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Let me just get it out here: I was no virgin.
No, I’ve fuck and been fucked before. But I could count the number of times I've had a dick in me with one hand. And it was only one dick. That one dick wasn't near the size of Jackson. Not even by half.
When Jackson impaled me, I screamed so loud, my throat felt like it was going to bleed. My eyes were wide, immediately watering. Oh, God. He was in so deep. And the way he was stretching me… it burned.
“Fucking hell,” he growled from behind me, his chest completely pressed to my back. “Fuck, you’re tight, Siri. You're squeezing me so tight.”
“Jackson…” I choked out, my voice already hoarse. “It’s… It’s too much, Jackson.”
His fingers trailed slowly and softly from my stomach up to my chest, and I shivered. His breath was hot behind my ear as he whispered, “Relax, Siri. Come on, love. It will only hurt if you don't relax.”
His fingers moved to my nipples. He didn't touch them: his fingers just kept trailing around them, and I moaned softly as I felt goosebumps break across my skin. Slowly, I began to relax, unclenching around him.
“That’s it,” he whispered, his voice so deep, I had to shut my eyes when it felt too good. “Be a good fucking girl, and relax so I can fuck you.”
“Ohh,” I said softly as I rolled my hips gently, and he groaned so deeply, I felt it on my skin. “Who knew you had such a filthy tongue on you?”
He licked my ear before he bit down gently on it, and my body jolted. “There are so many things this filthy tongue can do to you.”
He rolled his hips softly, and my eyes snapped open as pleasure shot through my body. I reached back and grabbed the back of his head. “L-like what?”
His hand moved to my breasts, grabbing one of them while his hips kept rolling. “Like feast on your cunt. Fuck you with my tongue until I’m covered in your fluid.”
“That’s dirty, Jackson.”
His hips began to move a bit faster, and I moaned, my hips rushing back on him.
“In here, Siri, while we’re both naked and horny like animals in heat, there’s no such thing as dirty.”
His fingers pinched my nipple, and I moaned loudly, my head dropping back on his shoulder. I still held the back of his head, my fingers gripping his hair tight as the pace of his hips picked up.
He pulled out and slammed back in again, the sharp slap of our skin meeting echoing off the walls. Jackson’s breathing was harsh as he moved faster. His hand left my breast and moved up to my neck. He grabbed it, not tight, just kept his hand wrapped around it.
His other hand went between my legs. His fingers found my swollen clit, and a loud moan was ripped from my throat as he rubbed it.
“Jackson… if you do that, I’m going to cum,” I choked out as he fucked me harder and faster.
I had thought our first sex together would be slow and calm. I thought we'd need some time to get used to each other, but Jackson didn't seem to think the same. His thrusts were fast and hard, hitting me deep, and in a sweet spot that I was only just discovering.
“That’s the purpose of this, Siri,” he growled into my ear as his fingers kept rubbing my clit, while his dick rearranged my insides in a way I didn't think was possible. “I want you to come completely undone. I want you to cum on my fucking dick, my name on your lips.”
“I… I like that dirty tongue of yours," I moaned as my body rocked forward every time he went in.
He chuckled so deliciously. “There’s so much more you can like.”
Oh, I know there was.
As if to prove those words, he ripped his hand away from my clit, and before I could curse at him, he pressed his fingers into my spine and pushed me down until my chest was almost touching the top of the couch. I grabbed the edge just as he grabbed my hips roughly.
He pulled back until just his crown remained, and this time, when he slammed back in, I saw stars. My eyes went wide, my mouth falling open, but no sound came out.
“Fuck, you feel good, Siri,” he rasped as he pounded into me, his front slapping into my ass. “You feel so fucking good. I never thought it would feel this good.”
And I never thought he could fuck this good.
I knew he had a big dick, but there was a difference between having a big dick and actually knowing how to use it. Oh, Jackson most definitely knew how to use it. He was using it to drive me close to the edge, to drive me fucking crazy.
My mouth was still open, and saliva dripped out, but I was past caring about that. My fingers dug into the couch as my body was driven forward. The couch cracked and groaned in protest beneath us. I thought it would tilt over at one point, but it held its ground.
“Jackson!” I moaned as I threw my hips back and met his thrusts. “Jackson, harder!”
He scoffed breathlessly. “How much harder do you want me to go than this?”
“Harder, you prick! Break your damn hips, for all I care. Just fuck me like an animal!”
He growled. “Alright then.”
He grabbed me by the elbows, and then pulled me back while my chest was still pressed on the couch. He shifted behind me, placing one leg on the floor, while the other remained on the couch. And then he drove in.
“OH, GOD!” I screamed so loud that I was sure his neighbors many floors away would hear.
“No, baby, it’s just Jackson,” he growled, that male arrogance dripping from his voice. “Jackson is the name you should be moaning about. Come on. Moan it!”
Oh, yes. I was definitely getting addicted to this. There were no two ways about it. He didn't give me a choice in the matter.
My arms ached from being pulled, but oh, I was in heaven. I could feel the light of heaven shining down on my face.
“Jackson!”
“That’s it, baby.”
Oh, good Lord up above, the way he said that “baby.” Was this fucking man real? Or have I gotten so creative with my imagination?
He let go of my arms, leaning down until his sweaty chest was resting on my back. His fingers found my clit again, and I screamed even louder.
“Cum, Siri,” he growled into my ear.
Yeah, fuck Toria and her stupid advice. Fuck that happy ending nonsense. Sure, I do want a happy ending with him. I want a happy beginning, middle, and ending with Jackson. All of that and more! Damn it, I had even been thinking of the perfect future together with him. Yes—and fuck you—I’ve been thinking of going somewhere with him, getting a house, three dogs, and maybe one cat. We could live like that for a few years, then get married, and decide if we wanted kids. I'd already mapped out the perfect future, the perfect ending.So yeah… Use him? USE him? How on God’s green earth can I use him when I was in love with him? I was madly in love with that man, and it made me realize that I was never in love with Michael. No. No, I was just in love with the attention and the idea of love, the idea that someone finally wants me. But this painful shit with Jackson? This soul-crashing devastation? Yeah, this was love. This was love in its purest, fucked up form.So how was I going to us
“I thought you might be gone already,” Toria said as we settled into my hotel room. “Jackson already booked my flight,” I said, opening a beer. “I leave in two days.”“Hmm. So what are you going to do till then? Stay cranked up in here?”“Probably.”“I could show you around, you know.”I thought about it for a second and shook my head, sipping my drink. “Thank you, but no.”I had thought about leaving and just going to tour on my own, but every time I thought about the possibility that I might run into him out there, I shook off that thought. Maybe I would have seen him with his hand around another woman’s waist, laughing with the boys and acting like that night didn't happen. But seeing him on screen tonight, I don't think any of that might have happened. I wanted to ask Toria what happened and why he looked that way, but then I might sound like I care, which I very much do, and I wanted to stay cool and keep up this nonchalant act until I was out of here.And so I sipped my drink
SIRIHe… lost. I stared at the TV screen in my small hotel room, my eyes wide, hands squeezed together and pressed to my chest.“He lost,” I whispered it out loud like it would make sense if I did so. I told myself I wasn't going to watch the game, that I would stay away from my screen and just wait for my flight back home two days from now, but I couldn't. I couldn't let the chance of seeing him, even though it was from a screen, slip away. As soon as his team had skated onto the ice and the camera zoomed in on them, my eyes had found him immediately, and I knew something was wrong. His skin was too pale, his eyes looked too sunken, and he kept flexing his wrists over and over, to the point I was sure everyone in the arena must have noticed. And I could have sworn that he was trembling. The game started, and it was even worse. Everything about the way he moved, to the way he could no longer hide his trembling, was wrong. It filled my heart with dread and panic. I couldn't relax a
PRESENTThe smoke of that cigar, laced with a chocolate scent, burned into my nose even though he was across the street. The scent was the same: the cigar lit, resting on his lips, lifted in a smile. A small smile, soft and gentle. Not like that frightening smile he had on his face that night that still sends a chill down my spine. Elijah M’Call still looked the same even seven years later. His black hair was slicked back from his face, dotted with gray. His grey eyes were wrinkled at the corners from age. His shoulders were still broad beneath his tailored suit, and black leather gloves covered his hands.He still looked and dressed the same. Nothing had changed.After that night, I had cut every tie with this man. I made sure I never heard a word from him or received a single penny. I moved into Jacob’s house, and his mother accepted me without a single complaint, letting me stay until I could rent my own place. I didn't speak to my mother for two years after that. She came to my
CONTENT WARNING: This chapter contains references to domestic abuse and may be triggering to some readers. Reader discretion is advised. ~.~“I can think of a few things that can make you quit hockey,” my father said, his voice relaxed, but his face was filled with hell. He stood chest to chest with me, and I fought every instinct screaming at me to lower my eyes, to pull back. I fought them and stood perfectly still, not letting that dark look intimidate me.“What?” I spat. “Are you going to pay the coach to kick me out of the team? Then I'll just find another team to join.”“Jackson, please,” my mother whispered, and that just made my fists clench harder. Why was she calling me back and not her husband? He was the one threatening to take my dream away from me! My hopes for a better future, and still I was the one being called back? Did she really think I would just roll over and accept this bullshit? Bloody no. “That is way beneath me, Jackson,” he said in a low voice, acting li
SEVEN YEARS AGOThe sun had long since set, and the neighborhood was dark by the time I strolled in through the back door, my shoes tied together by their laces and hanging around my neck, my hands shoved into my pockets. Hopefully my parents were asleep by now, and I wouldn't have to deal with either of them. It was exhausting to look into their eyes these days and act like everything was fine when I harbored a little bit of hatred for my father. Okay, maybe it was more than a little bit, but I won’t tell if you don’t. I spent time at Jacob’s house long after practice, then came home and lied through my teeth, saying the coach sucked us dry with practice, which is why I was so late.You can’t blame me. The atmosphere in this house was depressing, and hearing my father whistle while he smoked his cigar, acting like all was right and fair in the world, was pissing me off when I could see my mother was losing weight, when I could clearly see she was losing her shine. She just needed







