TWO WEEKS LATER I stare at the glass window of the coffee shop. There ain't much people coming in. I know that we're supposed to be closing up this afternoon. I don't know why. I've been asking the other staffs, but they never said an accurate answer. They were reluctant in telling me. It's not kike I really need to know, I was curious. “There was an issue last week with a customer.” One of my guy coworker said to me as he was about to take off he's apron. I nod simply, “Oh that. That's horrible. Do you think we would lost this shop?” “That's what I heard. They are closing this for a year and if the issue resolves, then it'll come back,” Patrick, his name is, he's taller than me a few inches. Cute and simple. He always wears black. I've kawya wanted to ask why only black. “Is that true?” I quickly give myself a worried rub on the forehead. “What about us?” “I don't know much. They say it'll probably open again but they will move it in another town.” Patrick doesn
The shop didn't close up early. In fact I just finished my shift. I take one final look outside to see if I could see him. I saw Simon's car drive by a few minutes ago but I couldn't see him outside. Although, I tried to see him but I just got busy with the customers. It pretty gets crazy during the end of my shift. During golden hours. It's always like that with workers, teenagers and couples. Sometimes I mostly serve to young women. I love watching them walk in from works, school or somewhere busy. It lead me to the idea of myself walking to the coffee shops like these with my laptop on my arms and then I would have my car keys clinging to one finger. I would look at the sun outside. I would smile at the server. Get my cup of coffee and sip it outside the sunny breezy day. It would be busy at the office but it would be fun. I always look forward to those dreams I'm still holding in my heart. Dreams that nobody knows but me. Hoping one day, I'll get there. In an office skirt, with
“What's up with you, man?” John slaps my arms but it doesn't hurt me. “Are you okay?” He take the best next to me and places his arms around my shoulders.I don't answer him. I just stare again at the wall in front of me. I have a question about where did I go wrong? But it's never something I could open up to somebody here. I only open up to Era but she's done with me. Like really done. Wanting to get rid of me.I couldn't forget her words earlier, “I just want to live my life the way I should. Don't keep messing it up.” When did I start messing up her life? Why she never told me? Why she looks happy every time we're together? She laughs at everything I say. She smiles. These are not made up tales. I know enough she was happy with me. We enjoyed the time we spend with each other. Or was it all fake? I know that I was watching her enjoy when we talk in silence or in words. She doesn't complain. She never did. So, when did I start messing with her life?Was I a bug that unable her to
Green light turns to red. Red turns to every color I have known. The music blasting loud that I have to cover my ear with my hands to block them out. Thankfully, I found some cups, I assumed untouched, from the kitchen counter before I proceed my way to the back of the house where there is a round empty pool.I take the empty chair beside it and start drinking the cup with my legs settling on the small square table. It's water. I laugh over my stupidity. That's why it's not touched because it's water.It's quite more peaceful here. I wish we have a pool like this in our backyard so I could have more moments like these everytime I go home from work. I touch my gaze to the sky and the stars are like diamonds that no one could ever own. Nobody could own something that is just too far away, to something untouchable. The door pushes open, revealing Cooper. When I was talking to him earlier, he's funny and outgoing. He vibes in and then goes silent so quickly. When his eyes finds me, it's
Cooper surprises me for the last three hours. It's five pm. I got out from shift earlier than I used to. I have Patrick as my substitute. He's staying for another over time. I hope I can call him as a friend now. A hardworking, and considerate friend is what I need right now. When I exited the shop, Cooper is already standing outside the shop. It was on the exact same spot where Simon used to be.We drove right to the dress store so I can change since I didn't really think of preparing. Last night, I felt differed after Simon and I talked in the pool. I watched him left me again. His head was down and it's like the saddest thing I saw. “What about this dress?” Cooper lifts the blue ocean dress in the air. I snap out of thoughts for the tenth time today. I couldn't get him off of my mind.I smile at the beautiful dress. It ties around the neck and it has a V-neck display on the front. “She's perfect.” I grab it from him. Cooper dearly smiles at reaction. “Let me see the price,” I loo
Cooper and I are interrupted with a knock on the door. We wait for it be gone before we exit the comfort room. I'm glad it didn't go far. I wasn't ready at all. And I don't think I would do it with him too soon. Cooper and I drive back to the house which where the party was held last night. He goes straight upstairs while I stay in the room where Simon is sitting next to the door. He doesn't notice me because his eyes are closed tight. “I like your dress.” The girl in a braided hair says. She was the one on the phone earlier. My heart skips a bit. I look down. “Thanks.” I tell her. When I said that Simon opens his eyes as if hearing my voice wakes him. Our eyes hold gaze but it's only for a second. I feel his gaze runs down on my dress and then at me. It's really hard for me to just feel this when I was having a hard time ignoring the thought of him. It was so hard. Does Simon finds me attractive now with this dress? Does he think I'm pretty like the girl beside him?“I gotta lea
Why do sometimes I believe that Era wants me but then the second she realized that she's making me feel that way, she's pulling away like it's something she never wants to do. Because I know, the moment I kissed her she wanted it. So badly. For so long I've been wanting to do that with her but it's just hard to do it. She left being sorry as if the biggest mistake she ever done. It's only been a day since she've known Cooper mad now they're a thing? So fast. Too fast and he gets to kiss as if they're in love already. But in that moment, I know Era doesn't want me there so I went outside. Every moment seems like I'm painstakingly losing her. The girl who have my heart since we were young. We were so young and just the two of us. No Cooper. No one else but us. I wonder if she feels bleary with me. Like she's looking for a new adventure. I know Cooped could give her that adventure. What can I give her then? I'm nothing but a drinker. Cooper is more confident, more elegant, more of i-
The sound of birds chirping from the window wakes me up. Then when I move, I feel a holding my hand. I look down, it's Simon's. He's seated in a chair next to the bed. His face the other direction but I know his messy brown hair. It's his. I always know. I can't help but smile that he's here. My hand reaches out to touch his strands and smooth the ones that are sticking out.I miss touching his hair. I could barely do this. It always feels like a once-in-a-lifetime kind of chance. He stirs and turns to me. He pulls his hand right away like he's not supposed to do that. Right. He's not supposed to. I just forgot about Cooper for a few good minutes. “Good morning.” He sits upright. “How are you feeling?” He doesn't sound worried like Cooper or my father. It's like he already knows I would feel better, eventually. “Better than yesterday.” I say. “Why's your hair get so messy in the morning?” He laughs at himself. And reaches up to fix his hair like he's embarrassed. “Says the one wi