Chapter 5

Ella's POV

What was that? What does he mean he loves me? We did it just today. Like he had just gotten close to me only today and that was because I came to him.

Come to think of it, Ryan was rigid and didn't always give attention to girls in our school, and when I came to him, it was all easy. He didn't even fight it. Does that mean, he truly loves me?

“Since when?” I asked, my brows raised, heart beating faster.

“Since we started school Ella. I've always loved you, but I just wanted us to get into the university first before I let you know about anything, but all these already happened and now I have to let you know.”

This amazed me. When I came to him, I didn't have any intention to love him or make him love me.

All I wanted was to just f*ck him and move on, but now he loved me?

“I'm sorry Ryan. I can't love you back.” I said, my voice low.

“Is it because we are stepsiblings now?” he muttered, his expression as if he was broken by my reply.

“We are not even related by blood, we can work this out, Ella. Believe me,” he added.

“That's not why,” I said, my voice almost in whispers.

“Then why, Ella? Give us a chance please. I want you with me. In my life, forever.” he muttered and suddenly, tears welled up in my eyes.

“I can't,” I muttered, struggling to leave his embrace and go to my room. But he held me strongly to himself.

“Don't do this elsewhere again, I'm here to fix that. I'll give it to you anytime and anyhow you want it, Ella.”

This made tears roll down my face. This was more than him. I had an addiction to s*x. Not just to s*x but to different men’s d!ck. I wouldn't stay faithful to him. I shouldn't be in a relationship.

“Don't do this to yourself, don't do this to me, let just f*ck and forget about it,” I muttered and I could see the hurtful look in his eyes.

“No, I want you only to myself,” he said, his voice almost louder. And my eyes darted around.

“Don't worry. The walls are soundproof,” he muttered and my mind felt at ease.

“Ryan. I would tell you the truth because I'm not even ashamed of it. The only person I'm keeping my other side secret from is my mother, and that's because, her heart issues and BP might spike and she might die. That's why I'm still keeping this good girl image and studying.” I blabbered but he nodded softly, still looking into my eyes.

“And I commend you for that,” he muttered, his eyes soft and pleased. The lust I saw in his eyes earlier was now replaced with affection.

“You don't really know who I am Ryan. Let me go. I can't do what you're asking for. I can't commit. But you can always f*ck me. “ I muttered, of course dripping again.

I wanted him now, not his heart but his d!ck. That huge cock in between his legs—I don't need his love.

“Ella. I’ll f*ck you. But I want to be doing that to you as my woman.”

“Well then goodbye,” I said, struggling to wriggle free again but he wouldn't let me.

“Tell me what the problem is. I can see you love me too Ella. What's the problem? Why are you rejecting us?” he muttered and I raised my brows.

How do I love him? What was love to this guy? Just f*king him once? Why was he being delusional.

Now I became genuinely curious. Why does he think I actually love him? Was it the fact that I get excited by his body? Or was it the fact that I also loved watching him when he was on the field or in class.

Wait what? I also used to peek at Ryan in every corner he was. I knew everything he did and didn't do in school. Does that mean I love him too? Gosh, he was confusing me now.

Well, I would just tell him everything and have him leave me alone.

“I'm addicted to s*x Ryan…” I said, my tone flat.

“I know that.” he wouldn't let me finish and interrupted. Gosh. How do I add the fact that I loved different d!ck too?

“And I like doing it with different men. I wouldn't stay faithful to you.” I finally added.

He was quiet for some moments. Then sighed.

“We can fix that too,” he said and my eyes fluttered at him.

“I’ll give you every style you want me to Ella. Let's give it a try. You can't continue like this forever. Your addiction needs to be conquered. One day your mummy will find out about this life you're living and you wouldn't be proud of it.”

“You don't have a different d!ck size. I want a different d!ck size every time.”

All that he was saying, wasn't any of my concern. Mother would never find out about my s*x life. I promise that.

“Ella, think about this again. She'll eventually find out and that wouldn't be good. Give us a chance and leave this lifestyle alone. Even in class, you can ask me to follow you and zip down, I’ll do it..” he said and for some moment, my heart melted.

Maybe I should give us a chance. Maybe it was time to finally stick to one d!ck.

I didn't know how we would work this out as stepsiblings now, but he sounds convincing and we might be given a chance.

I also want to love him now. He wasn't rough with me and also treated me like a queen already. Even when we were doing s*x earlier, I felt loved from it, not the usual flat f*ck I used to have.

“Well then, let's give this a try,” I said and his eyes shone bright.

“I love you, Ella,” he said and swiftly took my lips into his.

He began kissing me with so much passion. I kissed back, this time, not with emptiness, but with love in my heart. The feeling that said this person belonged to me now and only I have access to his d!ck just as I would try for my pvssy to belong to only him.

His hand traced my stomach to my boobs, he squeezed it gently, moans escalated from my lungs.

“Let’s go to my room,” he said, his voice husky, then picked me up in bridal style, his face beaming with fulfillment and longing as we rushed to his room.