I'm walking like a queen, but my mind kills me dahil sa sobrang kaba at takot.
This is the very first time that he demand and act like a beast, a real beast
"Calm down elisha, mag-uusap lang" pagkababa ko sa kotse ay bumungad ang galit na muka ni Edward saakin at nakaabang sya sa pinto ng bahay namin habang may kapit na kopita
"Where have you been my wife? You know that when I got home, you're the only one that I want to see" nilampasan ko lang sya at diretsyong pumasok sa living room
"Wag na tayo maglokohan dito Edward, sanay nako na aalis ka nanaman ng paulit ulit kahit na pagbawalan kita. I need space, since you never listen to me, may sarilu kang desisyon and my decision is not a big deal to you so that's the main reason why I start to build a wall between us Edward" sagot ko sa kanya bago ako maglagay ng alak sa glass wine at nilagok ito
He hugged me at my back and caressed my arm and tummy
"You know that it's for our future"
I mimicked him and he frowned
"For our future or for your own benifit? Sa tingin mo matutuwa ako sa ginagawa mo ha Edward? Every month nasa USA ka? Hindi mo maiwan nga kabit mong kano? How long you'll treat me like this?" Nanginginig na saad ko saka nagsalin ulit ng alak
"Please, I need your trust and patience my wife-" I interrupt him and slap his face
"I'm out of patience Edward! I have enough, this marriage is the biggest mistake I ever made! This life of us never work, kahit kailan hinding hindi moko binigyan ng atensyon na para saakin. I am your wife sa papel pero sa puta de papel lang, ginampanan mo ba pagiging asawa mo saakin? Your responsibility? Did you do it right? Para lang kitang dildo, all the best thing that you ever did to me is to pleasure me" napalunok ako sa mga sinabi ko
Sya paba talaga ang nakakagawa noon sakin, or it's him now
"Baby I'm sorry." Umiling ako at umakyat sa kwarto namin
Kinuha ko ang marriage contract namin habang nasa baba sya
"You see this shit!" Sigaw ko sa kanya bago ko hinampas sa muka nya
"I want a annulment Edward, I don't want any of this! I want to enjoy my life hindi yung ikukulong mo ako dito at ikaw nag eenjoy sa labas!" I shout and left him dumbfounded kahit ako hindi ko alam pano ko nagawa ang lahat ng iyon
"Bahala ka sa buhay mo gago" I whisper saka umalis at humarurot paalis ng mansyon, it's been a long day bago kami nagaway ng ganito
Dumiretsyo ako sa condo unit ko noong dalaga pa ako, I'm still the BGC girl, never yon magbabago. Kahit wala si Edward sa tabi ko, I can live to the fullest.
My money and businesses, sapat na sila para buhayin hanggang sa apo ko sa tuhod
"Hi Ms. Elisha, welcome po" I smile a bit bago tinanggap ang susi ng unit ko
I miss this place, dati lagi akong uuwi ng wasted, madaling araw at pagod.
Kapag may meetings ako, business trip and more. Dito at dito ako umuuwi
"Wow, I can't believe" natulala ako ng makapasok ako sa unit ko at kung gaano ito kalinis nung umalis ako ay ganon padin
I still remember the day that Edward courts me, lagi sya nagiiwan ng bulaklak sa labas ng unit ko
Binabantayan ako sa bar at hanggang sa trabaho ko, hindi pa kami pero binabakuran na ako
"I hate his dick" I murmur and remove all I'm wearing
Dumiretsyo ako sa bathtub at nag babad doon, this day is one of the stressful day of my life
"I swear to god I kill him, wag na wag ko lang malalaman na may babae sya sa US ako mismo papatay sa kanila!" Sigaw ko bago tumunog ang doorbell ng unit ko
Nag tapis ako at madaling lumakad papunta sa pinto
"Elisha, please. Let's talk" I look at him while he's holding the bottle of beer
"Will you give moment for myself, tangina puro nararamdaman mo lang ang importante" diretsyong sagot ko sa kanya and he laugh
"I don't know if I going to be mad at you or I will fuck you because you're sizzling hot when you cussing and talking like that. You never failed to make my dick hard baby" he's about to touch my neck when I pushed him away
"Hanggang ganyan lang kaya mo diba? You can't handle my wrath that's why you're trying to get in my weakness? Ganyang kababa ba talaga ang tingin mo sakin Edward?" Iritadong tanong ko at tinulak sya palayo sa pinto ng unit ko
"Napakabastos ng ugali at bibig mo" I cried at the first time, akala ko kanina hindi ako maiiyak pero sumabog na lahat ng kinikimkim ko dahil sa ginawa nya saakin
"Baby no, listen to me. I love you, please don't doubt my feelings for you"
"Sinungaling! I want annulment, that's final. Bukas mo ako kausapin kapag andito na ang attorney ko!" I said and slam the door, he's getting into my nerves.
He always irritate and make my day bad
Madali akong nagbihis at nag-ayos para makalabas ako mamaya at makainom, I'm fuckin' stress at him. Minsan kailangan kong piliin ang sarili ko para sa ikaluluwag ng nararamdaman ko
I'm finally ready when my phone rang, it's Edward's cousin. Ano nanaman na prank ito pati ba pinsan nya gagamitin nya para mang gulo saakin
I ignore it, bago ako tumingin sa salamin at sinilid sa pouch ko ang phone ko at lumakad palabas
I thank god that he's not here, I can go freely as much as I want
Hanggang di kami natatapos di matattahimik ang kaluluwa ko
"Ma'am, Si Mr. Go po nagiwan ng flowers-"
"Pakitapon please, ayoko na makatanggap ng bulaklak sa unit ko okay?" I said to them and start the engine of my car
Madaming masasarap na bar dito sa BGC pero iba padin kapag sa makati, para saakin.
Hindi padin ako tinitigilan ng pinsan ni edward ng sagutin ko na ang tawag nya
"What?" Galit na tanong ko at inaantay na magsalita
"Listen to me ate Elisha, kuya edward is flying to LA again! With his friends!" Gigil na sumbong nya saka ako mas lalong nastress sa balita nya
"When?"
"2 hours ago? Gamit private plan nya" mas lalo ako nang galaite sa binalita nya
"Book a flight, samahan moko, magpupunta din tayo sa LA" naiinis na saad ko bago ko niliko ang sasakyan at bumalik sa unit
"You're busted Edward Go" I said while smiling
When i was young i always seek for attention from all the people that i know they have interest in me, sa murang edad alam ko na pano malaman kung may kailangan ba ang tao sayo o gusto ka lang nila kaibiganinIt's really hard for me to have a real friend because i am crazy rich and all of them want to have the spotlight and money that i haveIt's frustrating for me to watch them walk away from me after they get what they wantIn other word, they took advantage of my kindnessKaya doon ako natuto na lumaban at ipakita ang sarili ko, ipamuka sa kanila na hindi ko kailangan ng kaibigan, all i need is myself and my family.Until i grew older, met Edward in the company. He's wearing his dashing smiles that all woman offer their body to him, his body that really goodI find him attractive but i see him as a simple guy, lahat naman ng lalaki pare-pareho kaya bakit k
"What the fuck? Don't touch me!" sigaw ko habang nakatitig sya saakin"It's me Elisha, si Oakley" nakangiti na saad neto pero tinulak ko ulit sya at pilit na kumakawala sa pag kakakapit nya saakin"I thought you don't remember me, kaya bakit andito ka?!" sigaw ko muli at nag lakad palayo sa kanyaSumunod naman sya saakin agad at kinapitan ang kamay ko"I'm sorry Elisha, nalaman ko na kasama mo si Edward, kaya nagalit ako. Nainis ako at akala ko bumalik kana kay Edward. Kaya sinabi ko na hindi kita kilala, nag panggap ako na di kita kilala kase gusto ko itago na nasasaktan ako" i smirk and slap his face"I can't remember everything, all i know is edward cheated on me and i cheated to him too, and you are my lover and the miscarriage of Edward's baby and the rest hindi ko na maalala. Just because of your pride you act like you don't know me?" naiinis na saad ko sa kanya&nbs
Tulala ako sa ginagawa ni edward habang sya ay busy sa pag lilinis ng yate na nakadaong sa isla. His personal driver is with us at pinag uusapan nila kung saan kami susunod na pupuntaAfter what happen on us he become more careful on his actions. Sobrang maalaga saakin, i can't even walk or go to the bathroom akala nya siguro tatakasan ko sya or whatNaawa ako sa kanya, because of that. Masyado ba akong gago before the accident"Edward, i have questions" he look at me and he smile at me"What is it, love?" he ask and kiss my templeI feel the love when his skin touch mine, i feel like he's really true to his words. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam lalo na kung totoo ang pinaparamdam sayo ng tao, but somehow there's a space inside my heart that i can't explain how i can fill the space"Do you think if the accident won't happen, may mangyayari bang maganda s
Nanginginig ang kamay ko habang nakatitig ako sa kawalanTangging dagat at hampas ng hangin ang nararamdaman ko, natapos ang usapan namin ni oakley ay para bang may kung ano sa kalooban ko na napakasakit, alam ko na hindi pa gaanong kumpleto ang alaala ko pero kahit ganon naniniwala ako sa lahat na sinabi ni edward saakinAno bang meron at nangyari at hindi ko binigyan ng pagkakataon na mag kaayos kami ni edward, bakit ko nagawa ang bagay na iyon noon."Mag kakasakit ka sa ginagawa mo elisha" i look at edward and my tears start falling. Kahit na umiiyak ako hindi nya kita, because its raining"I just want to answer every single questions that keeps bothering me, ang hirap ng ganito." He sit beside me and hold my hand, nilagay sa palad ko ang white gold ring na may naka engrave ng pangalan nya at taon na sa tingin ko ay araw kung kailan kami kinasal"I keep this all the time, kahi
"Sorry! shit, no Elisha, don't cry" he stop kissing me at umalis sa ibabaw ko habang di ko mapigilan ang pag hikbi ko, why i feel so weak"I want to go back where i am" i whisper when he help me to sit"Elisha" he said and i pushed edward"What do you want to me? Bakit parang iniiwas mo ako. Bakit ganto ang nangyayari saakin. I saw at the gallery on my phone, i am with other man. It's Oakley and marcist said him and i have a accident and now. Why i am with you, anong nangyari. You're acting differently, keeping me at this place makes me think that we broke up and you're being crazy now. Now tell me what happened to us? " maayos na tanong ko habang mas lalo syang hindi makasagot"Mahirap ba ang tinatanong ko?!""Hiwalay na tayo, and you cheated on me while i am on LA trip. Oakley is the guy you met on party, and have a one night stand with him, and i also cheated on you for so man
"Anak kumain ka muna habang inaantay nadin ang papa mo" i look at my mom while Edward is beside me holding my hands like he won't never let me goMy husband is so sweet, i really appreciate his effortHindi ko alam bakit ang tahimik ng nanay ko at parang naiinip na hindi nakikita ang tatay koWell, they love each other that's why"Ma, where is ate Zaraya, busy padin ba sya?" i ask saka ako sumubo ng sandwich"She's out of the town anak, pero bibisitahin kadin ng kapatid mo" tumango lang ako at tinignan si edward na may halos ipitin ako sa yakap"I miss you so damn much Elisha" he gently carress my hair and smile"I don't know what to say edward, hindi ko alam kung ano itong nararamdaman ko ngayon" he smile and kiss my head"It's happiness Elisha, you're happy because we will have another honeymoon trip after mong maka
"Kailan ba tayo tatantanan ng problema, lagi nalang nakasunod saatin ang problema. We can't live in peace" nakapikit ako habang nakasandal lang, kakaalis lang namin sa bahay nila Oakley after kong apihin si veda na santaSanta santahan, deputa. Hindi sya marunong tumupad sa usapan, paiba iba sya ng gusto nyang mangyareShe's a real bitch, kung di nya makuha si Edward babalik sya kay Oakley, nakakahiyang uri ng babae"Don't worry, magiging ayos din ang lahat just trust me okay?" i nod and he smile at me while looking at my eyesHe gently lift my hands and kissed it"You don't know how lucky i am when i found you Elisha, after i saw and tasted you. Alam ko na hindi na ako makakawala pa sa kung ano man ang meron sayo na wala sa ibang babae na hindi ko nakita""You're so precious, a woman like you is hard to find. Para kang nag hahanap ng perlas sa disyerto
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina