really am.Andre won't stop touching me. I should tell him to stop it but another part of me loves the touch. I've been feeling nauseous since I ate. I haven't said anything about it because I don't want anybody getting worried about me. I definitely don't want to destroy or take the spotlight on Jade's day. Andre noticed this."Are you OK?" He asks. I nod."Yes, I am.""You don't look too good," He says and I laugh."Wow. Thanks for the compliment" He laughs, getting the joke."You look hot but I'm serious you don't look ok" He sounds concerned."I've been feeling sick and I feel nauseous," I finally admit to him."We should let you see the doctor right away," He says."Maybe tomorrow. I what to be here for Jade" I say.."I'm sure she wouldn't appreciate you throwing up on her wedding d