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Chapter 32. Shattered
ADRIANA
I wake up to a cold and empty bed, my body feels like it’s been hit by a freight train and my arms are twisted above my head. I find them cuffed on the headboard and the realization that last night was real and not a nightmare dawns on me.
Hurt, shame and numbness fills me. How could he, I’m his mate, what did I do wrong? Why would he hurt me like this and why did my body like it? Tears start slipping from my eyes and I curl up again, utterly naked on the bed and silently crying. If the world could just swallow me whole and forget me, I wouldn’t be regret it if it did.
I sit up when I hear heavy footsteps coming up the stairs and I feel for my wolf, I need her now, need her strength. Alexis whimpers, beat down by the events of last night, beat down that he really raped us. “I’m sorry.” Is all she can muster and she curls up, hugging the part of me that resides next to her.
When I hear the doorknob twist I sit up
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