THIRTY

It's been raining for days. I cannot tell if the heavy feeling I've been feeling comes from it or if it's because of what has happened between me and Simon the other day. It didn't end up well. I think it was something we never saw coming and now we have to face the consequence our words brought out to each other. I know I acted wrong and so did he. So I don't really blame myself for the way it turned out. I blame him for calling me bitch at the end. Bit I know I've hurt him so badly bringing up Cooper and comparing him to him.

I've been thinking of calling him but every time I pick my phone Anne calls in. She called me today, telling me that she has to go fly to California for some family matters. I felt the panic begin to make its way to me. This is too soon to happen. She asks if I would to go back for awhile and then come back here until she's back to New York. I know I have to go back. There's no way she's driving Sophie here. It's not the time yet for everyone to see Sophie