Chase's POVEmma spent the night at my house and woke up at four am to about twelve missed calls from her mom. I counted them all. “Are you always up so early?” I asked her. She ruined my breakfast in bed. “Why are you looking like it's not a good thing I woke up?” She said, squinting even though there was very minimal light in the room. My bedroom was upstairs. I requested one that overlooked everywhere. “That's because I wanted to bring you breakfast in bed. ” I protested. “I now know to start cooking by two hours past midnight.” I joked. “That's easy. I'll sleep back, just watch me.” Emma said, enthusiastically throwing the blanket back over herself. “Not so soon.” I rushed to her and tore it off immediately. “By the way, why aren't you asleep yourself?” She asked me. I traced invisible lines on her body and watched her respond to my touch. The deal with girls who didn't have much experience sexually is that they were so responsive, and I enjoyed that in Em. “
Chase's POV Emma had arrived yet, but I didn't want her to meet the word air that was brewing between Gray and I. Just a few hours ago, I assured her that Gray had nothing to threaten us with again, and that he might even soften towards her in the very near future. “What's going on?” I asked Gray, sitting next to him in class. He had a pensive look on, and stared unblinking at Jessica and Lily. “You mean you never thought to tell me?! Me of all people, Chase?!” He said, but he maintained a low voice. “I hate how I got to know about it, Chase, but I hate it more for you. I'll claw you with every weapon in my arsenal and I'm gonna bleed you where it hurts.” He said. I thought to reason with him, but there was so much disrespect in all he had said and done. “I'm not gonna take this shit anymore.” I said. “Gray, it was a fuckin mistake, I was fuckin paranoid. None of us was in a place to raise a child. Lily's family was breaking apart, I have no parents.” I said to him, “If y
Lily's POV “Hey baby.” My dad said, walking into my room. The old man's heart break was only too visible. It seemed like he miraculously had more lines and creases on his forehead. “I'm sorry about earlier.” I apologized. “Oh, baby. I'm not annoyed. I'm not the one with about fifty percent hearing.” He joked, and we both laughed. “I thought you'd be angry with me.” I confessed. “And that is where you get me wrong, Lily. You are the least expressive of both of you. You are the only girl I have. It's a cruel world to women out there. You need to learn to speak for yourself, Lily. And for what you did,” He said, lowering his voice, “I'm proud of you.” I had not been happier in a minute. He pressed a kiss to my forehead and rocked me a bit. “I'm glad I have you.” I said, my heart was full and the tears were already at the brink of letting themselves out. “That births the other news I have.” He said, pulling away from me. “And what is that?” I didn't know what to e
Emma's POV Once again, thanks to another boy, one I almost gave my life to, my nudes were floating around. It was deja vu. I should've seen it all coming. Pictures of Chase with Jessica and then pictures of me and him at the hotel. I shamelessly went through some others social media accounts and even saw pictures I sent to him privately. I should've known better, I should've seen it coming. Worse still, he didn't even run after me. “Hey baby.” My mom, in one of her very fancy floral outfits, walked in unannounced to my room. I was so grateful I didn't pack any of my clothes to Chase's house. It's been three days since it happened, but it was still the talk of the town, second only to speculations about prom king and Queen. The or I had planned so carefully for was going to elude me. There was no way I was setting my feet in school if it wasn't for school. “Hi, mom.” I croaked. “Come on. What's going on? It cannot possibly be your period.” She said, I lied to her that it
Chase's POV Lily somehow beat me to it. I didn't need a soothsayer to know that Emma was done with me. She blocked me on all her socials and even calls. I couldn't reach her in any way I tried, and her mom wasn't exactly someone she fancied. Plus, Mrs Linda and I have had our fair share of deals, deals I wanted to be over soon enough. I retired to my home after it. The days that went by were like a blur. The first day, I woke up to expecting a good morning text from Emma. I refreshed my phone as much as I could, but it still wasn't forthcoming. Worse still, she blocked me already so I didn't even know if she was online. I didn't want to live without Emma, I didn't want to learn how to. But I couldn't escape it. It's how love works. Someone does, or someone gets hurt. I took to finding comfort from whiskey. We hadn't been together for so long, but it felt like a very huge part of me was ripped out. Emma was exactly what I wanted. Despite all the bottles I drank, I only got
Emma's POV. I kept steadily regretting letting Chase know anything beyond my name. With the kind of pictures I had floating around, I was already going out of my mind. I was trying my best to keep from tearing the skin off my bones. I had the sort of self loathing I experienced back at Starry. My sad, ugly life somehow couldn't stay happy for too long. Misfortunes were my bad habit. I had problem keeping them off. I walked right into this, that I knew. Locked up in my room, I was losing control of my mind. It didn't help knowing that everyone else was so busy with every other thing. The only person who called by or checked on me was Lily. She called really early in the morning, sounding sleepy herself. “Hey.” I said, as I picked up the phone. “Hey baby girl.” I replied, sleepy. “I don't apologize for waking you up. I wanted my voice to be the first you hear, even before yours.” Lily was one of the few people who could change my mood. “That's funny.” I said. “How ar
Emma's POV I was pumped about my day out with Lily. After the ruckus of the morning, I was ready to dance my pain away. It was a new lifestyle, but surely one worth exploring. “Hi, Mrs Linda.” Lily announced her presence, with her very tiny voice. “Oh, dear. Isn't that a little too short?” My mom commented while hugging her “We could also discuss how your bum looks so good while we're at it.” She added. Lily laughed so loud one would think she had no care in the world. I was busy putting my affairs in order. If Lily's outfit caused that reaction, mine was gonna give her a heart attack. “Thank you.” Lily replied, slurring her words. She sounded drunk, but I knew he wasn't. She could b in really high spirits, just as she could be low and suicidal at times. “Where are you off to? Emma's been holed up since forever.” My mom asked. She was always trying to be friends with my friends and I didn't get the obsession most times, it was kinda cute though. “We,” Lily stated,
Chase's POV After I left my dads that morning, I had no other plans but to drink myself to stupor. I was a failure. Emma was only too convinced that I gave her pictures out. The one thing I wasn't questioning was that there were more pictures addressed to a certain Kevin. She did not feel the need to explain that, so I didn't see the point in trying to fix us. I was torn. If Emma was cheating, then what happened was for the best. “What are you calling me for, Man?” Gray’s hoarse voice grunted. “I wanna talk.” I said. “I'm in your yard.” I added. “Get the fuck outta here, man.” He said, and cut the call. I called four more times, none of which he picked up. “Since you're so eager to see me, here I am.” He said, entering my car with a loaded gun, facing me. I laughed. It seemed so unreal. Gray was almost my brother. “You're really doing this?” I asked, surprised. “And a lot more. You might wanna say what's on your mind before you leave here in a body bag.” He threa
Emma's POV “We are both hurt. I think it's better we realize that and stop shaming the other person. Emma, you're just as damaged as I am.” Chase said. “That's not rocket science, Chase. Isn't this how you leave everyone you've been with?” I asked, “Broken and damaged?” “That's unfair, Em. You keep skipping the fact that there are always two sides to anything.” He replied to me. “You think I did, Chase?” I looked at him in his sinfully sexy blue eyes I still hadn't gotten an antidote to, not even the anger I felt, “All I did was allow you. I made you do all you did to me. In a way, I even enabled you.” “That's untrue, and you know it.” He replied to me. “I've talked about this, over and over. In my head and out of it, and it's still the same conclusion I reach.” I responded to him. “If ‘out of your head’ in any way refers to the bastard up there, I don't think I want to hear it.” I replied to her. “You've gotta get over yourself, Chase.” I said. “There's life
Chase's POV “You're still here, Em. It means you're interested.” I said. “I'm not comfortable here.” She said in a low voice. “I'd be in the garage, meet me there.” I said. “Maybe this is your time to show how low you regard me.” I let go of her hand which I had in mine, doing it both lightly and seductively. I knew I walked with such swagger, such essence that couldn't betray how scared I felt deep inside. Maybe she'd realize that I wasn't worth shit, and just go upstairs to meet her little boyfriend. I sat in my favorite of my dad's lot, the black mustang I saved Emma's ring in. That particular car had so many memories. I wanted to be in. I checked the time on my Patek, it was a few minutes to midnight. The estate gate was gonna be locked by 00:00, and if I couldn't make it out by then, I'd be stuck with Em and that bastard. 23:53, I had begun to get antsy. It'd be really unfortunate if I left, and Em eventually came down. I kept telling myself to calm down and b
Emma's POV “Can I trust you?” I asked Chase. I was mentally drained. Having played the good daughter throughout the anniversary, I wanted to catch my breath. Little did I know I had just been walking straight into Chase’s arms. “You know you can, Em.” He said, enthusiastically. “I'd hold your secret against me, Em. I wouldn't even tell myself.” His eyes mirrored mine, tired, hunger of the soul, and exhaustion. I couldn't believe that it was the same person who acted like I didn't exist last night. “I don't know where I stand with Kevin, really.” I said what I'd forbidden myself to. I made a deal with my mind to never say it. Just so I didn't believe it. The more I said something, the more I was forced to believe. “Start from the point where you left me, Em. I want to know it all.” He said, looking downI hated when Chase had that pensive look on his face. It felt like he was just a slight provocation away from murder. “After us,” I started, my mind was a bit foggy
Chase's POV “What did you do that for?!” Emma yelled after landing me a slap to the cheek. “I already said I wasn't gonna let you go.” I replied stubbornly. “Chase, my arm is hurting.” She cried, referring to the arm I'd been holding. I felt like a nasty person. Maybe it was the universe providing answers to the question I'd asked so many times, “Am I not good enough for her?” Well, I now knew I was too violent, too relentless, too impulsive, I rarely rethought my decisions, I bent everything to my will, things had to suit me, always. And those were all the things Emma stood against. “Emma, I'm a damaged guy, and I know it's really not your job to fix me. I'm a sorry project who should've belonged to my late mom and my dad who's now a happily remarried man. I get it. No one wants a project. But this is me swearing that I'd never hurt you, Em. I've learned. I do better for myself these days.” I said, frantically. Emma was rubbing her arm where I grabbed her, a sorry rem
Chase's POV. “It's not good that I'm too close to you, Chase.” Emma cried. Her eyes were already tearing up, and her face wet. Her rosy cheeks were beginning to peek from beneath the light make-up. “Why, Emma?” I asked her, letting my mouth say all the things my heart felt. “Am I so bad?” I asked. “I never said anything like that.” She answered. “So what is it?” I asked, exhausted. “Why do you want to be away from me so bad? Why do you treat me with such a long spoon? You can't deny missing me, Em. I see it in your eyes. What is holding you back?” I dared reach for her trembling hands, and she didn't pull away. It was a good thing. “Chase, I just still find it so hard to process. I'd rather think about things that hurt me, than process the whole thing. The past year has been the most tumultuous part of my life yet. I'm so fucking drained, I just need peace.” She said, “And you think that description doesn't fit me.”I asked, against my better reasoning. I then remi
Chase’s POV“I didn't think you'd be here.” She said,“I could say the same.” I replied to her Emma was the last person I thought who'd want to catch a break from the ceremony.She was at the center of it all, and really did well at her job of role playing a perfect daughter.“It's too much.” She replied with a low voice.“What is?” I asked, clearing my throat. “The atmosphere.” She explained, kicking the grass in her stilettos. Her legs looked like they must've been hurting. “Here.”I gave way for her to sit on her favorite swing. I could never take that away from her. “Thank you.” Emma was being her generic self, the side that she showed everyone else. Shy and contained. But I didn't like that. I liked that Emma I fell for, headlong. “It's nothing to Chase’s POV “I didn't think you'd be here.” She said, “I could say the same.” I replied to her Emma was the last person I thought who'd want to catch a break from the ceremony. She was at the center of it all, and really
Chase's POV I wished I could remain busy throughout the day. A time to rest meant a time to think. I was under the same roof as Emma, like I'd been wanting, but we were yet so far apart. The flowers were an ill thought decision, but I had to do something. Being in the same house with Emma for over three days was beginning to mess with my mental health. “You shouldn't have done that.” I said to myself. If only Emma had kept it a family thing and didn't have that one over, things would have been a lot easier. I intentionally left a note out of the flower delivery, but I knew she recognised the sender, irregardless. Before I knew it,my 5:30 alarm went off, and I had to throw on my tux as fast as I could. It'd be great if my dad and Linda got down to a full audience waiting for them. It was a really big deal for my dad, so big he had made arrangements for his helicopter to pick them both at ten o'clock. Linda was wearing a slick floor length satin dress in emerald green, paired
Emma's POVI decided to see my mom before the dinner. I didn't care if it was right or wrong, but I'd barely seen her all through the day and I was dying to know how she was holding up. Maybe an escape for myself was the other motive, but primarily, I wanted to know how she was doing. “Hey mom.” I said, pushing her door open. It almost felt like it was her wedding all over again. Mark was going all out. And I didn't know why it had to be that big for a guest list of just sixteen people. “This is a lot.” I smiled. “It is.” I saw the woman beneath all the makeup, hair glam, and accessories. She was still just my mom. “Can I have a moment with my daughter please?” She referred to everyone else in the room who wasn't me, and they, by my rough headcount, were about eight. “We can spare only about half an hour.” A kind lady who looked like she was in her thirties said, She had an outrageous makeup done. While it looked good, edgy, classy on her, I hope that wasn't gonna be my
Emma's POV. “You were gonna go in.” He said, looking away. “I was.” I replied, unshifting. He no longer had the courage to stare me down, and I no longer had the will to leave, “MIT looks good on you.” He said. “Thank you.” I smiled, “I could say the same for you.” “I see you've made new friends, well old ones,but you know…” He said. I chuckled within myself. Who'd have known that I could make the bad boy Chase unsure about me? “Yeah, I had no choice.” I murmured. “Uhm, how are you?” I asked, just out of courtesy, I told myself. I thought being brave and bold was gonna make me indestructible by him, but I was beginning to come off as antagonistic, and I didn't like it. Deep down, in the corners of my heart I hoped Kevin would never see, Chase occupied it. I wanted for him to close the distance between us like he'd once done. To treat me like his own. I was getting a little teary, so I dug my freshly manicured nail into my palm, I wasn't gonna cry, I could not.