Mabilis akong nag-impake habang nang-gigigil ako sa ginawa nya ngayon, yes. I pushed him, pero it doesn't matter na aalis sya at iiwas tungkol sa usapan namin sa Annulment
This is the best thing that will happen to us, hindi na talaga umuusad ang relasyon namin, we're stuck on like Each other's beed warmer. Sana kung ganon hindi nalang ako nagpakasal at nanawala ako sa buhay ko
I thought my life is a fairytale when I get married to Edward, but it's a biggest mistake that I regret choosing
I dial my attorney's number and after a few call sinagot nya na
"Hello, Noringco andyan kaba?" I asked habang kinuha ang paborito kong stilettos
"Oh yeah, I'm here. W-why?" Kumunot ang noo ko at naiinis na nilapag ang phone ko
"Deeper baby, I like that" I roll my eyes and drop my call
Balasubas talaga babaeng ito, when I look at my phone it's past 4 AM dali dali na akong umalis habang dala dala ang Hermes bag ko at ang maleta ko
"China, ano nasan kana?" I ask Edward's cousin, she's pure chinese
"Yes, I am here at the lobby" mabilis akong bumaba hanggang sa ground floor ay pinagtitinginan ako
"Kailangan natin bilisan, nasa LA na sila" sabi ko saka kami hinatid ng driver nya papunta sa airport at dinala sa private yard
"Akala ko nagbook ka ng flight?" Tanong ko at umiling sya
"Baka 7 pa tayo makaalis. Kaya ako natagalan kase nahirapan ako ng ma-rerent na private jet" I grin at her bago kami umakyat sa jet at mabilis na nakalipad
"How long you been married to my cousin ate?" Tanong nya saka nagsalin ng vodka sa baso
"Hmm, let me guess" I drink the alcohol saka tumawa ng sandali
"Two years na, but he never treat me like a real wife. Even my business, kailangan ko daw isettle ang lahat like what the heck is that. I'm not pregnant so I can work" reklamo ko at nagsalin muli ng alak sa baso ko
"He's always at business tour na sinasabi nya and this is the first time na susunod ako kung nasaan sya, he's busy when I am asking for his attention but when he ask for my attention I was there and give everything he ask to me" naluluha na saad ko
And that's the reason why I divert my attention to other people, and he give what I want to have
"Kuya is such a jerk, pero ayaw nya na mawala ka sa kanya. Stupid" we laugh in chorus
I didn't notice that we drink a lot of alcohol, nakakaloko din naman kase pinag gagawa nila saamin
"To be honest ate, I really like you for my cousin. We want a better woman for him, but it looks like he's not mature and ready on path that he chose, that's why I am afraid to get married. Look at my boy, he always act like he's not committed. I want a mature one" kahit ako, I deserve better thab him
If he can't change, then I will leave. I don't deserve a guy like him. If he's irresponsible now, what about in future. Huwag nya idahilan na kaya sya ganyan kase wala pa syang anak
If he really loves me, I am enough to make him stay and happy
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"Ate wake up, naka land na tayo"
She slightly tap my shoulder and I look at her, at nagkukusot pa si china ng mata
"This is it, kapag may mangyare man ngayon kailangan matatag tayo" I try to encourage her, she look tense and sad at the same that she's trying to cheer up her own mood
Bilib din ako sa lakas ng loob nya, dati kase I am afraid to know what's going on with Edward's business. Ayoko din na parang naooffend sya sa mga itatanong ko, I believe before that we must respect each others decision
Pero iba na ngayon, he's getting into my nerves. He make me mad, kahit na hindi ko naman sya tanungin atl least he report what happen to him when he's far away from me. Tapos mababalitaan ko nag country hopping sila at nag bar. It's not acceptable, I have enough I understand every thing he said to me
"Ate, pano tayo tapos nito?" She ask and I took a deep breath and my lips form a thin line, I also don't know what will I do, I literally no plan after this
"It depends on situation" sabi ko habang naglalakad papalabas sa airport ng Los Angeles California, pinagtitinginan ako sa di malamang dahilan. Nahiya ako bigla at tinignan ang suot ko na ayos lang naman
What's wrong with them?
Sandali lang kami sa airport, tapos namin antayin ang gamit namin ay may kotse na nakaabang
"Hi, I am Baniez nice to meet you po" she said sakaa tumungo
"Ate, sya nga pala kaibigan ko. Ayoko kase mag taxi tayo kaya ayun" natatawa ako kay china habang papasok kami sa kotse
I know her, kahit anong public transportation sinasakyan except me. I prefer a private car or rental car kesa sa taxi. I also don't know, because of how my family raised me
"Daan muna tayo sa hotel natin bago tayo sumunod sa appointment nila" I said saka ko nanaman naramdaman ang galit ng maalala ko bakit nga ba kami pumunta dito
"It's evening here, bihira ang night meeting dito. If that's urgent saka lang meron" nagkatinginan kami sa sinabi ni baniez
"Kaya na ban, these guys are such a pain in our life" reklamo ni china
"I already said it china, hiwalayan mo na. Pati ako nastress na sa love life mo, hanggang di pa kayo kasal free yourself" naiintindihan ko ang mga sinasabi nya kay china. May point sya and maybe this is the right decision
"Yeah that's true, kapag kasal na kayo sayang lang ang lahat, mula pera, oras, pagkakataon" I said not until I saw edward, he's kissing the girl at the entrance of bar
The way he kissed that girl, he enjoy it and I saw how that hoe almost moan
And they laugh and walk a few steps saka pumasok sa hotel
"Love, and efforts.." dugtong ko
It's so excruciating, I don't want to feel this way. I hate it
Ganito pala kasakit if you saw it with your bare eyes
Sorrowful
When i was young i always seek for attention from all the people that i know they have interest in me, sa murang edad alam ko na pano malaman kung may kailangan ba ang tao sayo o gusto ka lang nila kaibiganinIt's really hard for me to have a real friend because i am crazy rich and all of them want to have the spotlight and money that i haveIt's frustrating for me to watch them walk away from me after they get what they wantIn other word, they took advantage of my kindnessKaya doon ako natuto na lumaban at ipakita ang sarili ko, ipamuka sa kanila na hindi ko kailangan ng kaibigan, all i need is myself and my family.Until i grew older, met Edward in the company. He's wearing his dashing smiles that all woman offer their body to him, his body that really goodI find him attractive but i see him as a simple guy, lahat naman ng lalaki pare-pareho kaya bakit k
"What the fuck? Don't touch me!" sigaw ko habang nakatitig sya saakin"It's me Elisha, si Oakley" nakangiti na saad neto pero tinulak ko ulit sya at pilit na kumakawala sa pag kakakapit nya saakin"I thought you don't remember me, kaya bakit andito ka?!" sigaw ko muli at nag lakad palayo sa kanyaSumunod naman sya saakin agad at kinapitan ang kamay ko"I'm sorry Elisha, nalaman ko na kasama mo si Edward, kaya nagalit ako. Nainis ako at akala ko bumalik kana kay Edward. Kaya sinabi ko na hindi kita kilala, nag panggap ako na di kita kilala kase gusto ko itago na nasasaktan ako" i smirk and slap his face"I can't remember everything, all i know is edward cheated on me and i cheated to him too, and you are my lover and the miscarriage of Edward's baby and the rest hindi ko na maalala. Just because of your pride you act like you don't know me?" naiinis na saad ko sa kanya&nbs
Tulala ako sa ginagawa ni edward habang sya ay busy sa pag lilinis ng yate na nakadaong sa isla. His personal driver is with us at pinag uusapan nila kung saan kami susunod na pupuntaAfter what happen on us he become more careful on his actions. Sobrang maalaga saakin, i can't even walk or go to the bathroom akala nya siguro tatakasan ko sya or whatNaawa ako sa kanya, because of that. Masyado ba akong gago before the accident"Edward, i have questions" he look at me and he smile at me"What is it, love?" he ask and kiss my templeI feel the love when his skin touch mine, i feel like he's really true to his words. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam lalo na kung totoo ang pinaparamdam sayo ng tao, but somehow there's a space inside my heart that i can't explain how i can fill the space"Do you think if the accident won't happen, may mangyayari bang maganda s
Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang nakatitig ako sa kawalanTangging dagat at hampas ng hangin ang nararamdaman ko, natapos ang usapan namin ni oakley ay para bang may kung ano sa kalooban ko na napakasakit, alam ko na hindi pa gaanong kumpleto ang alaala ko pero kahit ganon naniniwala ako sa lahat na sinabi ni edward saakinAno bang meron at nangyari at hindi ko binigyan ng pagkakataon na mag kaayos kami ni edward, bakit ko nagawa ang bagay na iyon noon."Mag kakasakit ka sa ginagawa mo elisha" i look at edward and my tears start falling. Kahit na umiiyak ako hindi nya kita, because its raining"I just want to answer every single questions that keeps bothering me, ang hirap ng ganito." He sit beside me and hold my hand, nilagay sa palad ko ang white gold ring na may naka engrave ng pangalan nya at taon na sa tingin ko ay araw kung kailan kami kinasal"I keep this all the time, kahi
"Sorry! shit, no Elisha, don't cry" he stop kissing me at umalis sa ibabaw ko habang di ko mapigilan ang pag hikbi ko, why i feel so weak"I want to go back where i am" i whisper when he help me to sit"Elisha" he said and i pushed edward"What do you want to me? Bakit parang iniiwas mo ako. Bakit ganto ang nangyayari saakin. I saw at the gallery on my phone, i am with other man. It's Oakley and marcist said him and i have a accident and now. Why i am with you, anong nangyari. You're acting differently, keeping me at this place makes me think that we broke up and you're being crazy now. Now tell me what happened to us? " maayos na tanong ko habang mas lalo syang hindi makasagot"Mahirap ba ang tinatanong ko?!""Hiwalay na tayo, and you cheated on me while i am on LA trip. Oakley is the guy you met on party, and have a one night stand with him, and i also cheated on you for so man
"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me goMy husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effortHindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay koWell, they love each other that's why"Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich"She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap"I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile"I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head"It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka
"Kailan ba tayo tatantanan ng problema, lagi nalang nakasunod saatin ang problema. We can't live in peace" nakapikit ako habang nakasandal lang, kakaalis lang namin sa bahay nila Oakley after kong apihin si veda na santaSanta santahan, deputa. Hindi sya marunong tumupad sa usapan, paiba iba sya ng gusto nyang mangyareShe's a real bitch, kung di nya makuha si Edward babalik sya kay Oakley, nakakahiyang uri ng babae"Don't worry, magiging ayos din ang lahat just trust me okay?" i nod and he smile at me while looking at my eyesHe gently lift my hands and kissed it"You don't know how lucky i am when i found you Elisha, after i saw and tasted you. Alam ko na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kung ano man ang meron sayo na wala sa ibang babae na hindi ko nakita""You're so precious, a woman like you is hard to find. Para kang nag hahanap ng perlas sa disyerto
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina