4“Mom, I’m so hungry!”Cameron whined from the couch. “Baby, the food is finally here. I just have to unbag it,” Sidney said, unpacking the steaming boxes onto the coffee table.“Can we watch a scary movie?”Sidney hesitated, stalling by continuing to arrange the food on the table and extracting chopsticks and condiments from the brown paper sack. She kept her eyes down on her hands.“Mom! Can we watch a scary movie?” Cameron repeated, louder and with an edge.“Your daddy doesn’t like it when I show you scary movies,” Sidney finally replied.“Daddy just doesn’t like scary movies.”“Also true.”“Please!” Cameron sat up straight and opened his eyes wide at his mother.Sidney smiled, helpless.“OK, bud,” she said, “but not a really scary one.”“Yes!” Cameron threw his fists into the air.He popped up from the couch and moved to snatch a box of lo meinand a set of chopsticks. He nestled back on the couch cushion as Sidney summoned the movie on the flatscreen.“Wh
5“Girl, your Instagramfeed is about to give me nightmares,” Kendra said as she scraped her spoon along the inside of her coffee cup. “You know I do that just for you,” Sidney replied, shuffling into the kitchen beside her.“I know you do.”“Yep. I pick a picture, and I think, this is going to get inside Kendra’s head. Then I sit up on the couch, listening for you to scream in your sleep.”“I’m not even surprised.” Kendra smirked as she sipped from the steaming cup. “Let me pour you a cup. You look like you need it.” “I woke up like this.”“Did you even sleep like this?”“Not really.” Sidney ground her knuckles into her eyes. “I had to get the rest of my reviews from Nightmare Film Fest drafted.”“You don’t have to do anything. You’re not getting paid for this.”“I’m getting paid a little. Just not enough to live on.”“Either way, it’s a side hustle.”“Yeah, and if I hustle hard enough, it can be the main hustle. So, I had to finish the reviews.”“And post creepy a
6“We need to talk,”Aiden said. He opened the screen door for Sidney without looking at her. “Hi Dad!” Cameron beamed, hoisting his backpack and baseball bag.“Hey, buddy. Welcome back,” Aiden said. He smiled broadly and patted Cameron’s shoulder.Sidney’s body seized. Anxiety flared over her nerves, knotting up every muscle her time on the yoga mat had unwound. Her glance flitted as her heart pounded loud and relentless in her ears, avoiding Aiden and the way he refused to look at her. He stood frozen, held the door ajar, and stared at the ground.As many times as she had wanted to walk back into her former home, as many times as she had fantasized about returning to her former life, the threshold felt electric and menacing now. She pressed her teeth into her lips and forced herself to step past Aiden and into the house.Her heart broke with the sound of the screen settling back into the frame. She had not set foot on these floorboards in months. Aiden had taken down all
7In the lateweekend sunlight, Sidney woke to an empty bed, the sheets still cooling from when Tony had vacated before dawn. She ran her palm along the mattress and arched her back until her muscles awakened. She rolled her eyes closed again to bask in the brief quiet of her mind. Before the thoughts would begin to stir again. As it registered that her son was not under her roof, she dragged herself from the comfort of her pillows. Sidney stumbled on half-conscious legs, a light ache drawing lines towards her hips. She smiled at the gentle strain in her step and placed her hands on top of her dresser. As the sleep cleared from her eyes, the miniature blue baby booties came into focus. Aiden had given them to her when they returned home from the hospital after she had Cameron. She had tossed and abandoned everything else Aiden had given her when she was forced from their home, yet she could not part with those. She was still the mother of his child. She pulled her eyes from the
8The baseball crackedagainst the metal bat in a resounding tingSidney almost felt vibrating down her own fingers. The tiny white dot careened into the clear blue sky, arching high above the uniformed children spread out over the diamond. Cameron stood stunned for a split second, staring in amazement at the ball’s flight, before the yelling of his coaches stirred him. He flung the bat as he leaned into his sprint toward first base. Before she realized it, Sidney was on her feet, clapping her hands hard and shrieking her son’s name. She yelped excitedly as he slid into second base. Safe.Still throbbing with pride, Sidney sat back down on the bleachers. She turned and caught Aiden’s glance. He sat a couple rows down and away from her, peering out from beneath his baseball cap. Out of habit, he smiled back at her, mingled in the parental moment. Then he caught himself and snapped his eyes back to the field. Sidney felt the smile turn heavily and fall from her cheeks.“Si
9“OK, Jordan,”Brady said, leaning toward his husband with a sly smile creeping across his face. “We need the blood to look like ‘oops, I killed my one night stand’ and not ‘my maxi pad overflowed’.”“How am I supposed to know what a maxi pad blowout looks like?” Jordan asked. He planted his feet squarely and crossed his arms over his chest.“Sid?”The two men whirled around to Sidney, standing in the bright sunlight of their loft apartment. Sidney startled at their attention, still holding the spa robe wrapped around her naked body. Brady moved in wild and sweeping gestures while Jordan followed him in methodical and measured steps, gently guiding Brady back to focus.“Well, this got awkward,” she giggled.“Educate us on wayward blood flow,” Brady said, brandishing his camera over the bed.Sidney laughed again and stepped forward to join them.“OK,” she started. “Well, obviously all that blood would originate low. So maybe keep ours up more around the pillows. And lots o
10“Thank you allfor coming.” Sidney’s voice quivered slightly as all eyes found her. Her heart pounded happily at the sight of all the faces crammed into her home. Friendly smiles turned toward her, yet the attention caused her mind to flicker at the same time. She took a deep breath and licked her lips.Her eyes darted around her party, flitting between guests. She had to consciously slip a breath into her speech and slow her focus between each attendee. She stood on the edge of the kitchen, facing out into their dining room. Kendra perched on the first chair, both shoulders facing her, back aligned in effortless posture as always. Amy and Carla squeezed in behind her, Carla absorbing all the color between the two as she compulsively tugged down the hem of a too-short red dress and Amy reclined in plain gray.“We are here tonight to celebrate the launch of my new blog, Final Girl Screaming. All of you are my inner circle, my support system. My lovely roommate, Kendra, who
11“Ithink theonly reason you bring me to this thing is so that I can drive while you play on your phone,” Wes said from the driver’s seat, the jagged mountain edge of the Colorado scenery sliding across the car windows. “I’m not playing. I’m working,” Sidney replied, her eyes still glued to her phone.Wes shot her a glance from behind his sunglasses.“Fine,” Sidney agreed. “I’m mostly working. Playing a little bit.”“Have to keep those stalkers engaged.”“Stalkers and readers. You know these festivals are a huge bump for me.”“Oh, I know.” Wes snaked a piece of licorice out of the bag and snapped it between his teeth. “I would be tweeting too. If I wasn’t, you know, driving you.”“Driving us,” Sidney giggled. She momentarily set her phone down on her lap. “Damn, I’m so excited. Telluride Horror Show is my favorite horror fest.”“Mine too. Not that I’ve been to as many as you.”Wes smiled as he stared out the windshield. Anticipation vibrated between them and fil